Mar. 2, 2006 - A question of faith.

Yesterday I had the most interesting experience.  I am not sure why I waited until today to 'blog it', though. 

I do daycare.

One of my mom's came in after her long day at work and asked me: "What is it like to have a family?"  This question caught me totally off guard.  I really didn't know how to answer her and to be quite honest was a bit embarassed at the question.  You see, she is basically a single mom (husband got a bad rap and is serving time).  She has the most beautiful little girl.  She has always seemed so unhappy but I have never reached out to her..wanting to keep business, business.  So, when she asked me this question it kinda slapped me in the face.  It wasn't until later that night that the impact of her question hit me.  You see, for days now I have been struggling with my lot in life, complaining you might say about my seemingly dull exsistance while all the time here's this precious child of God who so despirately needed someone to reach out...and I never did.  I was so consumed with me that I failed to see how fulfilling my life could be if I only saw things through His eyes. 

So, this morning, when she came to drop off her baby, I struck up a conversation.  I wasn't sure where it would lead or has led, for that matter.  We spoke of God's love and how we as humans push Him away...He never pushes us away.  There were tons of other issues we touched on.  I have to say, it was satisfying to me to share in that manner.  I am not a good witness, I do not do well sharing my faith.  I am ashamed of saying that.  I don't always feel as if I can share...like I am not worthy of Him. 

I can honestly see Him working in my life right now, although to me, it seems like a slow process.  It's just a question of faith, I guess...the waiting on Him and not depending on me.