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Ok, I have been invited to enter in a song writing contest, I don't know how great I'll do, since I just started writing songs not that long ago. (usualy I just write poetry). Sooooo.... Here goes: AWAKE Staring at the wall, Wondering why I bother Getting out of bed. Whats the purpose, Yeah, whats the- use. Asking myself a dozen questions, That I don't have an answer for. Maybe I'm just going insane. Bridge: Living for myself, yeah, Living for today, I'm not living at all, A walking zombie, Walking dead. Somebody pinch me, 'Cuz I don't think I'm quite, Awake. Can't seem to shake myself Of this comatose I'm in, I try to scream and Nothing happens. I think that I'm sleepwalking, yeah, Where's my alarm clock when I need it? Then again, Maybe I'm just going Insane. Living for myself Yeah, living for today. I'm not living at all, A walking zombie, Walking dead. Somebody pinch me, 'Cuz I don't think I'm quite Awake. I need someone to shake me out, Of this reverie I'm stuck inside. My eyes are blank, Can't think a thought To save my life. Yeah, I'm trapped inside an empty room, And all I can thnk about is- me. But maybe I'm just going insane. Living for myself, Yeah, living for today. I'm not living at all, A walking zombie, Walking dead. Somebody pinch me, 'cuz I don't think I'm quite Awake. Can't seem to escape from myself, Yeah, I think I need Your help, Only You can pull me out Of this pit I'm in, yeah. It's so dark, I need your light, Don't leave me, Don't leave me, yeah. I wanna live for you, Yeah, living for eternity, I finaly feel alive. I'm walking full of life. Don't bother pinching me, 'Cuz I'm already Awake.
That's all I've got, I just wrote it one day when I was feeling frustrated with myself and my own humanity. I hope you judges like it! |
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Whats up everyone? This is the magazine cover I made at that one sight, www.bighugelabs.com , it was really fun, but a word to the wise, dont put anything in line 11-17 or else you won't be able to see anything else on your cover!
It's dorky, I know, but I was in a dorky stae of mind. Actually I think the dorky state of mind thing is perpetual!! Scary thought, AAAHHHH Just for those who are, at most, as slow as I am, no, that notice from my dad is NOT serious, it was a complete hoax made up in one of his goofy moments. I am trying to learn how to make the pictures on our computer smaller, so that I can post a few here on my blog. Today I got some priceless ones of mom and dad throwing ice at eachother from their lemonade glasses. My personal favorite is the one with mom poking her head around the corner with this evil look of utter delight as she taunts dad, aahh, precious!! I'll try to get it on here! |
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My dad wrote this down after he kicked me off the computer for a couple of minute, so I told him I was going to post it! He told me to go for it! so, here I quote my dad: Hey, sorry to interrupt. This is Tori's father. I have a loaded shotgun awaiting the first guy who is either brave enough or stupid enough to think he can begin any sort of dialogue with my daughter over the internet. I am a very good aim and have escaped all my prior encounters with the law concerning the "accidental: shooting of young men. Thanks, and have a great day. Any guys who have left comments, beware!!!!!! |
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I was fooling around on the computer with my mom, and we each made a magazine cover on this really cool website: www.bighugelabs.com/flikr/ , everyone should check it out. It is kind of dorky, but I was in a dorky mood. tried to put it on my blog, but I don't know how. Any body reading any good books lately I love a good book. I read every chance, I don't like to do something meaningless, or something that is not mentally challenging, because I can't stand doing something that does not require me to think! Am I just wierd, or is this normal? I am saving up for a guitar, anyone a guitar junkie like me? Can anyone give me a suggestion on a good beginner's guitar I could buy?
