I talked about a list of 100 plus things that I am grateful for that I really have not thanked God for as they are just ''there'' and so of course I had not thought that maybe God would like to know that I appreciate them- I know He knows my heart but maybe-he would also like to hear my ''heart-
so as soon as I have generated the 'list' I will start to post it------- the 100 is just a number I choose as I could never complete the numbers that belong in the list as there would be not enough time but it is a start......
an example is :
1. the color red== God has given us so many shades of red in nature plus the knowledge to create more reds on our own- it is a color to warm the heart- and often used as the love color--it is the color of our blood which gives us life- God created the many colors of red - papa had a saying that I would like to share- '' every woman deserves a little red in her life.....'' (meaning that it is ok to be good to yourself too)
thank you, Lord for the color ''red''-

this is sort of the kind of list I had in mind and the reasons why I appreciate the particular gift from God.......

huggles me, Meme aka Oma

it has been so long that I have blogged here-

as you know, my dear hubby had pancreatic cancer

on July 21-2008 he went home with Jesus

my heart is broken and I am just resting in the Lord

there is so much of his story that I want to share but

the time is not right yet-

I am still a weeping widow although I rejoice in my sorrow

He was a wonderful kind and good husband- dad, brother, son, and grandpa (papa) and great

grand pa-

-------I hope to be back soon- I was pleased that I remembered my user name and pass word- the kids had deleted my cookies :-( but I got in right away- Meme still remembers some things

huggles me, Meme

Today I was sitting in the doctor's office waiting for my appointment - because I had finally managed to sort out a good day for me and papa- I left papa in capable hands of g'kid, his brother and his friend- I was relaxing and just enjoying a few minutes of quiet-yes, quiet as there seemed to be a shortage of patients in our town--LOL - I was skimming a magazine as I have learned not to start reading an interesting article as that will be the day the doctor is on time-when I saw an page of hints- on hint was tabled ''tired towels'' and of course told how the said towels can be revived- well, I never noticed my towels getting tired before today but I do know what tired is....so tired that putting one foot in front of the other is work ......It made me wonder who in this world of the good and the bad and the ugly would worry about their towels being tired? I guess the hint person and the magazine certainly do/did- If I knew what tired towels were I certainly would do something to revive them beyond washing them and tossing them into the dryer--LOL- if you read to the end of the story I will tell you what to do with your tired towels-
Papa had a rough week and was unable to go for his chemo- he just did not have enough strength to even go for the blood work- we can no longer go for the mail as it is too far for him to go there and come back. We stayed at home until today and then he was able to go for a ride with a friend- he was tuckered out but also lifted up- he was able to see something beyond our four walls- our four walls are nice to see but looking at them day after day makes papa a dull boy- so the ride was a good thing for him as it gave he something to chat about...
Papa is still papa though- during most of our marriage when ever he got a spare dollar here or there he would always split the money between him and I( or is that me?). He sold one of his big saws and tonight he took the money out of his wallet and split it in half- half for me and half for him and he always gives me the bigger half. So now we both will have some fun---- and me being me I have already forgot where I put my half.....(smile).
there is not much other news beyond our four walls- we have had two hot days in a row and spring seems to have sprung in our neighbor hood-
oh yes, about the tired towels- put them in the washer with hot water and double soup and soak and wash and rinse twice- personally I think my towels will stay tired.......
Remember to have with a gentle spirit, a compassionate heart and quiet patience
and you will accomplish much moretoday and tomorrow.
have a great week end and Meme will return- and here is some strength for your journey:

"But I say to you that listen, Love your enemies, do good to those who hateyou, bless those who curse you, pray for those who abuse you. If anyonestrikes you on the cheek, offer the other also; and from anyone who takesaway your coat do not withhold even your shirt. Give to everyone who begsfrom you; and if anyone takes away your goods, do not ask for them again. Do to others as you would have them do to you." ~Luke 6:27-31
Huggles Me, Meme aka Papa's wife.......
 

