The Journey
Mar. 29, 2006
What's In The . . . ?

Posted in organization

from Leann:

wanta play???

    What's in the...  

 Oven? dirty dishes.

 Crockpot? nothing and it is clean!

   CD player? i don't have one. we must have 11 in the house, but i do not have one. i usu use the puter and it has a bunch of everything.

 * DVD player? i have no idea. we do no TV anymore, only dvd's n videos - lots of Barney lately much to Hannah's chagrin! The babies both LOVE Barney!

*Sewing Room? excuse me?

*Craft Basket?   the what?

* Music Folder? whatever the kids n hubby put there!

Mailbox? lots of interesting stuffs half of which i never read.

 Review Hopper? not sure what that is. 

Stack for Reading?  my bible, the Gracious Woman, A Woman After God's Own Heart,

   Study Stack? Recruiting Like Jesus Did, You Can Homeschool HighSchool

 Washroom? laundry - dirty and clean and various Roo leavings

 Glass?   hot coffee

   Stomach?   jelly bagel

Back Yard? two black dogs and various cats

   Mommy's Lap? my keyboard and my bagel on a plate! I held the 22 mos old earlier today for his nap.


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Mar. 25, 2006
Hollywood and greatness

Posted in ramblings

"Hollywood is...about self: self-congratulation, self-promotion, and above all, self-protection. This is human and basic, but let's not kid ourselves. There is no greatness there in the Kodak Theater. The greatness is on patrol in Kirkuk. The greatness lies unable to sleep worrying about her man in Mosul. The greatness sleeps at Arlington National Cemetery and lies waiting for death in VA Hospitals. God help us that we have sunk so low as to confuse foolish and petty boasting with the real courage that keeps this nation and the many fools in it alive and flourishing on national TV." —Ben Stein


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Mar. 8, 2006
new hs blog

Posted in high school

High School Coordinators Launch Blog

 

Join HSLDA high school coordinators as they share information via a new interactive format. Their informal, timely postings will be tailored to the specific needs and interests of homeschooling families with high-school age children.

 

Read more about it at:

http://www.hslda.org/elink.asp?id=2897


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Mar. 8, 2006
surveys

Posted in question

Hubby has been impressed to look into the online survey community.  I have been a member of Pinecone Research for over a year now and get at least one $5 ck each month, sometimes more.  Not a lot, but $5 is $5.  I recently signed up for some other survey companies – none that pay regularly, but they do offer other compensations and opportunities for prizes.  They are all asking me to refer a friend (Pinecone Research is also expanding at this time) – IF you would like info from any of the online survey companies I am with, please email me and let me know. I will not refer or send info to anyone who does not ask.

 

Having been with Pinecone for over a year, I only signed up with those companies that seemed legitimate to me.  If I feel any company abuses the privilege or misrepresented themselves, I will post that on my blog.  I know all of us Moms are always looking for some way to make money at home. This is one way we have chosen for this time.

 

If YOU have done any online surveying, I’d love to hear about your experience!  If YOU know of any other good work at home plans – LET ME KNOW!  I have always heard positive things about mystery shopping and we may be looking into that also.

 

Jo out


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Mar. 6, 2006
laughter and a question

Posted in ramblings

can you think of any other kind of grilled sandwich than tuna or cheese?

 

"The most wasted of all days is one without laughter."  e.e. cummings

 

The same physiological changes that occur with real laughter also take effect when you only pretend to laugh!

 

The average child laughs 40 times a day.

 

People are more likely to laugh in groups than alone.

 

Women laugh more than men, except when they are listening to women.

- now, do men laugh at women more than women laugh at women?

- or do women tend to gossip and whine with each other and not laugh?

- or do men just not listen to women?

 

Less than 20% of laughter is in response to a joke.