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You know, in my last entry, I was'nt trying to bash people who pay attention to their feelings, thats not anything bad at all! I guess the way I interpret "follow your heart" is "go with whatever feels good", and to me, that is totaly against God. So, that is what I meant. I got a lot of comments on that blog, and I agree with you guys, absaloutly! Sorry if I came on a bit strong, was'nt trying to offend anyone! |
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I was reading an article in the TOS magazine and it was about following your heart, and the lie in that. You know if you translated that into plain old english, it would be something like, follow your feelings.. yikes! I don't know about you, but if I followed my feelings, it would be a scary mess! Or this is even better, Follow your flesh, we could translate it that way. And your flesh is everything that is against God and doing the right thing. So follow everything in you that is against anything and everthing good and right. Wow, that sounds alot different than snow white sighing dreamily and telling you to follow your heart, for in that way is the true way to happiness, oh please, someone pass me a bucket!!! Just something to think about. |
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Last night my mom and I were watching a TLC show about a family of 13 kids, and one daughter had to be asked to leave because she had completely turned away from what her parents had taught hert growing up, everything they had ever told her not to do, she had started to do. So I was thinking about this, and I could'nt help but wonder, these kids are very sheltered, if you shelter your kid from all the bad things of this world, and never talk about them, and then they find out about all this stuff from their friends, will that make them more suceptible to all this stuff? You know, will they want to try all this stuff out that they were always sheltered from, will they be curious about everthing they were never allowed to do when they get out of the house? I asked my mom about this, and she told me that usualy it was'nt the being sheltered from this stuff tha made them want to try it, but rebellion in their heart. Well that made sense, but did that have to be the rule for everyone? My gears were still turning, and you know how teens are, they want to think that they know everything and believe that they are always right, so I did'nt accept mom's ideas right away, I was still thinking about it Today mom called me over and gave me the latest TOS magazine to read. She wanted me to read an article by Ken Ham on sheltering your kids, so I did, it was loooong, but I read it. It was very interesting and it convinced me. He backed up everything he said with scripture. He talked about everything from sheltering your kids from public school to the friends they have, and he also covered the age old complaint about your kids getting no socialization and never being able to socialize when they grow up, He talked about being the salt of the earth, and how your kids can't be the salt of the earth if they are being corrupted because you do'nt want to shelter your kids and "cripple" them. All in all, I am won over, and I think you guys should read some of Ken Ham's stuff, he's a cool guy! |
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why put your trust In imperfect people? Who just crush you Again and again. Why waste your affection On people who throw it away? They say they'll change, And they do, But only for a day or two. You waste your tears And trust On people who throw it away. You say "just one more time, I'll give them one more chance". And you break your heart Again and again On people who throw it away. Sometimes its not a crime, To just give up. To withdraw your hope Trust and affection. To just give up, On people who throw it away.
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I am such an idiot! Today I decided to take a quick spin on my horse, bareback cuz I did'nt feel like saddling her up, out in our pasture. Big Mistake1 I 'm sitting here nursing my bruises, aches, scrapes, and a twisted ankle to boot. Plus I broke my glasses, their fixable, but until I can take them in, I'm as blind as a bat. GGGRRR, today is definitely NOT my day. It started out pretty fun, just jogging around, then our two young horses started running aroun, and Fancy decided to run too, well, I'll give that jug head one thing, she is fast enough to make your eyes water! Then she started to run with her head down, and I 'm like oh no! she's trying to buck! She hopped a few times, but I managed to drag her head back up. Then I saw that she was heading for our hill, Big uh-oh. For those of you who have never been to our house, our hill is very steep. Well, she started bucking again, and I was starting to think about bailing out, but then I looked down at the rocky ground whizzing underneath me I almost threw up, bleh. So there I was clinging desperately to a bucking horse racing up a very steep hill, and I tried one last time to stop her, because she was heading for a dangerous, narrow part of our property, going mock 10. I closed my eyes and jumped, landed hard, and did a somersault. My back was all scraped up, I had dirt down my jeans, my ankle felt like it was broken, My head had hitten a rock really hard, I was dazed, my glasses had flown off somewhere, man, I dont think I'll do that again, jump off, ride bareback out in our pasture, any of it. I'm thinking about entering my poetry in a beginners poetry contest. I've