Listening to the Father's Voice.
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I haven't written in quite a while, so I thought, "I can't let my almost 13 year old son to 'out blog' me!"...lol. Anyway, God has been amazingly good, as if you didn't already know that...hee hee. His love is so deep! Here is how I explained it to someone recently. It is like standing on the edge of the "The amazing grace of the Master, Jesus Christ, the extravagant love of God, the intimate friendship of the Holy Spirit, be with all of you." 2Cor. 13:14 (The Message Bible) |
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I received the following in an email the other day. I have posted some of my thoughts on the subject after wards. Many of you may have already seen/read this before, I have. I personally find it a wonderful example of Jesus and his love through serving. An Actual 1955 Good Housekeeping article. The Good Wife's Guide * Have dinner ready. Plan ahead, even the night before, to have a delicious meal ready, on time for his return. This is a way of letting him know that you have been thinking about him and are concerned about his needs. Most men are hungry when they come home and the prospect of a good meal (especially his favorite dish) is part of the warm welcome needed. * Prepare yourself. Take 15 minutes to rest so you'll be refreshed when he arrives. Touch up your make-up, put a ribbon in your hair and be fresh looking. HE has just been with a lot of work-weary people. * Be a little gay and a little more interested for him. His boring day may need a lift and one of your duties is to provide it. * Clear away the clutter. Make one last trip through the main part of the house just before your husband arrives. * Gather up schoolbooks, toys, paper, etc and then run a dustcloth over the tables. * Over the cooler months of the year you should prepare and light a fire for him to unwind by. Your husband will feel he has reached a haven of rest and order, and it will give you a lift too. After all, catering for his comfort will provide you with immense personal satisfaction. * Prepare the children. Take a few minutes to wash the children's hands and faces (if they are small), comb their hair and, if necessary, change their clothes. They are little treasures and he would like to see them playing the part. Minimise all noise. At the time of his arrival, elimintate all noise of the washer, dryer or vacuum. Try to encourage the children to be quiet. * Be happy to see him. * Greet him with a warm smile and show sincerity in your desire to please him. *Listen to him. You may have a dozen important things to tell him, but the moment of his arrival is not the time. Let him talk first - remember, his topics of conversation are more important than yours. * Make the evening his. Never complain if he comes home late or goes out to dinner, or other places of entertainment without you. Instead, try to understand his world of strain and pressure and his very real need to be at home and relax. * Your goal: Try to make sure your home is a place of peace, order and tranquillity where your husband can renew himself in body and spirit. * Don't greet him with complaints and problems. * Don't complain if he's late home for dinner or even if he stays out all night. Count this as minor compared to what he might have gone through that day. * Make him comfortable. Have him lean back in a comfortable chair or have him lie down in the bedroom. Have a cool or warm drink ready for him. * Arrange his pillow and offer to take off his shoes. Speak in a low, soothing and pleasant voice. * Don't ask him questions about his actions or question his judgment or integrity. Remember, he is the master of the house and as such will always exercise his will with fairness and truthfulness. You have no right to question him. * A good wife always knows her place. I have seen this article more than once and sat listening to others criticize it with an "I am not letting my husband or any man walk all over me like that" attitude. I look at this a bit differently. We are to be servants, first to God and Christ, next to our husbands and then to our children and then everyone else falls in under that. I can understand how hard it can be to serve in a world with a "woman's lib" attitude (my mother, though a Christian, is of this attitude). I also can understand and see the cause of this attitude in others. Injustices done to them or their mothers of abuse and control (such as the case for my mother) can open the doors for the enemy to walk right in, set up and fortify the strong holds of independence, and self serving and then our desire to show our husbands respect (this is a love language for them ya know?) , as we are instructed to do in Eph. 5:33 (and see how effective it can be in 1 Peter 3:1-2) goes right out the window. When we do not show them respect, we begin the cycle of them not being able to show us love (also Eph. 5:33 and 1 Peter 3:7).
Some of you may be saying or thinking...I have done this and my husband has no desire to lay down his selfishness and honor me in any way. He never asks me how my day went. Even if he does, he doesn't really care to listen.I really do understand. I have been there and you know what? My retaliating got me NO WHERE. In fact it made matters worse! My husband slipped further into a shell. You see, my husband tends to be on the passive side of things. I tend to be on the aggressive side. You and your hubby may have reverse roles from this and he gets aggressive with you and you want to "turtle up" and quietly sit back and think "there is NO WAY I am going to try and serve him like this magazine article would suggest! He doesn't deserve it!" He may not deserve it, but Jesus has placed you in a situation of choice. You will step out and do it for Jesus?
