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Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Shattered

I just heard a song by Selah today. It is called "Unredeemed". I have been in a horrible pit for quite some time now. Having a hard time getting out. I have been pulling my husband and kids in with me instead of climbing out. I have been walking with the Lord over 12 years now and I have walked through many valleys and have even encountered a pit or two, but this has been the deepest of them all. There are so many thoughts in my head... too many to write down here. I have felt a bit parellel to that of Joseph and sure enough.... his is the first story we are studying this year in school. I rented the Dreamworks production and we watched it yesterday. There is a scene in there that I keep going over and over in my mind. It is when Joseph is in the prison after the cupbearer and the baker have left. There was a small tree growing, but it is devoured by rats. He cries out to God with the "Why me? Why this?" question. Then he sees it.... among the broken branches... one small green leaf... the song playing while he builds the tree up keeps saying; "You know better than I"..... Wow!! I know that He knows better, I know that He has a plan and a purpose for me. I know He has allowed the past year and half to happen. He has brought me to this place; to my Egypt, for reasons only He knows. I know all of this in my head, but I can't seem to take the thoughts and transfer them to my actions! I don't want to build up the tree... I don't want to be in this place! I don't want to suffer. I know that all these things are nothing more than my sinful self throwing a temper tantrum. I need to take that next step... I need to begin to climb out of this pit. So back to the song I mentioned before... the line in it that burns in my heart at this very moment is this... "But when anything that's shattered is laid before the Lord, just watch and see it will not be unredeemed." My dreams have been shattered... I feel as if my heart is shattered... but God can redeem it... He can cause a green leaf to grow among the brokenness. I must hold on to this truth! This is one step towards the top. I can get out! Help me Lord! Bring me up out of this pit because You know better than I!

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Tuesday, September 15, 2009 - Today

Posted by Anonymous

Hope you are well today. It was a pretty amazing song, and I am glad it ministered to you. We all have our "pits", and I am hoping yours will soon be a small little pin hole soon. I love you!!!

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Tuesday, September 15, 2009 - Untitled Comment

Posted by drewsfamilytx

Oh Sam! That is the exact same song that I have been singing my heart out to all week long! I LOVE IT.

And you know what else? Noah's favorite song is "My Redeemer" on page 202 of our church hymnal. :) It makes me smile because I had no idea until one day the songleader said turn to page 202 and he was SO excited and said "Yay! My Redeemer! That's my favorite!" I had NO idea.

Oh how He redeems us!

Praying for you, thinking of you lots lately, and loving you, my friend.

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Tuesday, September 15, 2009 - wow

Posted by SuperAngel

*goes to look who wrote this because she's sure she did*

how true and timely this is for me too!. Thank you for writing it and sharing what you've gleaned from your trial. HUG!
I cannot say how much I LOVE that movie. It puts the story of Joseph into a different light than is usually shed on him. I just love that song and probably need to sing it to myself over and over and over!

HUGS and LOVES!
Amanda

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