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May. 19, 2006
"...in the hand of a mighty man..." Psalm 127: 4 (in part)
My beloved called this morning! How I miss him! I tell you, this Mighty Man of mine is just incredible, everytime I hear his voice, I get butterflies and goosebumps! Young love ain't got nothin' on me! Our love has grown and just gotten better and better and I can't wait but to imagine us old and grey, rockin' on our porch swing as we will no doubt smile with joy and contentment. And I tell ya somethin' else, we will still be holdin' hands and his smile will still give me goosebumps and butterflies, this I know with all my heart.
This deployment has been truly one miraculous event. Normally, our separation means that I will be a complete mess, emotionally, physically and parentally (is that a word?). I'm usually a boo-hooin' sobbin' puddle of mush that can't seem to get her "git-up-and-go"'ness motivated. All the other times, I start a-grumblin' about the military life, how ungrateful the world is for our sacrifice, how sorry it is that I have to be both Momma and Daddy, on and on. You know, everythin' summed up in to two pathetic words, "Poor ME!"
This time, it's been totally different! And it's all for God's Glory 'cause this ain't my strength (what strength?). My Father has been so patient with me this last year, and I've learned so much. To rest in Him, I mean, honestly and truly rest in the arms of my Lord, that has been a powerful lesson for me to learn. Why is it so hard? Man, if I'd known how incredible it feels to just give it all to God and be content in His Grace...well...I just wished I'd'a figured it out sooner, is all...
My Beloved is totally different this go around too. God bless him! He too, has been on his own path of spiritual growth. I tell ya, I married me one seriously mighty man of God!!! Where did this fella come from?! He is so steady and strong. His confidence just surrounds me and lifts me up. Even from afar, he remains in charge of his house and I love it!! Once upon a time, I'd have bristled at the thought, when I was a feminist (and didn't know it). I mean, he reminds me to take my prenatals, tells me that I need to spend more time reading to our 5yo, encourages me to keep up with the housework and so on. Our world today says this sort of behavior is chauvanistic and controllin'. How wrong they are!! I am so unburdened by his direction! He does this for me because he loves me. He does it for my peace, my courage, my joy! He wants his house filled with laughter even when he isn't here, and it is! Because of his leadership, Praise God, it is!!
I'm so proud of my husband. I never knew my life would bring me such love. I am completely undone that this awesome man chose me to be his bride. I feel so unworthy but am so honored and blessed! I love you, Carl!!! I'll love you everyday of my life!
Here is the passage that my Beloved shared with me today, can I just tell y'all how wonderfully intimate it is to have my Sweet Love read to me the Holy Scriptures? I hope it blesses you as much as it blessed me:
Jeremiah 29: 11-14 KJV
"For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end. Then shall ye call upon me, and ye shall go and pray unto me, and I will hearken unto you.And ye shall seek me, and find me, when ye shall search for me with all your heart. And I will be found of you, saith the LORD: and I will turn away your captivity, and I will gather you from all the nations, and from all the places whither I have driven you, saith the LORD; and I will bring you again into the place whence I caused you to be carried away captive."
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