• here we are in the midst of spring -today was a beautiful day - yesterday too- and we got no snow at our house on thursday but a whole bunch of the rest of Alberta did--10 inches at the farm place which is about 20 minutes from here if you are taking the way of the crow and 25 if you take the roads -
• we are living pretty quiet here unless the grand daughter and her boy who is a friend are hanging around-
• Papa David is weak and only able to walk short distances and stand for short times- the distance beyond 100 feet is now too much, standing shaving is too long- he seldom ventures any where in the house alone-
• he did have chemo again this week which is now a choice as either way does not change things - I think the chemo is now doing  more bad than good and the doctor said he will let papa decide if or if not........right now- papa is still hanging on to the chemo.
• we did want to go away some where some time where cancer did not follow but papa is now too weak to go very far.........his brother and wife with us may go for an over night somewhere close to home= it is hard because everything now is about cancer and health and papa- all our thoughts of what he can do or eat need to be considered -
• I am hanging on by the threads of my tears.....I feel so helpless to know what to do to make him comfort and joy.....sometimes I just sit and look at him - and he looks at me-- and that is our joy.
• Dogman has been running in and out all day looking for spring and a walk but he will have to chase the wind this spring
• we decided not to do any plants or gardening other than rocks this year- just too much for me to be outside too so we have some nice big rocks that I will rearrange and stick some potted plants out-
• things are different and adapting and accepting are the hard parts,,,,,but we  carry on forward with the Lord- trusting Him
• teddy bears reminds you and me that we need to have fun and yes. papa and I do still have some good laughs--mostly at his expense- he can still tease the grand kids and snitch some of their fries-
• huggles me, Meme and Papa too
• 'LITTLE THINGS'
  Dear God, please give to me
  A thankful heart for little things-
  For sunshine on my kitchen floor
  For news the postman brings;
  For memories in the making,
  Things the children say and do,
  That I will smile about, perhaps
  Some future quiet day.
  Grant me appreciation
  Of the small joys that are mine-
  The special birthday parties,
  My honeysuckle vine;
  The clean, fresh smell
  Of clothes just washed;
  The ivy on my wall,
  The children's thrilled delight
  To wake and find the first snowfall.
  For robins in the springtime,
  And autumn's crispy weather-
  For leaves that crunch,
  Friends in for lunch
  And laughter shared together.
  Give me enthusiasm
  To greet each brand new day
  With honest joy in living
  As I go my simple way;
  Let me love the little things
  and thank our Father for them when I pray.(authorunknown)
  

• we are snowed in.......with lots of snow and wind and drifts
• papa cannot get any shoes or slippers on-- feet are too swelled-sigh
• I found a pair of my socks that stretch and managed to pull his feet into them-this is not a good thing
• he is not feeling well at all
• Miss Ashley's dad brought her up at 4 to help me- she is crying a lot about papa-sigh-this is so hard on her too
• Dogman wants his winter coat back on due to the deep snow-
• not a lot of news as we cannot get out..maybe tomorrow.. my friend made this ribbon for us- you are welcome to use it
• good night and huggles from cold Canada--Meme.  (papa's wife)
•  "Come to me, all you that are weary and are carrying heavy burdens,
  and I will give you rest.  Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me;
  for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your
  souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light." ~Matthew 11:28-30
  
  

• we got back home
• after 13 hours in hospital while papa got his blood transfusions
• we are tired
• it is snowing here and cold
• Dogman missed us and now is following us around
• in hopes that something will fall to the floor
• but we are too tired to eat
• so we found him a cracker- he loves crackers and generally
• manages to bribe one or two out of us per day
• no g'kids tonight
• no new news at house which is a good thing

• For by the grace (unmerited favor of God) given to me I warn everyone among you not to estimate and think of himself more highly than he ought [not to have an exaggerated opinion of his own importance], but to rate his ability with sober judgment, each according to the degree of faith apportioned by God to him. For as in one physical body we have many parts (organs, members) and all of these parts do not have the same function or use, So we, numerous as we are, are one body in Christ (the Messiah) and individually we are parts one of another [mutually dependent on one another].