Let me quote 1 Peter here; "In the same way, you wives must accept the authority of your husbands. Then, even if some refuse to obey the Good News, your godly lives will speak to them without any words. They will be won over by observing your pure and reverent lives. Don't be concerned about the outward beauty of fancy hairstyles, expensive jewelry, or beautiful clothes. You should clothe yourselves instead with the beauty that comes from within, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is so precious to God. This is how the holy women of old made themselves beautiful. They trusted God and accepted the authority of their husbands. For instance, Sarah obeyed her husband, Abraham, and called him her master. You are her daughters when you do what is right without fear of what your husbands might do." (1 Peter 3:1-6 NLT)
I do not believe this last statement about "what your husbands might do" was not implying you should allow physical abuse or place yourself or children in any danger. What the Lord has been showing me is, if I clothe myself with the beauty of the spirit, the more time I spend in His presence the more meek and quiet - at ease and not fretting or worrying - my spirit will be beautified due to the peace that would rule and reign there and my trust and security would be in God.
My provision comes from God, not my husband. My comfort comes from God, not my husband. My daily concerns are left at the feet of God, not my husband. I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that God is caring for me and all I need will come from him. That nothing my husband does will remove God's hand on my life. This means that I can trust God to come to my rescue...here is the big one....EVEN IF MY HUSBAND FAILS. WOW! That was a real revelation to me this week! I can trust God just as the women of old, and accept the authority of my husband. It doesn't matter if I think he is making godly choices or not. It doesn't matter if his choices cause us to not have any income for a whole month or two or even three, because my provision doesn't come from my husband. My security doesn't come from my husband. Can you see this? Do you see how spending time with the Lord, getting intimate with the Lord, will place in you in a position of meekness and quietness of spirit. Your spirit will rest in peace because your confidence and trust is in the Lord to provide your needs rather than in your husband to provide and fulfill your needs, which he could never really accomplish anyway.
Think back to the day you got married. What did it mean to you? To your husband. This is the relationship Jesus wants with you. That closeness of spirit, he sees you and looks at you with the look of the bridegroom watching his bride walk down the isle. Song of Songs says in 1:1 "Kiss me and kiss me again." (NLT) Another version says it like this "Let him kiss me with the kisses of his mouth." Now, yes, I know that this book is a book to show a husband and wife how to live together, but it is also a wonderful love letter (very romantic one I might add) from our heavenly father to us. The kisses of his mouth represent that intimacy with Him. He wants to go to the places of your heart that you have never let anyone into, not really, and take those things and give you more of Himself there. Then trust can be deepened because you know He is totally trust worthy. He wants to heal the deep hurts. He wants to love you in those areas, those places so closed up in ways that only He can heal and love. He is the only one who will never hurt you as you open the doors of your heart to him there. Oh, opening those doors will be painful, no different than re-opening a wound that needs to drain so it can heal. Let Him prove to you His trust worthiness. Let Him come in, in the only way He can do it, gently and lovingly, and bring a peace to those secret places, that truly passes all understanding.
Bless you all and have a wonderful weekend. I hope you all are feeling challenged or encouraged to spend that time with Jesus and give Him your burdens. Get to know him as the Bridegroom who deeply loves his bride, because He really does love you that much!
If you are enjoying the article I posted at the beginning of this blog and are feeling the Lord to lead to you to show honor and respect to your husbands in this way then you may want to check out this book by Lori Flem
She takes this concept and practically applies it for the "modern" woman/wife for today's world. This article brings up some good points that I think should be very relevant to the Christian woman today, however things are not quite the same as they were then. Kids were gone most of the day at school and mom was free to be working all day at home, cleaning, baking and cooking (except those with very little ones - but even I remember those days and found it much easier to keep a cleaner house when the kids were not being taught by me). Lori will give you some practical ways to Bring Home Daddy from one home schooling mom to another (and she has twice as many kids as I do!).
