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Apr. 8, 2008 - 4-8-08
"But consider the joy of those corrected by God! Do not despise the discipline of the Almighty when you sin. For though He wounds, he also bandages. He strikes, but His hand also heals". Job 5:17
Praise the Lord for His Godly correction. It is done out of LOVE and never out of frustration and anger. Though, "I" am often feeling frustrated and angry with myself, right about the time I need HIM to step in and re-direct me. My friend Debbie talks about when you become FREE of sin it makes you feel as though you are FLYING! Well, that is exactly how I feel, as though I am FLYING.
It's easy to repent and change course when my circumstances change..., what always blesses me is when the Lord supernaturally changes my heart so that in the MIDST of the situation I walk in Freedom. This week was exactly that, as a matter of fact it was busier than ever. Let me share:
1- My Jacob had chickey pox which changed the dynamics of my whole life.
2- My Grandmother had emergency oral surgery.
3- Thursday Grandma had a previously scheduled appointment to go our main doctor for follow up on some tests that she had done the week before.
4- Friday was our last day at co-op and a full day as we were trying to tie up all the details of the yearbook + Friday night is the night we do my Grandmother's yard.
Well, just a few weeks ago I would have fell right into the frustrated victim mode, but instead the Lord walked out Duet 33:26..., "He rode across the Heavens to help me, Across the skies in Majestic Splendor".
* He made me HUNGRY for His Word.
* I saw my Grandmother through eyes filled with Love. He reminded me that these "interruptions" are precious minutes that are a gift! I get to spend time with her "now" to carry with me forever.
As I took her frail and wrinkled hand into mine and helped her into the van and then into the doctor's office we joked and laughed and made forever memories. It felt good and filled my cup to minister out of love. I realized that when I get caught up in my "schedule" I see it more of an obligation and even an interruption. I don't think I am ever rude or mean, but I when I am watching the clock or calendar my body language screams, "THIS IS AN INTERRUPTION". (I don't ever remember her making ME feel that way all the times she rode clear up to Palm Harbor every single week to pick me up and bring me back to her house when I was growing up and she was a 1st grade teacher who was probably exhausted)
* I watched my 16 year old son minister to his grandmother in love. He went over on Tuesday night so that he could take care of Wednesday morning after she took her medicine. He didn't grumble and complain. Though, I know there is sacrifice. Her house can become warm because as you get older your circulation slows down. She has no internet and she has him go to bed much earlier than if he were at home. But he didn't look at those things, instead he looked at what needed to be done and he did it. He loves his Grandma.
When I went to co-op Friday I was feeling under a deadline with the yearbook and then the Lord once again, "Rode across the Heavens to help me, across the skies in majestic splendor. Instead of falling victim to my timeline and all that needed to be done..., He changed my heart!"
I looked across the room at all the precious teens he put in my class. I saw that this was my last day with them and I felt such love. This was not about a yearbook, this was about loving them with HIS love. We were joking and having a good time. This was a gift from the Lord because I can become very task oriented when under the gun.
He showed me again..., being a Leader is not about being in charge, it's about serving others. I can't serve others if I feel overwhelmed and sorry for myself. You can't be a victim and a servant (leader) at the same time. I am so thankful to the Lord for "His" Godly correction......, More of HIM, less of Me!
"But consider the joy of those corrected by God! Do not despise the discipline of the Almighty when you sin. For though He wounds, he also bandages. He strikes, but His hand also heals". Job 5:17
Comments
Apr. 8, 2008 - Untitled Comment
Posted by Jade
Mary,
Thank you for sharing your heart once again. This post touched me. I will be meditating on this verse as I felt it strike deep in my heart as I read it.
God be with you,
Jade
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