I attended the Women of Faith Conference today and cried through much of it.  I had the pleasure of watching Lisa Smith, a young woman with Downs Syndrome, perform.  Lisa learned ASL (American Sign Language) and taught herself to sign to Sandi Patty cd's.  Sandi Patty saw her in the audience at one of her concerts and invited Lisa up on stage.  Since then, Lisa has signed at many Women of Faith conferences around the country. 

As I watched Lisa, God reminded me that Rebekah is not limited by her diagnosis.  GOD is not limited by Rebekah's diagnosis.  I was reminded that God loves Rebakah.  That He created her.  He formed her in my womb.  She was not some accident of conception.  God knows every intimate detail of how she was formed.  God will raise her up for His good purpose.  I just need to let go and let God do His work.  Or as Luci Swindoll said "Show up, shut up and let go!". 

I thought I had been dealing well with Rebekah's diagnosis.  I found today that I am not doing as well as I thought I was.  What I have really been doing is supressing all of my fears and putting on a brave face.  Don't get me wrong, I still know God is in charge, I still believe God chose her for us.  I am just willing to admit now that I have fears.  I have worries.  I have guilt.  I have all of these irrational things swirling around inside that I need to just let go and give to God.  I do not know Rebekah's future, just at I do not know the future of my other children.  Only God knows.  I do know now that she can have an amazing future if I do not limit her based on her diagnosis.  My role is simply to love her and follow God's leading for her.  Please pray that I can step back and give the control back to God.  He has already blessed her tremendously and I know he will continue.