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Posted in Lets Get REAL
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My mom, who is a personality consultant, has coached me well and....well ladies for us "not naturally organized types" the "Maintenance Program" (the staying organized by maintaining our home) is one we will always be trying to figure out. If it is a priority it will get done. However, as my mom puts it, I have just put my priorities on other things. Which she (who is VERY NATURALLY ORGANIZED and I really could have used that personality stuff for her when I was growing up) says that only after the personality insights, she is now understanding better how I think. I put relationships before house work, cooking, or anything else that deals with inanimate objects. If I have someone to do it with me I am more apt to do it than if I must do it by myself. I am in need of MAKING the Maintenance Program a priority in my life. It is between me and my Lord. As He is the one who created me with this relational personality. He is the one who has put passion in my heart for people and it is I who must learn to allow Him to direct that passion, and to keep my spirit at rest in Him when I know I need to "MAINTAIN" the house, the kids, the laundry, etc. As He is also the one who has blessed me with my house, my kids and our laundry. I did find a comment from a seminar or some speaker once that was a bit piercing to my soul. It went something like this...With more blessings come more responsibilities. Hum, sounds like something my mom would say...lol. No really, I began to realize that with more "STUFF" came more responsibilities. Now that doesn't mean that I am not still working out my salvation with fear and trembling. There is a closet under our stairs that when I think I might need to find something in there, I tremble, every time...lol. But I did do a purge of some un-needed laundry, and a couple of rooms as well as toys, this past summer. This helped some. I know that this summer will be FULL of purging needs and I am praying I have the courage to face them and "Just Do It" (no I do not own any Nikes, but they had a good slogan). One recommendation that was also made was to be sure that if you keep something that it has a home, if not then either a) you need to make a home for it - be it a basket or shelf or bucket or b) you need to throw/give it away! I did get rid of a TON of stuff that would have made an amazing garage sale this last summer. I didn't keep it for the garage sale “we would one day have.” Instead I sent it to one of our church’s outreaches to give away or sell it in one of their garages sales. It was WONDERFUL being free of it all! We even had our garage back (till dh moved his office back into the house!) I am hearing the prompting of the Holy Spirit in this area again and he is telling me to "Get on the Band Wagon!" I know that as I get rid of the privileges that I really don’t need the responsibility load will be lightened and then I won’t have to be doing chores (hopefully) till 10pm every night to try and “maintain.” I will be freer to have people over as my house will always be ready for them. I will be free to do more without guilt, because my chores are done and my responsibilities are then taken care of. I look forward to the end result of this process. The process is itself not a pretty one, but I know what freedom feels like and I want to be bound no longer! |
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Posted in Reflections of a Homeschool Mom
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2007 was an amazing year! So much happened that I thought I would blog it, as this is the first year I could have sent out "Reflections of our Year" with cards but didn't because I just haven't had any time to sit and write until tonight. |
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What a wonderful and beautiful Thanksgiving weekend we had this year. We went to my parents' house and had a wonderful feast. On Friday we decided to go to the mountain with the kids. What fun we had. The sky was very blue and the snow what about 2 feet deep (that was my guess). The kids played and then learned a little about this active volcano we live near. The full moon was beautiful and at the end as we were getting into our car, the Lord let us see a little black, four legged, fluffy creature with a white tipped tail. It was a fox! It was so cute. We tried to get pictures, but because it was so dark and the fox was black all you could see in the picture was two glowing eyes. It was really quite funny. Saturday we relaxed and then spent three hours trying to find the tree lot we bought our tree at last year. At one point we were only two miles away from it and decided it must have been somewhere else...aaaauuuugghh! After that three hour search we got hungry so we gave up the hunt and went out for wood fired pizza. Sunday proved to be better tree hunting day (I am sure due to the fact that I asked google for directions...lol). We arrived half an hour before they closed and found just the right tree. The kids were having so much fun running through the "forest". The sounds of giggles from Michaela and laughter from the boys was music to my ears. They helped cut the tree down and since our oldest got to finish the last cut last year our second oldest insisted it was his turn this year. He was so proud, like a strutting rooster in a hen house full of hens. Dad carried out to the car and tied it down. As he slid off the back of the car roof the kids yelled "look it's Santa!" when all we could see were his feet and some legs. We then came home and had dinner and decorated our beautiful tree. Of course the kids' ornaments took up all the room and so my ornaments are still in their boxes. I think I need two trees if I am ever to get to put up my ornaments again before any of them move out. |
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Posted in Reflections of a Homeschool Mom