 

 


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Mar. 1, 2006
I've been tagged

Posted in ramblings

I got tagged by Leann who wrote:

"Posted in Organizing Life at Home

by Maria... who was tagged by Stephanie at Olive Tree who was tagged by Meredith at Like Merchant Ships and the original Kitchen Meme came from Headmistress at the Common Room..."

 

1. How many meals does most of your family eat at home each week? How many are in your family?

 

I am gonna post backwards too - there are 10 in our family. I guess we eat all but about 2-4 meals a week at home. We eat at church every Wednesday for supper, and we usually do a picnic lunch or eat out a few other days a week cuz we have to be out for church or errands.

 

2. How many cookbooks do you own?

I have no idea! I do know I had too many and I tossed a bunch. There are a few I cannot let go:

*the first one I ever got - my MIL bought it for me at Sam's one day when we were shopping there. It is a Betty Crocker in a 3 ring binder.  I've worn some of the pages out!

* a church cookbook (again from my MIL) from the church in Ohio hubby attended before we were married. Great recipes!!  Tested, tried, and true!

*a community cookbook that has lost its binding but has several of my sister's recipes in it. I use them a lot.

*a few that were gifts to my daughter also reside in the pantry

 

3. How often do you refer to a cookbook each week?

 

um, never!  not every week! LOL - but then I don't do much cooking either!

Oh, I also have every Quick Cooking magazine that has ever entered this house! I love those!  I go through passages where I will search out and try new recipes, but they are few and far between. I then incorporate favorites into our lives.  Just not my season right now for new recipes much. Also - I NEVER use more than 5 ingredients!! never.


4. Do you collect recipes from other sources? 

 

I try not to.  My sister is a great cook and her hubby is a chef, and sometimes they will come down (or we will go up) and we will all love a recipe and the family will make me have her send it to me.


5. How do you store those recipes?

 

I try to keep them all on my computer. But I also have a smiley recipe thing like a rolodex with index cards that i put some into for the kids to use.

 

6. When you cook, do you follow the recipe pretty closely, or do you use recipes primarily to give you ideas?

 

It  depends. If it is something totally new, I stick to the recipe. I do use recipes a lot to get ideas.  Mostly I use recipes for the kids way more than for me.


 

7. Is there a particular ethnic style or flavor that predominates in your cooking? 

 

Our dominant ethnic style is a mix of "what we have in the pantry" and "mom's mood". LOL!  I do love Italian! We grew up on a farm and butchered our own beef, so I grew up on meat and potatos - I still like it!  What ethnic style is that??


8. What’s your favorite kitchen task related to meal planning and preparation?

 

eating.


 

9. What’s your least favorite part?

 

deciding.


10. Do you plan menus before you shop?

 

I try to.  Some weeks life happens on fast forward and I try to just stay a day ahead. Fairly often we get blessed with groceries or leftovers from a church dinner, then I go with what is on hand only shopping for what I need to go with that.


11. What are your three favorite kitchen tools or appliances?

 

my sink

my hot running water

my coffee pot


12. If you could buy one new thing for your kitchen, money was no object, and space not an issue, what would you most like to have?

 

another sink - a deep one but one side skinny so the chopping board fits over it with a garbage disposal in that side and also a pull out faucet with a spray option.

i'm not very picky. LOL!  Our ocean house had that sink and I just loved it!


13. Since money and space probably are objects, what are you most likely to buy next?

 

a new microwave.  ours is not very old, but one day Andrew (10) was putting a metal spatula on the dirty dish shelf where the microwave is plugged in and somehow he actually got the metal part of the spatula between the plug and the wall and **SPARKS** flew!  Ever since then my microwave has been extremely temperamental!  Bummer cuz it is only about 1.5 ys old and it was JUST what I wanted. ah well. . . I will probably get another one when I find one I like more. And have the funds for it! Until then, my kids are learning how to cook the old fashioned way. . . on the stove! LOL!

 


14. Do you have a separate freezer for storage?

 

Yes.


