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JESUS IS COMING SOON! MARANATHA LORD!
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Long time readers of this blog will recall that last October I posted an awesome TESTIMONY OF THE GRACE OF OUR LORD, in which I described a bondage that lasted 20 years, and how I was set free from it.
It has now been about 15 months since I was set free, about 13 since writing that TESTIMONY. So I thought it was time for a small update.
Over the past 15 months, I have grown a lot. Even though I was saved before that 20 year bondage began, because of the chains of guilt and shame that hung on me all the time, I never was really able to grow spiritually as I should. That is not to say there was no growth, there was some, but in certain areas I was stunted spiritually. So in many ways, I have been like a brand new baby Christian over this past 15 months, the main difference being that the 20 years I spent in church, I learned a lot of Bible and lot of doctrine, so in those areas I was not as immature. However, even a lot of the doctrine I knew, had only made it into my brain and not my heart.
So I spent the past 15 months discovering how immature and selfish I really was. More times than I care to count, I found myself being obsessed with what I wanted, what would make me happy, what I wanted to do. I discovered that I cared far too much what others thought, and tried so hard to be liked that I drove some people away. Satan tried to get me to sink back into guilt and self-condemnation. In addition, Satan threw plenty of temptations my way, I escaped from some and gave into others, but always my Lord brought back into fellowship and used the the stumbling to teach me. Satan has also tried very hard to distract me from the task of growing in the Lord and learning of Him.
God however, has not let me go. He has given me the grace to continue after Him. He has kept me from sinking too deeply into guilt, He has rescued me from serious temptations, and taught me to flee from others. He has upheld me.
I went through a time when anyone who knew me, could tell I was acting like a selfish child, but God brought me through. He has granted me growth in many areas, and I trust that He will continue to nurture me to maturity in the areas where I am still like a babe in Christ.
In all, God has been awesome.
One of the things that God wanted me to do, was to finish polishing the written form of my testimony and give it to my pastor, who asked for a copy to give to people. I got so distracted that I forgot to do so, until tonight.
God is good. I am still free. Even in my times of struggle I do not have the strangling burden I used to carry. My worst days in the past 15 months have, in many ways, been better than my best days in the 20 years before.
Just thought I'd let everyone know.
It has now been about 15 months since I was set free, about 13 since writing that TESTIMONY. So I thought it was time for a small update.
Over the past 15 months, I have grown a lot. Even though I was saved before that 20 year bondage began, because of the chains of guilt and shame that hung on me all the time, I never was really able to grow spiritually as I should. That is not to say there was no growth, there was some, but in certain areas I was stunted spiritually. So in many ways, I have been like a brand new baby Christian over this past 15 months, the main difference being that the 20 years I spent in church, I learned a lot of Bible and lot of doctrine, so in those areas I was not as immature. However, even a lot of the doctrine I knew, had only made it into my brain and not my heart.
So I spent the past 15 months discovering how immature and selfish I really was. More times than I care to count, I found myself being obsessed with what I wanted, what would make me happy, what I wanted to do. I discovered that I cared far too much what others thought, and tried so hard to be liked that I drove some people away. Satan tried to get me to sink back into guilt and self-condemnation. In addition, Satan threw plenty of temptations my way, I escaped from some and gave into others, but always my Lord brought back into fellowship and used the the stumbling to teach me. Satan has also tried very hard to distract me from the task of growing in the Lord and learning of Him.
God however, has not let me go. He has given me the grace to continue after Him. He has kept me from sinking too deeply into guilt, He has rescued me from serious temptations, and taught me to flee from others. He has upheld me.
I went through a time when anyone who knew me, could tell I was acting like a selfish child, but God brought me through. He has granted me growth in many areas, and I trust that He will continue to nurture me to maturity in the areas where I am still like a babe in Christ.
In all, God has been awesome.
One of the things that God wanted me to do, was to finish polishing the written form of my testimony and give it to my pastor, who asked for a copy to give to people. I got so distracted that I forgot to do so, until tonight.
God is good. I am still free. Even in my times of struggle I do not have the strangling burden I used to carry. My worst days in the past 15 months have, in many ways, been better than my best days in the 20 years before.
Just thought I'd let everyone know.
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