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Today has been a long day. We have a break from the YMCA this week and that has been nice. I have been plugging away at school, however, I dream for the day that my children are self learners and that I might have a bit of free time. Is this just me???? I think not. For now I know God has called me to this adventure we call home school. So for my sake I am going to list 10 ways that God has blessed our home schooling and then go pray for some renewed energy and vitality in all I do . God has blessed us/me with... 1) a school room to school in. 2) the means to get our curriculum 3) me this year esspecially with a hubby who sees the need and has a desire to participate some in our schooling. 4) children who are close to us 5) children who are close to each other 6) friends to school once a week with 7) friendly neighbors who are possitive about our homeschooling 8) family that supports our home schooling choices 9) a church family that supports our home schooling choice. 10) a family unity that has an amazing relationship with Jesus. Thanks for listening/reading my post today. I am humbled that anyone would care to do so. I hope that you are blessed by the Father in your homeschooling and can take the time to meditate on how God has truly blessed you. |
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We are now 2 weeks into our 8th year of homeschooling! WOW! I can hardly believe it has been that long since we started this wonderful life adventure. Our curriculum line up this year is; Math: Epsilon by Math U See Level B and C of Rightstart Mathematics Typing Instructor for kids: They are LOVING this and learning much Brainbuilder: Not loving as much but definately is helping with the ADHD, ADD, and short term memory issues. Tapestry of Grace: History Core readings Literature Literature Student Activity Pages Hands on/Arts/Crafts Church History (this has been esspecially interesting to me and my boys) Geography Writing Language Arts My oldest, boy of 12, has done nothing but tell me how much he is enjoying his History and Literature readings...imagine that...a boy enjoying history and literature...reading no less. It has been a wonderful first two weeks. As Tapestry lends itself to co-oping so well we are co-oping with another family this year. Next week we hit the Byzantine Empire and the Rise of Islam and then we get to hit our ancestors, the Vikings (the kids can hardly wait!). The best part is, we are all studying the same thing together at our own levels. I hope that next year I can join in the fun by doing the Retoric level myself! I hope all of your weeks have had a wonderful start! Thank you Lord for this wonderful opportunity to homeschool freely! |
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We had our conference this weekend in WA. I worked a booth for Tapestry of Grace with a fellow TOGger and had a blast! We were very busy and only about a 40/60 to those who knew of Tapestry to those who had never heard of it. Several people returned the next day to ask more questions and to look more carefully through the sample provided. The days were long, my mouth dry but my heart soared to have such a wonderful opportunity to share Tapestry of Grace with others. If you have not had the opportunity to learn more about Tapestry of Grace please check out my link on the home page of my blog. Hope everyone had a wonderful weekend with Dad! |
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Spring is when the sun peeks out |
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In Prov. 29:18 it says "Where there is no vision, the people are unrestrained, But happy is he who keeps the law." The Lexical aids say this for "unrestrained" "In Proverbs, the sense is to let something slip through the fingers by ignoring an opportunity. It probably means undisciplined in Prov. 28:18" So then I had to ask myself "How many times have I missed an opportunity because the Lord led me to a particular curriculum or style of teaching for a certain child of mine and it just didn't "fit" the way I would do things? Because I couldn't see how it would help I did do or get it? Therefore how much money have I ended up spending because of my own foolish ways?" In the long run my spending was undisciplined in the area of curricula. I know I am not the only homeschool mom who has struggled with this. I know there are many others out there, for I have spoken to many of them. I also like the way the Message Bible puts it..."If people can't see what God is doing, they stumble all over themselves; But when they attend to what he reveals, they are most blessed." This way of saying it can totally describe our school years before I sought the Lord on our Curricula choices, it was chaos. However since I have been asking and praying what we are to use (only the last two years have I actually followed His lead) we have been truly blessed as He has revealed those things. My 9 year old son who had previously cried and cried over the simplest of math concepts is now thriving and doing very well in math, because of the curricula the Lord led us to. God was patient with me. I didn't buy the first two years I felt prompted to. Then last year, when I wasn't planning to attend our convention, they showed up and I went so I could look at it and it was exactly what our end of year tester was suggesting for my son to do. Hum, what time and energy I could have saved if I had just followed the Lord in the beginning! I hope that you will let the Lord guide your choices even when you are unsure as to whether or not you will be able to impliment it. He will guide your teaching as well. I have learned I must place my complete trust in the Lord no matter how small the "thing" or matter seems to be. I must choose to listen and follow. Luke 9:23 - 27 Says (Message Bible) "The he told them what they could expect for themselves: 'Anyone who intends to come with me has to let me lead. You're not in the driver's seat - I am. Don't run from suffering; embrace it. Follow me and I;ll show you how. Self-help is no help at all. Self-sacrifice is the way, my way, to finding yourself, your true self. What good would it do to get everything you want and lose you, the real you?.'" Imagine if we follow His lead completely the "real you" in our children will be able to blossom and how much farther they will be inspite of us. |
