As I was sitting here thinking about what to post, I just thought I would post my day and just share my heart. Today Stephen and I are doing school, we are slowly finding out what works for us and he is getting caught up. We are cleaning the house and getting stuff ready for supper and church as i have Kids of the King tonight.
Now for my heart, I have had some personal issues and family issues that have needed fixing for a long time. i have tried to give them to God but I always go back and get them back. Well, last night they finally hit rock bottom and there is no where to go with them but up and that is up to God. I was listening to one of the missionary wives give her testimony at church last week and she saiud that we are only respobsible for what we do and say. We are to be the wives that we are supposed to be, no matter what kind of husband our husband is being. She said either he will change or God will take care of it. That is where I am. I had to face why I do some of the things that I do and commit some of the sins that I commit. I have excuses for everything I say or do and it is time to get rid of th excuses. I have always said that this won't be easy or happen over night but I have given it all to God and it is so much easier than I thought it would be. Has he magically changed over night, no he hasn't and i haven't either but God has given me such a release and sense of peace that i can't even explain it. I am not sure what is going to happen tomorrow and I don't even know about the next minute but for right now I am at peace and I also know that I am in Gods love and grace and it is wonderful. Please pray that I will continue to try to stay in Gods will and let Him handle everything. I just wantedto share my heart so you will know where I am and how great God is.
God Bless all until next time....if you need an ear I am here, just email me at bbcmoma@yahoo.com,
I just love reading your blogs!! You're such an inspiration.
I enjoy hearing about other people's day - you know the mundane what did you do and how did you go about doing it stuff.
I guess everyone has a something or another going on in their life. I do pray that God will continue to guide you and give you wisdom. Hold tightly to His hand. I can't imagine a day without my Lord. Only He can provide that peace that passes all understanding.
There's something about having peace that just makes everything else not be so terrible anymore.
This is the same lesson i began learning about 3 years ago. It is a hard one! I can't say i have "arrived," it is a work in progress. It's hard to let it go and leave it at God's feet and just look at our own hearts and actions. I can say that as i have left it at the throne, God has done things in my husband that i never could have done. Only God works on the heart.
This is my place to share as I learn to be the Wife and Mom that God wants me to be. I am striving to be a Proverbs 31 wife, a homeschooling Mom that is training my children and grandson in the way God would have them to go. Also a place to share the joys and trials of caring for my Mom now that she can no longer care for herself.
