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This is a prayer request. The letter is self explanatory. Please pray as God leads.My Dear older sister, (who I don't know how reach).
Hi, how are you doing? Today is Thanksgiving Day and I tried to call you only to find that your phone number is no longer your phone number! This is the phone number you gave me in September, so it must have changed very recently.
You have been on my heart a lot lately. I wonder how you are… I wonder if you know that I miss you. Are you okay? I really do care about you, I don’t know if you believe that or not, but it’s true. I wish there was some way I could fix all of the things in our childhood that have caused you pain, some way I could heal your spirit of the wounds that our upbringing caused. I know we both experienced a lot of abuse and mistreatment as children, and we both bear scars- it seems that yours are deeper than mine at this time, but it has not always been so. There was a time when my own scars paralyzed me from living as I should, there was a time when the twisted remnants of the way we were raised affected everything I did, and kept me from being able to accept the cleansing that Jesus offered.
Even after I accepted the Lord, there were strongholds in my life that caused me to act in ways that I am now ashamed of. God has worked many miracles in my life, and has broken down many strongholds. Of course, He is still at work, each day I must choose to walk with Him that day, to let Him have that day for His purposes. I often fail, but I can wake each day knowing that the Lord’s mercies are new. That He has cleansed away my past and walks with me each day.
Yes, there are things in my past that even now haunt me. Things I did that cause me to yearn for the ability to go back and fix it. But I can’t, there is nothing I can do that would right the wrongs I have done, nothing I can do to pay for my own sin and wash it away. I must release those things to the Lord, and trust Him to work miracles in the lives of anyone I have hurt, just as He has worked miracles in my life to heal the hurts that have been done to me.
It has been a struggle to learn to walk with Him, to accept His cleansing, His forgiveness. It has been a struggle to accept His love since I know full well that I don’t deserve it. Slowly He has convinced me of His love, of His care. He has convinced me that what He sees in me is not the stain of my own sin, but the perfection of His Son because of the sacrifice of Christ on the Cross. Over the past couple of decades since I came to Christ… He has taught me how to walk in the pure joy of His love.
When I hear of the pain you are in now, when I hear that you are struggling, bound with the sin of alcoholism, bound with the pain of our past. I wish there was some way that I could just pour out the blessings of heaven on you. I wish there was a way I could breathe the power of the Holy Spirit into your life so that you could live life with the fullness of joy that only He can bring. I wish I could do all these things, but I cannot. Only the Lord can, and He won’t unless you give Him permission to control every aspect of your life. I know that once before you prayed for Jesus to be your Savior. But I ask that you would examine yourself… did you ever really, really trust Him and accept His forgiveness? Did you ever truly yield your life… all of it… past, present and future, into His care? If you can say with surety that yes, you did, then I beg you to return to Him because He loves you still. If you cannot honestly answer yes to those questions then I pray that you will seek Him once again, this time with a whole heart.
I know that Satan has stolen from both of us our childhoods. I know that Satan has destroyed years of both our lives. I know that Satan has wreaked havoc in our family. But I also know that Jesus can restore the years that the locusts have eaten. He can pour out blessing on you and restore what was lost. He will only do it when you are willing to let Him take control.
Please Sis, yield to Him. Turn back to Him. He loves you so much. I urge you to watch the Passion of the Christ. I urge you watch it and realize that Jesus did that because He loves you Jesus paid for all of our sin so that we humans could be reconciled first to God, and then to each other. I urge you to watch it and realize that each person who ever hurt you deserved to be on that cross, deserved to be beaten, deserved it all… but Jesus took their punishment. Not only that, but you also have sin that deserved to be punished on that cross, and Jesus took that also. Jesus loves you. Won’t you please yield to Him?
Love Your Sis.
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