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Posted in Lets Get REAL
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Okay, so I am going out on a limb here and telling the world (or at least it feels that way) that I truly DO NOT have it all together! Some reading my past blogs might think I have it all figured out or you might think that I think I have it all figured out. Well, not so my dear sisters, not so. I am far from having it all figured out. God just keeps pruning and pruning and then when I am thinking there isn't much more for him to prune he shows me another dead branch. |
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Posted in Spiriual Life Lessons
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Today my topic is Joy. I know that God has created us all to have His joy and when we walk in that joy there is a marked difference in our countenance. However, so many times we are either "happy", which is based on "happenings" or we are sad. Joy is present whether we are having a good time or not. It is not based on our circumstances. Then why, might you ask, does one struggle so much with walking in Joy when things around them are in chaos? The Lord answered that question for me in the last two weeks. I was wondering why I couldn't get His joy in me. And then it happened, God showed how I was being self - focused. When you focus on you then your circumstances are all you can see and it will steal His joy from you. I began to stop looking at my circumstances and started focusing on looking for opportunities to minister to others. I wanted my joy and I wanted to please the heart of my Heavenly Father. I make jewelry and sell it and I had an open house at my aunt's house. I was very nervous as this is the side of the family that I tend to be the butt of the joke.....often. I knew that the Lord wanted me to walk out my restoration so I did this show anyway. The week before I was very anxiety filled and sought the Lord about this. He reminded me that I was being self focused. I repented of that and then He also reminded me that I was looking into the future with eyes of rejection instead Jesus' eyes. I repented of that as well. I rebuked the enemy for trying to take my focus off of Jesus and rebuked that spirit of anxiety I had felt all week. Then I received God's gracious mercy and forgiveness and I choose to walk in His Joy. Then I prayed and asked God what the sale was really all about. He told me that it really wasn't about whether I sold anything or not but that I was to walk out my restoration and look for opportunities to minister to others. God is soooooo good! I choose Joy and He gave it to me. I choose to look for opportunities to minister and He gave those to me as well. Some were just in the form of serving with out being upset about the inconvenience of the timing. My aunt has a special needs son who is in his thirties and he came out about 40 min. before my open house was to start, and asked if I could help him wrap the gifts he had just come home with for his mom, because he didn't know how to do it. I did, with joy, not worrying about the fact that my stuff wasn't completely set up or priced yet. It was fun, we laughed together and I was okay with "not looking all together" when people started showing up. It was not an inconvenience because I was looking for ways to minister. I also was able to minister to another of my cousins who has just gone through a nasty divorce and her ex is not being very nice now to their daughter. She is hurting and I was able to share the love of Jesus with her and let her know that He wants to heal her hurting heart. It was awesome to see what God could do as I focused on Him and what He wanted me to do. Yesterday I went to the grocery store and as I got out of my car I decided to choose Joy. I wanted to allow the Joy of Jesus to overflow from me to others as I was there, even if I never "spoke" to them. I decided that who ever I made eye contact with I would smile with the Joy of Jesus and let it sink into them. It was fun to give away joy but also there were some sobering moments when I saw people look away as if they didn't deserve to receive joy. How it must break the Father's heart when we turn away His forgiveness and grace. Are you FULL of Joy? Have you turned away God's Joy because you didn't feel worthy to receive it? Have you turned away His forgiveness and grace in areas in your life because of "unworthiness"? If you struggle with forgiving yourself then you are not receiving God's forgiveness. Repent of that un-forgiveness toward yourself, rebuke the enemy for trying to use condemnation on you to keep you from receiving God's love, grace, and forgiveness, receive the forgiveness of God for you, and replace it all with joy!!! God's Joy is a gift for you to receive but you must walk it out to receive the fullness of it. Receiving and gift and opening a gift are two different things. A gift is of no value or use if it hasn't been opened. Open your gift of joy, walk in it. How many people can you make smile today with just a smile from you? Let Jesus put a bounce in your step and make others wonder and even ask you "What is so different about you?" and then seize your opportunity to minister to others and tell them what Jesus has done for you! |
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Posted in Just for FUN
![]() Mr. Potato Head You have your ideal of how things should look, but youre flexible enough to allow for change. You are not bothered by changing methods, mid-course if necessary. You use an eclectic combination of curriculum sources. Visit this blog: http://www.GuiltFreeHomeschooling.blogspot.com to take this test yourself...Its pretty funny. |
