May. 1, 2008 - Weight confessions
I need to confess..... I HATE the way I look. There it's out. I feel so frumpy, DH assures me I am not and he doesn't see me that way, but I feel that way. We all know how hard it is to overcome our own minds when we think we look a certain way. I honestly right now see myself in such a bad light I can't understand how my DH , children, other family and even the Lord can love me. I just feel so ugly. I keep thinking back to when I lost that 40lbs when I was pregnant with Bethanne and how great I felt. I felt like I could go 24 hours 7 days a week with no sleep, it was wonderful I had so much energy - I had no idea a pregnant woman could have that much energy. Then I had Bethanne and knew I could go back to my old eating habits and realized all the wonderful, gormet food that the hospital has catered in and was in food heaven. I gained all the weight back plus some. It's going to be hard and I know some days I will fail, but I am going to try to start watching what I put in my mouth. I am giving though to following an even stricter diabetes diet, like the one I was on with Bethanne, even though I am not currently pregnant so I can start to see some weight loss. I have been drinking a lot of water this past week and trying to wean myself off the soda again so I don't get the massive migraines I was getting last month from cold turkey. I am going to start measuring out my milk, limiting myself to 8oz cup for breakfast, along with two 8 oz cups for a snack or for lunch. So this is my goal for the next week - keep drinking the water and limiting the soda and measuring my milk. To some this may not seem like much but for a milk drinker like me limiting my carbs from milk is a big thing, next week I'd like to work on my Tim Horton's addiction 1) because we can't really afford it and 2) because the large iced capps are taking their toll on my body. So here we go. I have already had my two cups of milk with breakfast, along with a bowl of oatmeal and 4 pieces of turkey bacon. I will have to snack later before lunch or my blood sugar will drop too much and that is a bad feeling plus then I eat everything in sight - I finished off a bag of potato chips and doritos with the children yesterday :( Thank you for reading my little confession. Please pray for me if you feel led.
Editing to say I actually drank tap water with lunch - wasn't too bad, not my bottle water but we were out. I had a frozen homemade chicken burrito with some sour cream for lunch and just now I had a popsicle. My BS after lunch was 75, a little low but at least it's in sort of range LOL. I was getting shaky though, hence the reason I had a popsicle.
Comments
May. 1, 2008 - <em>Untitled Comment</em>
Posted by PrairieLady
Hey girl. You are doing the first best thing!!!! Setting goals! Great Job. I would not just measure my milk but measure everything so you can really get to know what a serving is.
You already know I have quite a few tips on my blog. :) Hey I have a fix it and enjoy it diabetes book I was selling. Spiral bound. Didn't know if you'de be interested. (No pressure.)
If you would like personal acct. I am open to helping you through the personal messages on here. Sometimes I do so much better when I know I have to tell someone that I ate it so I don't eat it.
Just wanted to tell you great job. Your off to a great start.
Love ya,
PL
HELLO PL.
TRUST ME I AM CUTTING BACK ON PORTIONS. USUALLY I WOULD EAT FOUR OR FIVE PANCAKES AND NOW I AM LIMITING MYSELF TO TWO WOW!!!! THE WATER IS GOING GOOD AND I HAVE REALLY CUT BACK ON THE POP. PROBABLY THE REASON FOR THE SEVERE MIGRAINES THE LAST COUPLE OF DAYS. THAT IS GREAT, THANK YOU FOR THE OFFER. I RESCHEDULED MY DR APPT FOR LATER THIS MONTH SO HOPEFULLY I WILL HAVE SOME WEIGHT LOSS.
Edited by OhioSarah on May. 9, 2008 at 8:13 AM
May. 4, 2008 - <em>Untitled Comment</em>
Posted by Amy
I swear you and I have so much in common it's just not funny. Two weeks ago I started pushing myself to drink more water and less Mountain Dew-- I've got a big water bottle and I'm trying to get though two a day. (It helps that I'm working more and I work with health-care people!) Then, last week DH and I decided that we both need to lose weight, so we're trying to figure out a "prize" and make it into a contest for ourselves. (Yes, we're childish, but hey, whatever motivates us, right?)
At any rate... good luck! I know you can do it. I think you're perfectly lovable the way you are, by the way ;) , but if this will make you feel better about yourself, then I will pray for strength for you!
HI AMY
LONG LOST SISTERS? I HAVE ALWAYS WANTED ONE LOL!!! I CAN'T DO TAP WATER, TO ME IT TASTES SO ICKY. ALWAYS HAS WHICH IS THE REASON I HAD SO MANY UTIs AS A CHILD. THANK YOU FOR THAT. I KNOW DON DOESN'T SEE ANYTHING WRONG WITH ME EITHER IT'S JUST ME.
Edited by OhioSarah on May. 9, 2008 at 8:16 AM
May. 6, 2008 - <em>Untitled Comment</em>
Posted by TF
Hi Sarah :)
I will be praying for you, I know how hard it can be to lose weight. I hope you are doing well and having a blessed week.
THANK YOU TF.
Edited by OhioSarah on May. 9, 2008 at 8:17 AM