15. Grocery shop alone or with others?

 

hardly ever alone. In fact, usu hubby and I take the babies to Wendy's while the older girls shop!


16. How many meatless main dish meals do you fix in a week?

 

 maybe one.


17. If you have a decorating theme in your kitchen, what is it?

 

don't have one. someday. it is waaay down on the list. I did shop for yellow kitchens (i love a yellow kitchen!) but the store I wa sin had not one yellow set! Not even one with yellow. odd. . .

I am not even sure what theme I would like one day. I am not much for decorating - it is something God is growing me in. I am practical right to a fault!!


18. What’s the first thing you ever learned to cook, and how old were you?

 

um, pineapple in a can?

I really don't remember cooking much at home.  I remember i made lumpy mashed potatos once and Mom made me make mashed potatos every night until they were not lumpy. Turned out it was not me - it was the potatos! LOL!

I remember making popcorn, so maybe that was my first cooking. And that was pre-microwave!


19. How did you learn to cook?

 

I learned a lot watching my SIL put together casseroles when we lived with her early in our marriage.  My MIL is a great cook also and I often ask for recipes from her of things we eat at her house.

Other than that, a lot of reading and trial & error.


20. Tag two other people to play.

 

How about...

 

TNMOMTOMANY

and

FloridaHomeschooling


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Feb. 26, 2006
a simple life

Posted in organization

wow! Dr. Dobson's letter for February sure goes along with my pondering!!!

 

What I have run into - well, let me go back a bit for my new readers. . .

 

6 children in 8 years, homeschooling, and lots of other activities at church, etc.  The twins are now 5 and I am delightedly pregnant again with a long awaited little girl.

 

Soon after Zipporah's birth, God very clearly told me to do NO THING outside of the home.  Fine with me!  I scheduled one field trip (I thought he meant things like positions or regular committments) and sprained my ankle so badly the week before the trip that I could not walk for 3 weeks! I NEVER sprain anything!

 

So - after 3 years and another surprise baby (a boy we named Reuben which means "Behold! A son!"), God released me into ministry.  I was very excited to see what He had in store for me and several things appeared at once but the ones not for me quickly fell through. (I think God is really good at closing doors!)

 

Long story short - after it all fell out, I am assistant to our Children's Ministry Director. And I like that.

 

However, what I am running into is other small things people are asking me to do which would be no big deal really, but I already committed to this.  Now I am wondering if I should be doing anything outside.  We try to do all things with excellence, and for me that means even a seemingly small thing (like a table for a ministry fair) can turn into a largeish thing in terms of time and energy.  When I am brainstorming the ministry table, I am not brainstorming schedules, school, needs of the children, etc.

 

Even that would be ok, I think, but with hubby's life in such a state of flux right now with being unemployed and waiting on God with no clear direction other than "not that" - it seems there is too much on me.  I am not used to having him home all day. It used to be I was very available to him for several hours each evening (in addition to a phone call or two during the day) and that was sooo doable since I had all day and all night to do other things.  Now it seems he wants that kind of attention 24/7, and there isn't enough of me to do that.  There is no sense making a big deal out of it right now because this is not the schedule we will ultimately have when God finally ok's whatever it is we are supposed to be doing. It is just challenging right now.  I just feel like I never have down time and someone is always wanting me and feeling left out or alone. Whew! That can wear really quick!

 

This too shall pass.  But it was really most telling that Dr. Dobson's letter was on that very subject.

 

"In closing, let me emphasize one more time that the trouble we are having with our children is linked directly to routine panic and the increasing isolation and detachment from you, their parents. Furthermore, boys typically suffer more from these conditions than do girls. Why? Because boys are more likely to get off-course when they are not guided and supervised carefully. They are inherently more volatile and less stable emotionally. They founder in chaotic, unsupervised and undisciplined circumstances. Boys are like automobiles that need a driver at the steering wheel every moment of the journey, gently turning a half inch here and a quarter-inch there. They will need this guidance for at least 16 or 18 years, or even longer. When left to their own devices, they tend to drift toward the center divider or into the ditch, toward misbehavior or danger. Yet 59 percent of today's kids come home to an empty house. It is an invitation to mischief or disaster for rambunctious males, and the older they get, the more opportunities they have to get into trouble. Today, when the culture is in a tug-of-war with families for control of our children, we can't afford to be casual about their care and training.