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Posted in Fellowship with God
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My husband and I have been taking a class at our church called "Jesus Ministry II", as sequil to "Jesus Ministry" (here I will refer to the class as JM2 for short hand reasons). A lot of the class is the discecting of your heart. Seaking the Lord on your areas of offendability, as well as the levels of offendability in each of those areas. Now some may agree or disagree with me here, but I have come to believe and am convicted that I have no rights. No right of intitlements either. Jesus didn't even claim any rights, no right to be an authority on His own word (the scriptures), no right to live, no right to be understood. In fact if you look at His life He only claimed the right to be misunderstood. Then if I should be like Him I too only have the right to be misunderstood. Now, let me tell you, that when I am seeking Him it makes this unoffendability thing a little easier. However, when I am out of fellowship (in sin) with the Lord my "defenses" go up....way up. Let me explain what defeses are. They are much like Octapus ink. An Octapus, when feeling threatened, will put out ink that will look to it's enemy like...an Octapus while the real octapus quickly excapes. It is very effective and will save the hide of the octapus in its life often. As humans, we too put out an octapus ink when feeling threatened. If you have read my other post, "Freedom...Do You Have It?", then you are aware of the four R's and praying that God would reveil and you would recognize strongholds in your life. Let me use myself as an example. A deeply root stronghold in my life that the enemy would love to regain ground on and tries very hard to take back. This stronghold for me is a fear of abandonment and rejection. I am not totally free from it but am working "toward the goal to gain the prize", as Paul puts it. If someone I care about does something that might strike that fear of abandonment/rejection in me then I ink if I don't recognize the stronghold playing out. The enemy still goes after that one using different angles to gain control of that territory. My offendability level at what someone says or does should be waving a very big red flag with a sirien that I am passively or aggressively inking, and that I need to give that area over to the Lord. Your "ink" (defenses) can be passive or aggressive. Here are some examples of passive ink; Silence, Victimization/emotional maniputlation, Isolation/running, avoidance, body language, Others may have to wrk hard or wait a long time to renew intimacy after speaking into your life (this translates into "making others 'pay' a cost for speaking lovingly and gently into your life). Aggressive ink might have some of these reactions; Defensive Posture, blame/defelction (oh can I be guilty of this), retribution, comback/competition, cutting them off before they can finish, body language, denial, Obstinate until the speaker is deflated and defeated, anger Disqualifying the speaker from speaking into your life by pointing out his or her sin or weakness (this would be another of my ink). Now, some of you might think, "Yeah, but not everyone should be able to speak into my life. If they are not spiritually where I am or not even a Christian then how would you explain that!" Okay, let me give you a biblical example. Have you read the story of King David in 2 Sam. 16 where he is running for his life from his own son Absalom who was rebleling and trying to seize David's throne? In verses 10 and 11 A rebel Named Shimei whose allegiance was with Absalom came out while King David was fleeing Jerusalem and began to taunt and curse David. One of David's own men pleaded with David to allow him to take of Shimei's head in the most literal sense. David's response was amazing; But the king said, "What have I to do with you, you sons of Zeruiah? If he is cursing because the Lord has said to him, 'Curse David,' Who then shall say 'Why have you done so?' David said to abishai and to all his servants, "My own son seeks my life; how much more now may this Benjaminite! Let him alone, and let him curse; for the Lord has bidden him." 2 Sam. 16:10-11 (NRSV) "David believed it was possible that Shimei was a tool in God's hand...and he was willing to listen to what Shimei had to say, believing that even in the midst of the cursings God could speak through Shemei. [David was hungry and desparate to hear from God.] He was willing to receive what was said to him in case even a tiny bit of it was legitimate. What an incredibly humble posture! Imagine listening for something from the Lord, some word of correction, in the cursings of a rebel - on one of the owrst day of your life! While the enemy hurled curses, hoping to finalixe David's defeat, David pressed throught ot victory, believig that God was in control. he believed that God had something good for him even in what seemed like a disaster. The harder things were, the more desperate he was to hear from the Lord, in any form! His utter lack of defensiveness arose out of his confidence in God's love, mercy, and power." (taken from Jesus Ministry II manuel brackets are mine) Are you ready to lay down your defesiveness? Are you ready to take humbleness to the next level? Do you make others "pay" a cost for speaking into your life? (this would include children when they ask you what the speed limit is and you know it is because they are wanting to see if you are following the law - yes I was guilty and yes I inked on my 11 year old son and had to repent later as he wasn't doing anything direspectful) In our class on Sunday night, the intructor (one of our pastors) commented 'that to the extent that you are will to let others (esspecially your spouse) speak into your life with out you getting definsive and inking (getting offended) is the extent of your hunger and desire to let God speak into your life. Your relationship with your spouse will be a reflection of your relationship with God.....Oh how true this is. I found this verse today and it explains exactly how I have felt since I have recognized my defenses. The high and lofty one who inhabits eternity, the Holy One, says this: "I live in that high and holy place with those whose spirits are contrite and humble. I refresh the humble and give new courage to those with repentant hearts." Isaiah 57:15 NLT
