• Jan. 10, 2007
It just gets so busy sometimes!
It's been crazy! A couple friends and I started a new "moms" group online. We all have met thru various parenting forums and decided to start our own group. We started out about a month and a half ago, and we decided to change the forum we were running on. So, for the last few days I have been transferring stuff and trying to work out the kinks. Its worth the effort, but, tiring at the same time. I think we pretty much have it done!! If anyone is interested, the link is Organic Mamas We are a group of women who believe in Gentle Discipline, Natural Health Cures, No vaxing, Healthy Diets, etc. If this sounds like you, please come see us!
Maggie and I have been going on "nature walks" during the day. We have been blessed with some GREAT weather. Here are some pics I just took.
I went today and bought Maggie some kids safety scissors. I plan on letting her do some cutting tomorrow. I think she is going to have a blast. We are going to make the grandmas some pictures and send them in the mail.
Ive been having a blast checking different sites for activities. There is so much to do!
Boy, this is really a boring entry, but, i'm really sleepy today and i'm just drawing a blank.
Thanks to those who checked in on me! That was really sweet! Im off to check your blogs!
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• Jan. 5, 2007
My very first blog entry................
so, I better make it good. 
Well, a little about me. I'm a 39(almost 40! YIKES) year old mommy to a delightful little girl, Maggie. After many years of TTC(trying to conceive), fertility treatments, miscarriages, heartache, etc. I was finally blessed with my pregnancy with Maggie. Everything was going better than I could ever expect with my pregnancy until 16.5 weeks. I started spotting. I was told there really wasn't anything I could do at that stage of my pregnancy. I was put on strict bedrest and told to pray that I would make it to 24 wks. Thats when the pregnancy would be considered "viable" and she MAY have a chance at survival.
This was such a hard time in our lives. The pregnancy came as a major surprise as we had stopped TTC for a few months due to Chris'(my husband) father being diagnosed with cancer and passing away within 3 months of his diagnosis. We also were in the middle of a nasty custody battle with Chris' ex regarding their son together. It just seemed like things really sad and low in our lives at the time. Getting pregnant wasn't even a thought(for the first time in years) at the time.
I have to laugh when I think about Maggies conception. I also have to thank Chris' ex for it, BTW. She had done something really aweful, that ended up making our case a little easier. For the first time in I don't know how long, we "celebrated", when we probably wouldnt have. LOL So, I am thankful for the ex for that! LOL
The rest of my pregnancy was smooth sailing, on the couch, flat on my back. Besides the gestational diabates, and being housebound, we had a relatively normal pregnancy. Each milestone was met and passed. It was great.
Until 35wks 0days. My water broke at 10:30pm while I was sitting on our couch reading "Childbirth from Within". I was in total denial. I thought perhaps I had a small bladder issue. LOL After waking Chris and realising it was my water we decided to go to the hospital and have a baby! We giggled like school kids all the way to the hospital. "We are gonna have a baby by this time tomorrow!", we said over and over again. Little did we know.
We got to the hospital, got settled in and realised I wasnt contracting. Not at all. It was 12am by the time I got settled in and we decided to wait until Dr Jordan could get there first thing in a few hours. We agreed that a c-section was not going to be our first option, we would wait and see how things went as long as me or the baby didnt show any signs of infection.
That evening Dr J decided to try induction. We tried Cervidil. Nothing happened. This was on Friday. Sat. morning we tried Pitocin. We gradually maxed me out on the Pit, and still, nothing. So, that evening we tried Cytotec. Again, Nothing. Sunday we tried Pit, again, maxing me out, NOTHING! Cervidil Sunday night, nothing. Monday morning Pit. Nothing. My cervix just wasnt ready-no matter what. So, here I sit, water broken, baby and I were still doing great. But, we have just gone thru 4 days of induction and nothing. Not one stinkin' contraction.
We decided to give my body a rest. So, I sat in the hospital-got to know the nurses, cleaning crew, doctors, even some family members of other patients. LOL Moms screaming out while birthing, babies first cries. It was really hard to listen to because I WANTED MY TURN!
So, we decided on Thursday night(exactly one week after being admitted) that we would try Cytotec again. In the early morning hours I started feeling contractions! WHOOOOO HOOOO! You dont know how happy I was! Dr. J finally checked me(we had been avoiding it since my water was broken). Bad news. My contractions were coming, but, I was not dialating. I had had previous surgery on my cervix which caused a lot of scar tissue, it was holding my cervix together.
We could have the dr go in and manually open my cervix with a little "tool", but, that just didnt sound very exciting to me. I ended up getting Pitocin. After being checked every two hours since being admitted, that meant I had not had a full night or day of sleep since being admitted. I was EXHAUSTED. I finally agreed to the epidural.
Not long after receiving my epidural, I started showing signs of infection and Maggie was showing signs of not liking being on the inside. After trying so hard to avoid a c-section, it came down to having to have one. I signed the paperwork for the emergency c-section, and cried. I had so badly wanted a natural birth, with a midwife, in a birth center. This was so far from what I so desired.
I was so upset, I asked for medication to "zonk" me out, so they gave me Versaid.
I dont remember being moved from my room to the OR. I just remember being in there. Dr J kept asking me if I felt anything. I assume she was pinching me or something. I felt nothing. Dr J, knowing how badly I wanted a ******l birth then said to me, Im going to check your cervix, one more time before we get started.
Much to everyones surprise, when she did that, she was able to stick her finger thru my cervix and I immediately opened to 10cm!!! Next thing I know she is smiling and telling me I can push!
Well, the Versaid does a great job. I was zonked. I also was very talkative! In fact, I was having a better time talking than pushing. Dr J told me "shut up and push".....LOL I was a lazy pusher, couldnt feel the contractions, so with a little assistance from the vaccume, Maggie was born. Vaginally, at 2:32pm. A BEAUTIFUL headful of black hair and a sweet little wimper.
I on the other hand was very sick. I had a 105 degree fever. Maggie was taken to NICU. I was so sick I couldnt even see my daughter when they brought her to me.
That evening about 6:30 my epi wore off and I walked down to the NICU to meet my daughter. I was pumped full of antibiotics. Some heavy-duty ones.
My daughter was everything and more that I had dreamt about. It was right then and there I realised how much of change she was already making in my life. I promised her that I would do whatever it took to raise her right.
I have always known I wouldnt be a "mainstream" parent. I had already decided to not vax her. I already decided I would breastfeed her until she decided to wean. I had already decided to cloth diaper her. I had already decided that I would make her baby food. I had already planned out so much of her life. Its only been natural that I make the decision to homeschool her as well.
I know she is only 2. Some people may look like im crazy for wanting to look into homeschooling her at this point. But, I would rather figure out and read all I can on it now, than when the time is just a few months away. There is so much to learn, so much to figure out, so much to read. Im excited!
We do have "school" everyday. Usually some sensory play, learning to hold a color crayon properly, ABC's, numbers(she can count to 10 in Spanish!), reading books, Nature walks(baby rocks, sticks and acorn caps are a big hit!) etc. She is excited about learning, and i'm excited about teaching her!
If anyone has made it thru this long drawn-out post, first of all.....thank you! lol And, please, feel free to give suggestions on anything I could be doing right now. Maggie just turned two in December. She is eager and has a great time learning!
~Bobbi
