Apr. 10, 2009
Almost there
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I cannot believe it, pinch me am I dreaming... Yes it is true we are FINALLY almost finished with the adoption process! The judge terminated both father's rights and then a couple of days later we filled out all the adoption paperwork ( kinda like buying a house!), we got to fill out the info for new birth certificates and guess what! The new birth certificates will have Jon and I listed as parents! I just assumed we would get old birth certificates and adoption certificates, how cool is that? Our Attorney says that it should take about 30 days or so to be final then we will officially have 3 new precious children, Alyvia Joy, Daniel James and Elaina Mischa Milagro ( spanish for miracle). Alyvia is so excited but in her 6 yr old mind it still seems so far away. Daniel and Elaina are also excited but at 3 and 4 do not exactly understand what adopted means ( despite my best attempts to explain), It took me a couple of weeks to realize it was really happening, I still sometimes think in the back of my mind that what if they change their minds, what if judge does not approve us.... Endless worries that only serve to distract me. Then God gently reminds me that he brought us here for these kids, a perfect match. God told us we would have a daughter named Alyvia, God told us to come to Wyoming ( where I said I would never live! haha), God gave me a dream of 3 beautiful brown haired tiny children, then He told us to do foster care for the purpose of adoption. When we called DFS to "sign up" they told us " We do not usually have adoptions, the majority of our kids go back to birth families", but we knew what God had told us and followed anyway. All the physical and natural signs said not a possibility, but God knew otherwise and we trusted and obeyed. I am so thankful we did. It was a huge scary step, but when I first saw Elaina I knew this one was mine. 15 kids later ( and I loved them all) the only 3 that I ever knew were mine are finally going to be mine. Yes I did love them all and no it was not hard to let them go. They were never mine, I just had the priviledge of caring for them for a short time. Now that chapter of our life is coming to an end, it is bittersweet. I look back at all the faces and all the memories and all the life stories. I see how blessed we have been and how we have been used to bless. In James it tells us to take care of the widows and orphans, while these kids were not literally orphans that is essentially what we did. I hope and pray that in the future we get to help more orphans. I suspect that we are not yet through, but it will be in a different capacity. I am in some ways excited about this chapter closing and in some ways sad. But I know that God has good things in store and he will lead us in the path that he has for us. So on to the next chapter. Wherever it leads, whatever happens I know God is always in control. I hope that this next one will be just as fulfilling and rewarding. |
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