As I have been letting my husband speak into my life, no matter what, and not deflect or ink on him, he speaks to no cost of his own, I am the victor. I am the one who gains the prize. My blind spots are exposed and I can repent of my sins and gain refreshment and new courage, and my God's voice is more easily heard. |
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The other day my son piped up in the car after church..."Mom, who is 'special Bob'?" I turned half way in my seat to kind of face my oldes son behind me and repeted "Special Bob?" "Yeah!" he quizzed, "who is special bob?" I then faced my husband, who was driving, and looked at him quite puzzled at my son's question. I tilted my head to one side and raised my eyebrows. My husband went to thinking and then asked our 11 year old son, "Do you mean Special Ed.?" With the light bulb above our son's head appearing as he replied "Oh, yeah, that's it! What does it mean?" I then caught on to what the boy was asking, and questioned "Where did you hear that?" I wanted to know what context he had heard it in so as to know what was really meant by the statement. Our son went on to explain the day our neighbor lady was talking about her cat who thinks it is a dog and will chase and meow after dogs 3 to 4 times it size, as if that would scare the dog. She then refered to it as being special Ed. I explained what she ment and what the Ed. in Special Ed. meant. I thought it was cute how he thought Ed. was someone's name. I got to thinking about it all and latter that day God asked me "Are you 'Special Bob'?" I replied, What Lord? What do you mean?" He hasn't answered me but, as I have pondered this question I have to say that I am not 'special Bob', however I am 'spcial Patty'. For the Lord knit me together in my mother's womb and I am fearfully and wonderfully made. I am not an acident, or mistake or and ooopppss. I am God planned person, woman, who is special in God's eyes and I know that He loves me very much. So, in conclusion, I ask you this question... "Are you a 'Special Bob' or Nancy or Kyle or Taresa, or .....?" |
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I have 3 boys and then my little princess. ![]() My two oldest boys both potty trained at the age of 3 in one week night and day. My youngest prince charming at 3 1/2, again night and day. My mother told me "Oh your girl will potty train sooooo easily. You and your sister were both trained before you were two!" What joy I had as The Little Princess in our house was approaching two. I thought "How nice this will be to have it all done in just a couple of months!" HA! Well, it didn't go exactly like 'I' planned. Two came and went, then three and now we are four months away from 5 and we are still working on the day time thing (nights are mostly done). It is close, but we still need reminders. You see, when I started this whole process, I was really good at reminding her for a week and then when she still wasn't getting it I just gave up for a couple of months. Then I would try again. This last Februrary I decided I would just be potty training FOREVER. I made up my mind that this would always be how it is until she gets it. I STOPPED putting a time frame on how long I thought it should take. Then I did one more thing I should have done from the beginning. I recognized that with 3 older children and homeschooling them I didn't have the time to put towards her potty training that I did with my boys. So....I prayed ...imagine that, prayer...lol. Well it worked! I asked God last February to speak to me throughout the day and remind me to remind her. I haven't one time remembered to remind her. However the Holy Spirit has. Every time, out of nowhere, that little still small voice has said "Michaela needs to go potty" and I have sent her she has gone. Every time I haven't obeyed, she has had an accident within less than 5 minutes of my warning from the Holy Spirit. So here is my encouragement for you, are you having potty training woes? Is your child truely ready for training, but not wanting to "grow up"? Stop now and ask the Holy Spirit to help you. He will and the Lord will remind you to tell your little one to go at just the right times. Take it from me though, follow thru to obey is VERY important if you don't want to clean up a mess. ![]() |
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This week has been an amazingly emotional week. I have cried till I just didn't have any more tears to give and I still wasn't done. My poor dear husband own's his own business in the computer/IT industry. This is not a mom and pop shop, but an sub-contracting on-site services to small - medium sized busnesses. That means that if a server goes down then he must stay till it is back up again as the employees of that company cannot work if the server isn't up and running. So now, after that long explanation, you are probably wondering what this has to do with a Daddy's heart. Well this last week was a very long week for both my hubby and I as he had some very long hours. I was frustrated and getting depressed because I was having to "do it all on my own" and even the evenings when he left saying he would definately be home that night, SOMETHING somewhere went wrong. Then the one night he was able to make it home the poor thing just numbly and blindly led himself to bed and I think he really did fall asleep before getting there... .So as I said, I was