Your task as a mother, in conjunction with your husband, is to build a man out of the raw materials available in this delightful little boy, stone upon stone upon stone. Never assume for a moment that you can "do your own thing" without serious consequences for him and his sister. I believe this task must be your highest priority for a period of time. It will not always be required of you. Before you know it, that child at your feet will become a young man who will pack his bags and take his first halting steps into the adult world. Then it will be your turn. By all expectations, you should have decades of health and vigor left to invest in whatever God calls you to do. But for now, there is a higher calling. I feel obligated to tell you this, whether my words are popular or not. Raising children who have been loaned to us for a brief moment outranks every other responsibility."

 

We have 5 boys.


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Feb. 26, 2006
words

Posted in ramblings

“Take all the words available in the human vocabulary and read them from the dictionary, and you have only a list of words. But with the creativity and imagination God has given human beings, let these words flow together in the right order and they give wings to the spirit. Every child ought to know the pleasure of words so well chosen that they awaken sensibility, great emotions, and understanding of truth. This is the magic of words—a touch of the supernatural, communication which ministers to the spirit, a gift of God.”

 

Gladys Hunt

Honey for a Child’s Heart

 


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Feb. 26, 2006
journalling

Posted in writing

Journaling??? Do It Today!

 

Another great article over at The Writer's Nook!  Do you journal? Should you?

 

I do most of my journalling on the computer anymore.  In my life I keep losing my journals! I don't lose much on my computer - I can't say never, but seldom. Far more seldom than my print ones!!


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Feb. 26, 2006
found those questions!

I found the Focus * magazine, and here are the searing questions I referred to in "update".

 

Self-Assessment:  As you evaluate your relationships and teach your children how to relate to others in a healthy, godly way, ask these questions:

     Are you friendly, a good listener, trustworthy, truthful, a giver, an optimist, and affirming of others?

      Are you amiable, forgiving, gentle, reliable, unselfish, flexible, sensitive, sympathetic, gentle, uncritical, considerate, others centered, open-minded, observant, diligent, and humble?

     Are you someone who encourages, speaks kind words, serves others, controls your anger, admits when you're wrong, keeps your promises, and submits to authority?

     If you struggle with any of these traits, ask the Lord to help you grow in that area so your relationships can show God's nature and unselfish love.

 

- Adapted from The 12 Essentials of Godly Success by Tommy Nelson.

 

Read the full article these questions came from.

 

*You can read Focus On the Family magazine online - just click here!

You can also sign up to receive a FREE print edition by clicking the link at the top of the page.


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Feb. 26, 2006
been hopping

Posted in writing

I went surfing on Leann's friends and found a great Q&A at The Writer's Nook!  Lots of helpful articles also!


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Feb. 25, 2006
silver

Posted in health and wellness

silver actually works!

It continues to amaze me that dr's put it in babies' eyes at birth and it is also in burn cream - but yet they continue to claim it has no properties to heal and should not be used.

wassup wid dat??

 

which brings me to another point -

I've decided I like blogs waaay more than egroups!

Cuz it is MY blog - and you can read it or not, but noone will tell me to stop posting about any subject. LOL - I like that.


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Feb. 25, 2006
lost

Posted in whinings

I think I lost an entry??  about the tv and my new desk?  I previewed it and then it disappeared. Still learning i guess.  If I don't see it tonite, I will try to redo it.  Need to keep a copy in word until I get it all figured out!

 

Ok so, next day and i think i've figured it out.

To add an entry, you click "add entry".

sheesh!


