Do you ever just feel so sorry for yourself?  For some reason, I've been feeling really sorry for myself lately and I've not been a very patient mommy either.  I don't want to clean, I don't want to cook, I don't want to attempt to follow any type of schedule and I definitely don't want to be on a diet or have to exercise!  This is definitely not how I want to be....and I'm trying to get to the root of the problem.  Is it just that I'm tired? overwhelmed? or something else?  I do feel tired and overwhelmed, but....is it something more? 

Here's a somewhat funny, but more gross incident that has helped me along in my bad attitude....lol.  MICE!  I really, really don't like mice!  I know, you're thinking, Who does? Right?!  Well, I really, really don't like them....like more than the normal person.  I don't want to see one alive and I don't want to see one dead.  I wouldn't say that I'm afraid of them, just kinda cringe and get this sick feeling when I think about it....lol.  So...yesterday afternoon, we saw a mouse scurry across our floor.  It just so happend, our whole family and a guest was in the kitchen right when it happened.  My husband and I screamed, the kids screamed and our guest just laughed.  Well, this of course means we have to set a trap to try and get the little thing.  So....as soon as I go to sleep last night, I hear the trap go off with a huge, loud SNAP followed by some yucky flopping noises.  My heart leaps and I debate on if I should wake my husband to take care of it.  I decide not to thinking he can just take care of it in the morning.  Besides, he's not usually very coherent if I wake him in the night...plus he may try to make me take care of it and well... I'm just NOT going to do it.  :o)  When he gets up in the morning and I tell him that we got a mouse, he goes to check the trap and the mouse is GONE!!!  After looking a little closer, he sees that the mouse had left his foot behind.  YUCK.  So...now, not only did we not get the mouse, we now have a 3 footed mouse running around here.  DOUBLE YUCK!  For some reason, this has really added to my stress level.  I'm going to go and set the traps again in a few minutes...and then go to bed with my ears plugged so I don't have to hear it!

So...in an effort to start feeling better and not always be a discouragement to you who come to read my blog I found a verse for myself to focus on. 

First Thessaloniaians 5:16-18

Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus. 

Hmm, could this be my problem?  I'm not making a conscious effort to be joyful, and it would probably be easier to do that if I were giving thanks in all circumstances.  Also, if I were praying continually, it would be a lot harder to have a bad attitude! 

How can I be thankful about this mouse and all the work that I feel overwhelmed by?  I guess I can be thankful that I have a roof over my head for starters.  Imagine living in a house with a dirt floor.....the critters you'd get there!!  I'll have to continue training myself to be joyful and thankful and not to forget being more prayerful.  When you're thankful for all things, you're acknowledging God's sovereign control over all areas of your life!