been studying really hard about the mechanics of poetry, so I have been writing alot, here is another poem: Twist Me A Crown Of Wildflowers Twist me a crown of wildflowers, My friend, my dear, my playmate, Never mind the spring showers, Let's explore, our curiosity we'll slate. Twist me a crown of wildflowers, And we'll fly away together, Over hill and hillock, or inside our secret bowers, We'll be friend's forever. Twist me a crown of wildflowers, And I'll twist one for you, Never mind everyone's glowers, theres nothing we can't do! Twist me a crown of wildflowers, In innocence we pledge Forever to be together, to play for hours, Our mansion is the hedge. Twist me a crown of wildflowers, And we'll each be a royal queen In our castle, with turrets and towers, We'll be the royalist ever seen! Twist me a crown of wildflowers, And when we're old and gray, together we'll sip our tea, We won't be cranky and sour, Friends forever we'll be. Twist me a crown of wildflowers, And lay it on my grave, Sprinkle it with your tears in showers, Forever the memories we'll save. T. J. Weller. dedicated to my adopted sisters, Patience and Hope. Oh yeah, I almost forgot, we adopted another girl, from a disrupted adoption, she is ten years old and as cute as pie! We have had her for about 3 weeks now! You can probably read more about it on my mom's blog! |
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Rarely are they seen With wings so thin and fair, Clad in leaves so green, Spun moonlight for their hair. They swim in musty bogs, Their homes in hoary oak, With toads for their watchdogs, But they just sit and croak. If any is a tomnoddy, To tramp across their den, They'll find their captive body, Inside the fair folks glen, Nobody could hope the catch them, they're much to clever for that, But if you hap'n upon the little men They'll trick you, without an eyelash bat! But if your exceptionaly clever, You can get granted a wish, But beware trust them never, Instead of riches, a fish! They're tricksy and they're liars, And if you ever spite them, They'll stuff your pillow with briars! Beware the little men. They have a fairy queen, With hair of raven black But she is cross and mean, And loves a fairy head to crack! That is my tale of little men, Who live in hoary oak, Inside their fairy glen, With toads who sit and croak. T. J. Weller 1/30/07 |
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Have you seen knives, Cut through someones flesh? Have you seen the blood flow, The life go out of someone's eyes? Are actions louder than words? Have you seen someones hopes. Dreams, plans, and goals. Torn right out of their palm? The life go out of someones eyes? Are actions louder than words? Have you seen words, Fly out of a mouth? Have you seen cruel words, Crush a person's life? Are actions louder than words? Have you seen insults, Jabs, barbs, and names, Steal a person's joy Or even their entire life? Are actions louder than words? T.J. Weller 1/18/07 |
Those are all the sounds that the lovely rental car we have been laoned makes, or I shoud say, made! When we got into our first class rental this morning to go to church, we breathed in the lovely aroma of..... cigarette smoke? And old shoes??? With maybe a dash of .... hhhhmmm was that a rotting smell? Perhaps there was a corpse underneath one of the seats. would'nt have surprised us, still we did'nt risk a peek! The front window was crusted over with ice, and the windshield wipers did'nt work! My brother happened to hold up a pair of wipers that moment just moving junk to sit down. I grabbed one and headed outside to manually wipe the windows. By the time I was done my fingers were wet and cold! my fingers pulled loose of the door handle without tearing any skin off, surprisingly! Mom started 'er up and we started with a jerk, which smashed Ben's (my 7 YO bro) head against the back, which was metal. Well, surprisingly we made it to chuch alive, and we enjoyed it very much, (the service, not the ride there! ) When the service was over, we went out to our luxurious vehicle and prepared to do some grocery shopping neccesary, because we are expecting company, (one of our most favorite families ever, the McCartys!) and the truck would'nt start. Thank God above that we happened to have good friend to help us out! We reluctantly, (yeah right!) left the monstrosity there, and it is still there right now! As we left I gave my mom these encouraging words: Do'nt worry mom, nobody would ever want to steal that! |
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The following is a letter from my sister Hope, whom we are are adopting from Liberia. (we changed Patience's name) Dearest sister Tori: I greet you in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ. I really love you and miss you. I hope , I pray that God may bless me to see you. I wish some days I read to you to see us. (?) I playing me and my cousin are all excited for you. I miss you, you are pretty, my family has a beautiful daughter. I wish to spend the next christmas with you! I love you sister, and I hope you are great, love you Patience. |
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Today I got to talk to my sister
Patience, we are adopting her from Liberia, Africa. She is so adorable,
and I already love her!!! Her favorite color is orange, and she
is so excited to have a family. I am so excited to finally have a
sister!!! Patience is 14, and so tiny!!! About 4 ' 1'' !!! She is going
to share a room with me, and I do no think she is so happy about the
pink and green walls I told her about!!!