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Feb. 25, 2006
friends

Posted in ramblings

I need more friends!!  Leann is down there all alone by herself!!  Any other large families??  Any other life junkies? Ragpickers??


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Feb. 25, 2006
asking

Posted in question

what are pings and trackbacks???

can i change the font i post in?


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Feb. 25, 2006
update

This is a very choppy entry as most of it is pulled from a letter to my friend – but it does update you as to what is going on in my life:

 

we just spent 16 days together on vacation in Destin, Fla.  I took many books, a new journal, and a brand new set of my favorite pens.

 


I never read one paragraph.

 

 


I was SO busy!!!  Doing what??? I DON’T KNOW!!! Just keeping up with the kids and the house. Really!  We had a pool there, so they swam everyday which meant a lot of wet things to wash. (Rules state no laying things out to dry – use washer n dryer.)


I have come from it really pondering if I even should be doing more than I did on vacation.  The time and energy has to come from somewhere and I fear it is from my house.  The time I am usu on computer here I spent in the hot tub there, although I also feel I do need to spend less time on the computer but I feel that will work out. I already mostly am only on it working and hardly any chatting or emailing.  Not at all like I used to with groups.
But I am really pondering my doing outside the home.  If I was full time (and I mean FULL time) busy there, then how DO I do outside things here?  Well – that place was almost always CLEAN!  This one gets that way and then gets undone before the next room is done.
I have a lot of “piles”. Lots of books I’ll “get to one day” and I am realizing if I never cracked ONE book in 16 days of NOTHING – literally NOTHING – to do, then what on EARTH makes me think I will get them read HERE at any time in the reasonable future.  And then I ponder – should I?? 
Just a lot of pondering going on. It was very eye opening for me.
Hubby had a wonderful time – he got LOTS of reading and journaling done which is tremendous for him as he NEVER has time to do that.  Our life right now is very interesting with him unemployed and all that God is doing and moving in our lives.  This time was a very special time for him to spend in quiet with God, reading the word, he actually READ 1.5 books – a record for him!!!  He is not absolutely worn out from working, so he has time to be with God in quiet – extended time.  Time pacing and in prayer, etc.  Just so wonderful!  I told him that what I was doing made it possible for him to do what he was doing – and I am totally ok with that.  It was right. I DID have fun, I just could NOT believe how BUSY I was!! From the time Roo woke up until I fell asleep at night – 2am-4am – I was just BUSY! I watched ONE full movie the entire 16 days.  I also caught most of the Learning Channel special with the Duggars.  14+ children! I still cannot decide if it was inspiring or depressing! If I feel encouraged or like a failure!  I think that program added to my current pondering state.

 

We did a HUGE purge about 3 ys ago.  I got about 20 plastic bins and everything I had not used in 6 mos went in the bins.  The clutter is back just as bad AND I had to get in the bins twice to find things. God blessed and I did find what I needed.  But I have waaay too many piles right now and I hardly ever use anything in most of them – so it really could be put away.  I ponder why I even have all this stuff! If I never use it I mean.  AND if you have it but cannot find it when you need it, then do you really have it??? KWIM??  I feel some changes will be coming soon. Not sure if I am dreading them or looking forward to them or both. I think both!

 

Being available to people provides a semi-organized chaos, but the kids learn so much!!  It has been an adjustment for me – this chaos.  Which we had little to none of on vacation – and I liked that, the absence BUT we did not accomplish a single thing either.  Oh, I mean we did vacation things like bonding, laughing, and even some serving as the gparents were with us but no projects, met no new people (except the waitress at waffle house who loves our whole family!), you know – nothing to matter or last.  We just vacationed. 
So I’ve been pondering that too – people are messy.  When you get involved with people, they mess up your life.  They are complicated, demanding, and beautiful!  I know I could never live a life apart, I need to be in the nitty gritty of life – the messy pit part where people need the Lord.  But somehow I have to do that and everything else too – and I guess that brings me full circle to acknowledge once again how very very much I need God cuz I can NEVER do this on my own. There simply is not enough of me.


