Carried on the Wind

Sep. 11, 2006 - On the Other Side

    We are on the other side of the miscarriage. It was, in many senses, everything I hoped it wouldn't be. I awoke around 3:30 on Saturday morning and started bleeding heavily. We saw right away there was way too much blood and went to the emergency room, where we spent the next 8 hours. God was merciful in that I experienced very little pain, but the blood loss was significant. They were going to release me after about an hour and a half, but I passed out when I got off the bed. When I came to, it took me a minute to figure out where I was as there were people all around, someone was taking my shirt off, I had an oxygen tube in my nose, sensors stuck on my chest, an IV in my arm, etc. They sent an OB doctor in and he felt that most everything had passed but it was necessary to do a D&C to ensure everything was cleared out so I would stop losing blood. I was thankful that my cervix was already dilated, so they didn't have to do that part, and there was very little left in my uterus. It only took a few minutes and sure enough, the bleeding slowed greatly after that. The doctor was really good and took the time to explain why he felt this was necessary, and that he didn't just routinely do this on everyone. It was a few more hours before my blood pressure was stable enough for me to go home. The doctor said I had lost enough blood that I was right on the line for needing a transfusion, but that if I promised to rest for a week I should be able to gain strength and build up my blood supply on my own. Thank God for that! He said all I'm allowed to do, for the most part, is go to the bathroom. So, I'm camped out on the couch, being waited on by our family and treated like a queen! I ahve a whole arsenal of vitamins and supplements and high-iron snacks and foods. Different people are bringing meals this week and next. I'm very weak, and feel tired out after my bathroom trips, but other than that feeling fine. Erik bought a shower attatchment thing today so that I can sit and rinse off and I'm really looking forward to being able to do that.
   I'm grateful that this is over, and that I was able to get the help I needed and am okay. It was scary, but God was with us and giving His peace and strength. Everything I didn't want to happen happened. But, God is still good, and He is in control, and even though I don't understand this, I'm thankful for so many things- we were able to have good care, I had very little pain, we have lots of help, I'm okay, etc. I'm so thankful for Peregrine and Alethea and our families and friends. I'm also thankful that I had over a week to work through some of the grief before having to go through the physical trauma. I can't imagine going through the shock of realizing our baby had died at the same time as the physical miscarriage happening. Emotionally, God has really held me up the last few days. I know the grief is not over, but His grace is sufficient, and He is with us. I'm very, very aware of my weakness right now, and very aware of His strength. There are many Scriptures that have comforted us during this time.
   Thank you for your prayers for our family during this time. The kids are definitely feeling it, but they don't really understand what's going on. Peregrine has been difficult, and of course neither one of them understand why their Mama is lying on the couch all day, unable to play and do all the things I normally do for them. Erik went back to work today, which I think it probably more restful in a way for him than trying to do everything around the house. Our families have made a schedule of who will be here with us this week, and we all well taken care of.
Held up by Him,
Rebeca

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Sep. 11, 2006 - Untitled Comment

Posted by TwaddleMeNot

Rebeca, I'm so sorry you had to go through all of that! I'm glad to hear you have people helping you out and bringing meals and such -that was a big blessing after my miscarriage. I will pray for renewed strength and continued comfort and encouragement for you this week. Also, you might look into getting some liquid chlorophyll from a health food store - I lost a lot of blood also, and this was how my midwife had me "boost" it back up. It's like a plant form of blood and totally healthy. She made me down about 8 oz of it after my hemorrhage, which gave me a whopper of a headache, but it got my blood levels starting back up. Then I just took about a tablespoon of it each day till I ran out. Anyway, just a thought. I hope you are able to rest this week, and that you find great comfort in holding your little ones.
Melissa

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Sep. 11, 2006 - God is good

Posted by amada

I am so glad that even though we have our opinions about the way things should work out, that God gives us the strength to handle life when He works it out differently. I bet he does it so we will hang on to Him as if desperately. I think He likes it when we are dependent on Him and not so capable ourselves with what we think we can handle.

Well, He IS good. I will keep praying for you. Praise the Lord for His goodness, kindness and love for us!

Amy

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Sep. 11, 2006 - Untitled Comment

Posted by callmekate

Rebeca, I have prayed for you every day this past week and will continue to do so. I'm so sorry for what you had to go through but I'm glad that part is over. I'm also glad you didn't have to get a transfusion. Get your rest, that's all that matters right now. I pray that God will strengthen you soon and continue to bring healing, both physically and emotionally. Take care, my friend.

Kate

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Sep. 12, 2006 - Untitled Comment

Posted by DandelionSeeds

Praying for you...

In Him,
Amy

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Sep. 12, 2006 - Rebeca

Posted by anyachristine

I'm very sorry to hear all that you have had to endure. I'm sure you are glad to know that it is over and you can look forward to a time of recovery.
Please know that I am praying for you as you continue to get well.

Christy :)

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Sep. 12, 2006 - Untitled Comment

Posted by alaska0girl

Sometimes we don't know why God does things the way he does, but we have to trust that HE has a reason. How is your friend doing?

Alycia

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Sep. 13, 2006 - Continuing to pray here!

Posted by servingtheKingofkings

I hope and pray for your speedy recovery and your strength for each new day. Your family is also in my prayers. Take care and rest in God's grace & mercy!

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Sep. 13, 2006 - Rebeca

Posted by AussieinAmerica

I am so soory that you have had to go through this. I pray that you will recover quickly. I'm sorry that so much of what you didn't want to happen happened. You are a wonderful example of strength and grace.
Take care,
Stacy

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