feeling sorry for myself and a bit angry at the situation. I felt like the old Twylla Paris Song "The Warrior is a Child". I had laid down my sword and cried, but unlike the song I didn't do it at the Father's feet. In fact I hadn't been spending any time with the Father for a while. This week, Daddy put me on restriction from all relationships (except one very wise and sweet fellow TOGger and one actress) to remind me that He wanted me to draw closer to Him (thank you Gilda and Lisa Welchel for allowing Him to use your voices as my physical reminder when I was just staying clueless). You see, as I begain seeking Him, my daddy showed me the places in my heart that He wanted to "hang" with me but I was still guarding them for fear of rejection and abandonment. I knew God loved me, I knew He was my heavenly Father, but my heart was afraid to find out these things as there had been abandonment in the past by my biological father, sister and brother. Though I do not remember my biological father abandoning our family, I vividly remember (esspecially my sister) my siblings abandonning our family. This was very hard as they had been my second parents since I was two and they were 11 and 12. They left once when I was 5, and again when 6, and my sister one last time when I was 7. My mom had become a christian and they didn't want anything to do with it. My mom now regrets how she handled it and says she would do it differently if she could do it all over again. I personally wouldn't choose to live it over again at all. It has effected my relationships with my mom, my step-dad, my husband, and mostly my Jesus. You see, I laid down my weapons of destruction and I was afraid to let Jesus love me. I knew He did, but I have been too scared to really know how much. I have stayed pretty dull to this emotionally and just been a STRONG WARRIOR! Infact, most people would know me as a fighter, not one to give up. You could even see this in my previous post here. But the my Daddy in heaven wanted me to see His heart for me and at this I was not a strong anything. On the contrary, I ran as fast as I could, for I knew that my love for Him was not equal to His for me. Nor had I earned His love or felt deserving of it. Isn't that how it is in human nature? We work hard and feel we should be able to earn a decent living from it. I wanted to work hard for Jesus and earn His love. I know I need His love and now after battling that depression and sending it away (to understand this more read my entry on "Freedom...Do you have it?") I have asked that the Lord would so graciously show me His love. That He would help me to accept it and know it in my heart not just my head. I must say that His love is GREAT! It is deep, gentle, sweet, joyful, concerning, His heart for me is bigger than I could ever imagine! His smile tells me He is a proud Daddy of His children, and I can feel His embrace. Are there areas in your life that you isolate from Jesus? Are they just so ugly that you are telling Him "give me the chance to straighten up a little before I let you in here." Do you have CHJOS (can't have Jesus over syndrom)? I would encourage you to use the four "R's" that I describe in "Freedom...Do you have it" and go to your Daddy and tell Him you are ready for His love to fill you up. Even if you are not sure that you are ready to be vulnerable with Him (that was my problem) do it anyway (I did so I know you can) and I will guarentee that He will be so gentle and loving that you will weep with joy and He will give you the ability to love Him back. You can not earn His love, it is a free gift (isn't it nice to know that God shares our love languages with us...). I urge you now to turn off your computer and go to Him now and lay down your sword at His feet and let Him wipe away your tears. He will and you will be the better for it. Oh, and those places you would just like to straighten up a bit before He comes to visit, it is MUCH easier, and more fun, with your Daddy's help. |
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So today I left my boys home alone with the oldest for the first time. WOW! how scarry I felt and anxious to get home was I. They did just fine of course but the first time is always the scarriest, right???? I am sure that if you have been leaving your kids home alone with an older sybling for a while you are chuckling at me right now as it also brings back those memories for you too. I wonder if the mama birds get a bit nervious when it is time to teach those youngin's to fly? Do they get a bit scared that they will fall straight to the ground and break a wing or something worse? I am sure we are the only creatures in God's beautiful creation who have these feelings. I am frightened to let go but excited at the same time. Lord, help me not to tighten the reigns too tight but also at the same time not to dish out more than what they are really capable and mature enough to handle. |
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and then my little princess. 
I thought "How nice this will be to have it all done in just a couple of months!"
and now we are four months away from 5 and we are still working on the day time thing (nights are mostly done).
It is close, but we still need reminders.
...imagine that, prayer...lol. Well it worked! I asked God last February to speak to me throughout the day and remind me to remind her. I haven't one time remembered to remind her. However the Holy Spirit has.
Every time, out of nowhere, that little still small voice has said "Michaela needs to go potty" and I have sent her she has gone. Every time I haven't obeyed, she has had an accident within less than 5 minutes of my warning from the Holy Spirit.
Stop now and ask the Holy Spirit to help you. He will and the Lord will remind you to tell your little one to go at just the right times. Take it from me though, follow thru to obey is VERY important if you don't want to clean up a mess. 
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