I feel I really NEED to look and see where I feel God would want me serving.  And serve to my strengths and things I enjoy.  Not do what someone else asks me to.  It is all proving not easy for me.  I really want my house a bit more in order. Maybe not as in order as the vacation house (which was looking a little ragged the 2nd week due to piles!) but more in order than this!  I mean, I do get this in order, but it gets out SO easily.  There must be an answer to that. One answer is paper towels, another is color coded cups!  Sheesh!  Another is meals together where prep and cleanup is provided for and a group effort.
I like the puter cuz it is manageable. Becuz when I leave and come back – usu I can find my things.  Becuz I feel productive on here. BUT – I think I need to spend more time on my home.  I got the boys room done before we left which means every room except John’s and the girls has been deep cleaned this year.  Now I must maintain them.  Whew! No easy task around here!  I swear I can walk from one end of the house to the other and voila – the room I just cleaned looks like it never was.

I find that extremely frustrating and I guess that is where I crave outside work – cuz it stays done!  I worked at the church 3 days before vacation and got SO much done!! I could not believe all I got accomplished in just a few days or hours even!  And at home – honestly, no kidding here – it can take me four hours just to get one bathroom trash can emptied.  WHAT IS IT with boys and overflowing trash cans?????????  They will continue to put stuff on it until it is 2 feet above the top of the trash can. And when you say “(name)” they give you this blank stare like they have NO idea why you are upset!  WHAT IS IT????  I say, “______, the bathroom is not clean.”  In he goes, out he comes, in I go – still the trash can overflows – but it is moved into a corner and piled higher since he put what was on the floor up on top.  AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

 

Something in my friend’s blog set me to pondering too. It was an opportunity to write for an e-zine (no pay, but hey – exposure!) and it made me think IF I am going to do anything outside of my house and family, shouldn’t it be something I really love and get excited to do?? And the #1 thing I love is thinking, writing, sharing.  The things I do now I do cuz I am asked, but they seem like a burden sometimes.  Writing never feels like a burden.  So – if I am going to do something. . . shouldn’t it be something that fills me rather than taking away?
I don’t know – we are at SUCH a crossroads right now! The lady I was helping at church – children’s ministry director – is no longer on staff and got a job elsewhere.  Meaning she has less time to work in children’s ministry and is even thinking of not being director anymore. I really do not want to be director. I feel it is too too much at this time in my life.  There is currently no nursery coordinator – a position I was asked to fill but declined – so I am doing all of that part for her. But it is a burden and is dragging me down.  I need something that lifts me up to have more to give – not something that drains me.  So. . . wish I could get a job as a professional blogger!! Ha ha ha – but really, corporations are now hiring bloggers to blog as it is a more intimate way to communicate with the customers.

I guess what I really feel I would like to do right now in my life is go back through my old writings and inspirational things I’ve saved.  I want to do a special encouragement book for John for his graduation. I want my house cleaner. I want to be able to find things when I want them. I want the pics on my computer on a cd.  I want to not have to worry about a computer crash becuz all my important things are on a cd safely tucked away. I want to scrapbook. I want to sew.  I want to finish the cross stitch I started for my MIL.  (I think I took that to Destin too but never even got it out!)  I need to make some decisions!

 

Living simply is anything but!!  It seems so elusive and so difficult!!  It is sposed to be s-i-m-p-l-e!  ANY TIPS APPRECIATED. . . if you also have 8 kids.  LOL!

