Here I sit at 12:43 am - not because I am a night owl - actually, just the opposite.  I sit here because I cannot sleep.  D.J. is going to leave for college in less than 36 hours and I can hardly stand to think about it.  I thought I was fine with this whole thing, but I have now decided that I don't want him to grow up.  Too bad it doesn't work that way.  Life goes on - whether I want it to or not.

I am not worried about him not doing well or getting into trouble.  My reasons are purely selfish.  I will miss him terribly and our lives will be forever changed.  This is the first step he is taking into adulthood and there is no turning back.  And while I am so proud of the man he is becoming, I miss the little boy he used to be.  I want time to stand still and for all of my kids to be home with us.  I know it is all part of life, but that doesn't mean I have to like it.  :o(

Posted by Leni

It must be so tough. I try not to think about it!!!!

Posted by 8kidlets

How is everything goning on your end?





Wendy