Mar. 19, 2007 - Missing a Humble, Meek, Quiet Spirit
I have prayed for a long time that God would give me a humble, meek and quiet spirt. It is my heart's desire to be loving, kind and meek in everything I say and do, to have a true servant's heart, a heart like Jesus. It is days like today that remind me just how far off that mark I truly am.
Yes, it has been one of those days. A day when I am just overwhelmed with all that I have to do. As usual when I am feeling overwhelmed, my children are the ones who suffer for it. I have been anything but humble, meek, quiet, gentle, loving, or kind to them today. I am praying for a better tomorrow, and also a better evening for this day.
You know, so many times, I think people, non-homeschooling people have the impression that we homeschooling mothers have super human powers or that we have it all together and are just the epitome of what patience should be. I base that on the number of comments I, personally, receive from people telling me that they would never have the patience to do what I do. To which my answer is always, "neither do I". That is the truth, I don't have the patience it takes to teach three children, on three different grade levels, about six different subjects each, plus extra-curricular activities, keep the house clean or at least not in filthy disarray, which it is usually bordering 
, make sure everyone has clean clothes and food to eat, make sure the bills get paid, the dog fed, the library books returned on time, plus duties at church, and the list goes on and on.
I'm being honest, I don't have the patience, the strength or the perserverance for any of it. It is only with God's help, grace, and strength that anything ever gets accomplished around here. It is days like today that remind me of that. I can do nothing on my own, absolutely nothing. Which leads me back to my prayer for a humble, meek and quiet spirit. I'm thinking, maybe the reason God hasn't fully fulfilled that request is so that I fully remember that I can do nothing without Him. Perhaps He wants to be sure that I am reminded often how much I DO need Him and how far off the mark I get when I don't fully rely on Him and rest in His presence.
Thoughts anyone?