  Romans 12:3-5  (Amplified Bible)

  good night and have a wonder weekend

after some research and talking to the cancer clinic

we have found that papa's color for cancer is purple

like pink is for breast cancer--- so now the grandkids

and Meme too are finding purple ribbons or socks

just to show our love for papa David-

we also feed him purple popsicles--LOL

so if you see a purple ribbon remember that

this cancer also needs a cure--donate what you can -

for pancreatic cancer. We hope to find a cure for future

generations -

We are thinking  and praying for  tomorrow for david's blood transfusion- thank you to someone for donating blood to give david energy and better health--

it will take 8 hours as he needs 3 units so also remember

to donate blood if you can-

today Dogman had his hair cut and polished and nails too- he looks like

a top dog and certainly knows how to put on the dog--

we had a quiet day with some company- and just did a lot of nothing- the g'kids

popped in to see papa and have a popsicle with him-

we are off to bed early as papa david has to be at the hospital

at 7:15 - I will go with him and take some books-

"O give thanks to the LORD, for he is good; for his steadfast love
endures forever."  ~Psalm 106:1

This is the old barn that I used to play --up in the loft with brother bill-- the barn is older than me- and now pretty ,much standing alone but still holds odds and ends - no more cows though as farm is just a grain farm now- what fun we had climbing that ladder to hide from mom and dad-- at least till supper time

huggles me, Meme

we had a busy week since hubby's fall and so no time to blog

here is a verse to bless your journey:

sighing

I am almost too tired to write a blog tonight

so will list my 10 top blessings for today

1. I did not hear the alarm go off

2. grand daughter slept beside Meme all night on a mat-

3. papa hubby was ok this morning although very tired today

4. some sun shine among the clouds

5. a friend came and took papa for a drive just to get some fresh air

6. no bills in the mail

7. laundry is done for another day or two

8. some one is praying for us

9. had some coconut cream pie :-)

10. Dogman smiles with his tail

One of the scribes asked Jesus, 'Which commandment is the first of all?'
Jesus answered, "The first is, 'Hear, O Israel: the Lord our God, the Lord
is one; you shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all
your soul, and with all your mind, and with all your strength.' The second
is this, 'You shall love your neighbor as yourself.' There is no other
commandment greater than these."  ~Mark 12:28-31

huggles me. Meme

• here it is   ''Friday '' and also into the month of April but you already knew that already--LOL
• chemo week so David had his chemo on Wednesday- this one has hit him a little harder but he had 3 weeks off-----so was stronger this time too
• yesterday we had to go to the city for him to have  CT SCAN  so next week we should find out the results
• today was quiet- made some apple tarts for David and then he and I made a sort of rocky road squares- we had fun and Papa licked the bowl-
• Dogman has a new habit- he sleeps on a couch watching papa for the first two hours of our bedtime and then crashes to the floor and jumps into bed with me- he gets very sad if he can not lay there keeping his eye on papa so now I have an automatic one o'clock in the morning alarm-  
• this is a picture of how he watches Papa with one eye open and one eye shut-
• well, friends- this is short but need to spend some time with Papa helping him do this and that ---------
• huggles me, Meme------Papa's wife.....
• "This is God, our God forever and ever. He will be our guide forever."
  ~Psalm 48:14

• grand daughter slept over and shut off the alarm-
• woke up to a white world- about an inch of snow
• sun shining
• papa up and said he had a good night
• the boy who is a friend came to see his girl
• half of the snow melted
• friend came and took papa out for a while and they went shopping
• for a razor for papa- he likes the small ones because he says "" it is one thing to have cancer but it is another thing to have hair growing out of your ears''--LOL
• papa had a good day except for some stumbles
• brother Bill phoned and they got more snow than we did
• the kids went home
• the boy who is a friend found his wallet which he lost last week and now knows who he is when he is not here- (smile)
• not a lot of news in our corner of the world but that is ok too
• have a wonderful sunday evening
•  
• this is one of my house plants today
• "This is the day that the LORD has made; let us rejoice and be glad in
  it." ~Psalm 118:24
• HUGGLES ME-- MEME (PAPA'S WIFE)
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