Homeschooling is one of the few things that remained the same after Emily died.  It was something that I had some control over, and since it had never directly involved Emmy, it was something I could do w/o having to relive too many painful memories.  So, within a couple of weeks of Emmy's death, I began teaching again.

When I left here about a month ago, I said that I intended to keep the site w/ the hopes that someday I could return to talk homeschooling here.  When I left, I could not fathom talking about anything other than my precious Emily, so the thought of running 2 blogs did not appeal to me at all.  I had already started moving to Blogger when Emily died, so that site was the one I chose to keep up with.  However, I still felt I had found a "home" here and I hated the thought of leaving permanantly.  In the back of my head, I hoped that some day I could return and make this strictly a homeschool site~telling all of you what was going on in our little homeschooling world. 

Amazingly enough, I am finding that in recent days I have had the desire to talk about other things, to make plans, to learn something new, to expound on other topics.  Part of my heart wants me to believe this is wrong...like I am somehow leaving my precious little one behind.  But, this just isn't the truth.

The truth is that the Lord did not want my life to end on February 10, 2008.  He chose my Emmy.  And He expects me to continue moving forward...toward Him AND her.  He expects me to train my remaining children in His ways so that they may too see their sister again. 

It is not dishonoring her memory for me to be able to talk of other things.  It shows that I am getting to a place where I am able to reach beyond myself and my grief.  It shows that I am healing.