Mar. 3, 2009 - Wow...It's Been A While! - Posted in Life

As the title says, I've been gone from this blog for a while. It's just that nothing much had been going on, just college and stuff like that...

Well, this last weekend the same-old, same-oldness ended and I got to go on my Youth Group's Srping Retreat!! :-D It was sooooooo much fun! This year, Rob (our youth leader) talked to all the Juniors and Seniors about how we should make sure that this weekend was especially fun for the Freshmen and Sophomores, because most of the outings and stuff we do tends to be more for the upperclassmen. So this last weekend, I got to hang out with some AWESOME Freshmen and Sophomores!

On the bus ride over to camp (about a 1 1/2 hour ride) three freshmen and I all did this little questionare thingy and laughed about our answers. Then, once we got to camp, we were all assigned cabins. I got into a cabin with a good friend of mine and also a bunch of sophomore and freshmen girls that I've met before, but never actually talked to much. So I got to spend some time with them and built some relationships there.

Saturday was an amazingly fun day! Some people went snowboarding, some went to a hot spring, and some stayed at camp (which is what I did). At first I was a little bored because everyone was either playing basketball in the Rec Center (which I'm no good at) or painting/coloring (both of which I don't really enjoy. I like drawing, but not coloring or painting). But during this time I was able to work on a couple of my songs, so it ended up being productive.

Then we got to the fun part of the day: the giant swing! It's about fifty feet tall, suspended between two tall trees. You put on a harness and you get pulled up fifty feet by the people on the ground using a pulley system. And then you push the release and you free-fall about twenty feet and swing the rest of the way. Now, heights and I DO NOT MIX! But I'd told myself that I would face my fear and do the swing. While watching the people in front of me go I was all "I'm going to die. I'm going to die! I'M GOING TO DIE!"

Then my turn came and I was pulled up. I was scared to death! I looked down for a split second and then pulled my eyes off the ground, because if I focused on how high I was I would never release myself. So then I took a deep breath and pushed the button. And I free-fell. And I SCREAMED!!! It was sooooo scary! But then the rope caught me and took me into a swinging motion. When I got back to solid ground my legs were shaking! But I had such a great time! I am sooooo glad that I did it! And I am so doing it again next year!!! :-D

So yeah, that was the highlight of my weekend Retreat. I had a great time, learned stuff in Bible study, wrote a couple of new songs, met new people, it was awesome! And speaking of new songs, would you like to see one? This was inspired by the giant swing, actually. I was just thinking in quiet time that day about how scary it is to let go of things we love and let God catch us, and how after we finally do let go we're still scared and wondering "Will He catch me this time?" But He always does! It's not quite finished, but here's what I have:

Free-Fall

Standing on the edge of what I fear the most
I know I need to jump, I need to let go
He’s caught me before, why am I so afraid?

Looking down, the nausea begins to take a hold
I do not want to jump, this is my comfort zone
He’s caught me before, why am I so afraid?

I know I need to take this leap of faith
But I fear the free-fall
I know the danger of this comforting place
But I fear the free-fall
I know I need to trust Him to catch me as I fall
I know that when I jumped before He was there through it all
I know that He is here but I’m afraid
I fear the free-fall

I’m ready, here I go now, I leap off of the edge
And then I wish never took my feet off of the ledge
He’s caught me before, why am I still afraid?

I know I need to take this leap of faith
But I fear the free-fall
I know the danger of this comforting place
But I fear the free-fall
I know I need to trust Him to catch me as I fall
I know that when I jumped before He was there through it all
I know that He is here but I’m afraid
I fear the free-fall

The ground is coming up at me so fast
Each breath I take, it feels like it’s my last
And just when I think I can’t survive
Your strong arms lift me up high

I know I need to take this leap of faith
But I fear the free-fall
I know the danger of this comforting place
But I fear the free-fall
I know I need to trust Him to catch me as I fall
I know that when I jumped before He was there through it all
I know that He is here and I am safe
Though I fear the free-fall


~SeaChel


"Free-Fall" copyrighted by SeaChel, 2009

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