May. 15, 2008 - Beware: This Post is Depressing

Pass this up unless you're up to hearing me whine just a bit. Most of the time my posts are here to accomodate me more than anyone. Have you noticed that?

Oh, some of you are STILL here? Okay, fair warning!

First let me say that physically today I feel better than I have the past week and a half or so. Before today I had been literally dragging. Just to do everyday, simple tasks has been very hard and tiring. So much for that "easy" second trimester time where you're neither sick or tired. Yeah right. Who wrote that junk anyway? Also, for the longest time we have been getting to bed at VERY late hours and while not getting up at the crack of dawn like I would desire, still it was too early for me. BUT last night I forced myself to go to bed earlier, albeit it was still almost midnight but it was earlier. I felt SO MUCH better today. I wasn't 100% but I could cope. I didn't take a nap either. Now it's almost 10:00pm and I am DYING to go to bed. So in a bit I shall shower and retire.

Even still with the good day of having a bit more energy, I was VERY emotional and overly moody. Can we say, "raging hormones" anyone? YIKES! I felt like a roaring lion( it must be an overdrive of testosterone!!!). Then I went to do math with Samuel, the one whose a little bit slower and I told myself that I am a complete failure. I had a ~~slight~~ strong desire to call up the public school and give up. I know, please don't hate me. I never would do that but I really wanted to for a bit. Then James calls and I am a blubbering mess. After lunch we got ready to go to town and do our grocery shopping. That helped a bit. While out I got another math book and we are starting over. Samuel did 5 pages in about 5 minutes(no joke) and was saying that this was a bit too easy. It may be but we are zooming through until we hit whatever I've ~~failed at~~ missed. By the end of June we will start our summer break but I will still tutor Samuel through the summer. This is just taking more time than I thought it would. I am hoping for a turnaround soon...hopefully by next school year?

Okay, so that's it! I am done. I have whined enough. Anyway, I tell the children to, "not whine but shine for Jesus". So I must practice what I preach.

Tomorrow begins a new day. Hopefully one full of energy and good schooling!

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Writton on May. 15, 2008 at 11:51 PM - Untitled Comment

This thought by Anonymous

Dear Susan,

My heart is moved with so much compassion for you. Did you know that I have been where you are many times? I know what it is like to be pregnant and exhausted--especially with the last pregnancy, when I was 42.

If you would allow me, I would like to offer a bit of advice, I know you have not asked for it, so if it does not fit, or if it is not God's idea for you, please disregard.

Jesus said that His yoke is easy and His burden is light. I have found in my own life that when I am overly burdened, God is asking me to let go of some parts of my life and let Him carry me. Could it be that you might need to take a break from your homeschool pressures, just for a season until you can get your equilibrium back? There also may be other areas that need to be trimmed back.

Try to take a few days to empty yourself of your own plans, and allow yourself to live in the moment, trusting in God's leading and provision. You need a little "Whimsy" of just enjoying the knitting of the baby inside you.

I am so glad you reached out--we need each other so much! I am looking forward to hearing just how God will return to you His joy and enjoyment.

Sherry

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Writton on May. 16, 2008 at 3:59 PM - :-)

This thought by Jeremiah2913

On math, by a homeschool student:

I used to hate math, and took over an hour to do one lesson. Multiplication was hard, division was hard, and fractions were nightmares. However, when it clicked, it actually became fun. As for the time.... it still takes me longer to do, but at least now I enjoy it. (It's my favorite subject now...)

Learning to read was the same way with me. I got frustrated with it, and Mom was getting frustrated with me, because I was frustrated. What she was to just put it away for a month. When we started it up agian, I learned very easily.

I'm not saying that will fix everything, but when you're frustrated with something, I personally find that if you just put it down for a while, when you pick it back up, it's easier.

As for the slowness... that's just some people's personality. My older sister can do things well and in a short amount of time, whereas it takes me twice as long. In my mind, it's better to take longer, and do a better job at it than to rush through and do a lousy job.

But then, I'm just a student.... maybe you're saying 'that's a good idea', or you could be saying 'she has no clue what she's talking about'. Either way... I hope you found this comment somewhat interesting...

In Christ, Erica

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Writton on May. 18, 2008 at 5:44 PM - Homschool/Hormonal Blues! Been there too!

This thought by Mary-Jane

Just wanted to let you know that we go through the same, "what are we going to do with Matt!" stuff each Spring. I think it's the weather and wanting to get outside and do something other than school. We always pray and know that we are doing the right thing by homeschooling just as I am sure you do.

Susan, girl....you've been handling SOOOO much stuff!. It's no wonder you you feel a bit overwhelmed! Take a little time for yourself! You do need more rest and I'm really glad that you did that for yourself and that little one that is growing inside of you. Dr. MJ here.....take a little time in morning and take your coffee out on that porch you so enjoy. Take just a few moments for yourself and RELAX!!!! You will feel so much better and your day will go much smoother. I take my coffee on the not-quite-finished screened porch along with my Bible to do my Bible study each morning. It only takes a few moments, but I sure can tell on the days I don't take the time to start my day in that way. It just doesn't seem to flow as well. I stop whatever I am doing and take the time to just stop and sit with my Lord and read His word and then get back to whatever I was into.

Take heart and know that you are always in my thoughts and prayers each morning while I relax on the porch. I check your and Brittany's blogs on a regular basis to keep up with all the happenings.

I'm so excited with all the progress that you have all made working on the new addition! It's coming along just beautifully. Maybe you ought to take a look back over the posts and see just how far you have all come since the very start.

Keep your chin up and know that you aren't alone! :0)

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Writton on May. 19, 2008 at 9:59 AM - Hope you're feeling better

This thought by MamaM

I see this was posted a few days ago so I'm hoping that things have been better.
I always enjoy reading your blog. The menu especially gives me lots of ideas.
Hope you have a nice day!

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Writton on May. 23, 2008 at 11:10 AM - Saw you as a friend of MamaM

This thought by kcmyworld

so I thought I'd take a peek at your site. We, too, are in the middle of a major remodel and I've had diffictulty managing school during this time. I can't imagine what it would be like if I were also pregnant! Praying for you today.

You suggested stopping by Brittany's blog for pictures of your addition. I'd love to see it but wasn't sure which blog was hers.

Have a blessed weekend.
Robin

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I am the wife to one, James, and the mother of six here on earth and one in the presence of the Lord, with another due Sept./08'. We are in our tenth year of homeschooling. We are conservative Christians striving to walk closer to Him daily.