 

Do you think this almost two year old has anything to do with this???  I swear mine needs a caretaker!  He has to be followed – literally – every single minute. He gets the strangest ideas! He got STUCK in a cupboard in the vacation house!! It was a very narrow one between the stove and the fridge and he got in and was holding a sippy cup and could NOT get out! I got pics on my phone – if I ever figure out how to download them to somewhere/something, I will post the pic of him stuck. He was like “cheese Mom, now could you get me OUT!” LOL – too hilarious!  He never went in that cupboard again, but switched to the one under the sink where he could take all the trash bags out of the box!  He is everywhere, into everything, exploring – looking – ciphering – etc.  Loves plugs and push buttons.  TOO MUCH!!  Climber extraordinaire!  When I DO find something he will do for 10 minutes – it gets lost or “snitched”.  Zee likes to check out Roo’s favorite toy, but the only way to do that w/o him screeching is to take it quickly into another room. Well, then it is lost.  I paid $7 for an Elmo lift  the flap book for him for Christmas (I NEVER   pay that much for books! I buy them all the time, but NEVER pay full price! I just thought that one was worth it – it is. He loves it!) I SO wanted it on the ride to Destin (9+hours) as it is a quiet sitting activity he will do for a lengthy period, but could NOT find it! Grrrrrr!!!
 Life has never been THIS crazy since the twins were little!  Where do my days go? Am I really accomplishing anything????  Man!

 

We really need a home based business too.  WHEN I would ever fit it in I do not know, but we really do need one.  God has really laid it on our hearts – tho I believe it might be more along the lines of a ministry the way things are looking.  It is waay more fun to WATCH someone live fully dependent on God than it is to do it!  Nerve wracking at times to do it. Then there are times of such sweet peace that it is all worth it and I could not imagine any other way.  I just keep flopping!  Growing, growing, so much growing to go. . .


I have found it takes a fair amount of concentration to do many things I love. Concentration right now for me means sleeping! Really!  Roo is such a getter into, even WITH a watcher! That I have to so aware all the time. The first time my 16yo watched him on vacation he drew on the tv with a blue crayon. PTL it was washable. Of course then I had to get her to wash it while someone else watched roo!  The 2nd time she watched him, he pulled a nightstand over on his head resulting in a nasty bump and noone knows how he did not break the lamp or the bulb.  She was in the same room with him and he did these things!! You have to LITERALLY keep your eye on the kid ALL the time! I try to tell myself “this too shall pass” and that there will be time to read books, journal, etc.  But it seems there ought to be a bit of time now???  I might need to reread MARGIN.


This was my devotional for today:

 

February 24

The Delight of Sacrifice



I will very gladly spend and be spent for your souls . . .
—2 Corinthians 12:15

 

When someone thinks that to develop a holy life

he must always be alone with God,

he is no longer of any use to others.

 

Paul said that he knew how to be a "doormat" without resenting it,

because the motivation of his life was devotion to Jesus.

 

 

It really spoke to me cuz I feel like I’m just being selfish.

Then I went to the little girl’s room and read the Focus On The Family Magazine and it had an article on selfishness with some oh so searing questions!  I brought it to the puter to post them on here, but someone else was at MY computer. LOL – so I had to go work and now it is 12 pm and I am back on my computer, but of course I have no idea where the book is.

Anyway – Zee was really mouthy today because she wanted to go to her friend’s house and it ordinarily would have made me furious how awful she was being, but all I could think is that is how I must sound to God with all my whining and wanting.  Oy!

 

I pondered on that all day and realized I had no quiet time even tho I was on vacation. The only time I was alone – and even then I often had someone with me – was in the hot tub at 2 am.  I really did enjoy the vacation, but I think I got a bit burnt out cuz I wasn’t getting filled.  I really enjoyed driving down the road that ran by the beach. It was so calming to me but I spent a lot of time feeling guilty cuz I could never seem to make everyone happy. This one wanted this, that one wanted that, and hubby wanted me upstairs with him.  I felt pulled a lot. 

 

Been feeling that a lot lately. Hubby is home due to unemployment and God just really has us in a holding pattern. It is a HUGE adjustment on my part!!!!!  I swear I sound JUST like Zee!  “Waaaah”  “Whine”  STOMP! 


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