Sorry guys it’s been 2 weeks since I last wrote. I‘ve been pretty busy but thankful I’ve stayed caught up on my comments and PM’s. Well I have some bad news. Some of you already know but for the those who don’t here is the story. I had a cousin who had cystic fibrous. She was My dad’s first cousin and only 21 years old. About a year ago she started going down hill and within the past 12 months, 10 of them were spent in the hospital. She needed a lung transplant and something else but I can’t remember. Her life was pretty much a day to day you couldn’t really plan anything as the next day she could be back in the hospital. I saw family on thanksgiving and she had been planning on coming but the day or two before was back in the hospital. Her family came though and told us that at that point the doctors said that as soon as she was strong enough to under go the transplant she was first on the list. Sadly for her to live someone else had to die. So praying for her to get a transplant was also praying someone died. That’s really hard when you think about it. But for the first time we all really thought she was going to get better and have the transplant and it was only a matter of time. But on the 17^th God had other plans. The infection took over her body and the antibiotics weren’t working. She was in a lot of pain and the doctors said that they had done everything they could but it wasn’t working and she was dying. So Amanda made the hardest decision I think any one could make. She told her family she was ready to go to heaven and asked to be taken off the breathing machine. This whole time she knew what was happening and it was her decision. The Doctor’s gave her a lot of pain medicine to knock her out and she peacefully passed away. Her funeral was that Tuesday and it was so sad. Not because she died and is heaven but because she was so young. But I know she’s not in pain anymore and I’ll see her again one day.

Ok, for some other sad (sorta) news is Sassy and Poco are gone. I think their new owner is going to be really good for them. Last time I said that I was going to get a horse in about a year. Well I changed my mind. You see the truth is that I’ve sorta lost my love for horses. I don’t know it was like one morning I woke up and didn’t love horses. And let me say since I don’t love them like I did it’s kind weird. If you were to look around my room it would be all horses. I didn’t tell anyone at first because I thought everyone would be mad or something. Well my mom figured it out and she told me that it’s ok if I lost interest and that I shouldn’t worry want others might think. That it’s just what I want that really matters. I told her that my real interest is music and I really want to get into it. So I’m going to start guitar lessons and probably start teaching myself piano. On top of that I’m really into photography and writing. And by the way I just bought myself a digital camera. So here are a bunch of pictures I’ve done. Sorry But I can't post any pictures of myself but for those who personally know and want pictures just tell me and I'll e-mail you some but please remember you have to KNOW me OUTSIDE of HSB.

Ok so I was going to post pictures but my laptop is acting up. So I'll see if I can post some later. ARGH! Computers.

stressful,

shaiya