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Which Movie Star Are You? > > > > Ever wonder which movie star you are most like? Don't read ahead > >please! > > > > Well, a team of researchers got together and analyzed the > > personalities of movie stars. The gathered info has been incorporated > > into this quiz. > > > > There's only 10 questions so it doesn't take long. Number your paper > > from 1 to 10, then Answer each question with the choice that most > > describes you at this point in your life, and then add up the points > > that correspond with your answers. Send this to all of your female > > friends (including person who sent it to you) with your star's name > in the subject line. And don't ruin the fun by not responding! > > > > > > Don't look ahead or you will ruin the fun! > > > > 1. Which describes your perfect date? > > a) Candlelight dinner for two > > b) Amusement Park > > c) Roller blading in the park > > d) Rock Concert > > e) Have dinner & see a movie > > f) Dinner at home with a loved one > > > > 2. What is your favorite type of music? > > a) Rock and Roll > > b) Alternative > > c) Soft Rock > > d) Classical > > e) Christian > > f) Jazz > > > > 3. What is your favorite type of movie? > > a) Comedy > > b) Horror > > c) Musical > > d) Romance > > e) Documentary > > f) Mystery > > > > 4. Which of the following jobs would you choose if you were given > >only these choices? > > a) Waiter/Waitress > > b) Sports Player > > c) Teacher > > d) Policeman > > e)Bartender > > f) Business person > > > > 5. Which would you rather do if you had an hour to waste? > > a) Work out > > b) Make out > > c) Watch TV > > d) Listen to the radio > > e) Sleep > > f) Read > > > > 6. Of the following colors, which do you like best? > > a) Yellow > > b) White > > c) Sky blue > > d) Teal > > e) Gold > > f) Red > > > > 7. Which one of the following would you like to eat right now? > > a) Ice cream > > b) Pizza > > c) Sushi > > d) Pasta > > e) Salad > > f) Lobster Tail > > > > 8. Which is your favorite holiday? > > a) Halloween > > b) Christmas > > c) New Year's > > d) Valentine's Day > > e) Thanksgiving > > f) Fourth of July > > > > 9. If you could go to any of the following places, which would it be? > > a) Reno > > b) Spain > > c) Las Vegas > > d) Hawaii > > e) Hollywood > > f) British Columbia > > > > 10. Of the following, who would you rather spend time with? > > a) Someone who is smart > > b) Someone with good looks > > c) Someone who is a party animal > > d) Someone who has fun all the time > > e) Someone who is very emotional > > f) Someone who is fun to be with > > > > Now total up your points on each question: > > > > 1. a-4 b-2 c-5 d-1 e-3 f-6 > > 2. a-2 b-1 c-4 d-5 e-3 f-6 > > 3. a-2 b-1 c-3 d-4 e-5 f-6 > > 4. a-4 b-5 c-3 d-2 e-1 f-6 > > 5. a-5 b-4 c-2 d-1 e-3 f-6 > > 6. a-1 b-5 c-3 d-2 e-4 f-6 > > 7. a-3 b-2 c-1 d-4 e-5 f-6 > > 8. a-1 b-3 c-2 d-4 e-5 f-6 > > 9. a-4 b-5 c-1 d-4 e-3 f-6 > > 10. a-5 b-2 c-1 d-3 e-4 f-6 > > > > NOW, take your total and find out which Movie Star you are: > > (10-17 points) You are MADONNA: > >You are wild and crazy and you know it. You know how to have fun, but you >>may take it to extremes. You know what you are doing though, and are much >>in control of your own life. People don't always see things your way, but that >>doesn't mean that you should do away with your beliefs. Try to remember >>that your wild spirit can lead to hurting yourself and others. > > > > 18-26 points) You are DORIS DAY: > You are fun, friendly, and popular! You are a real crowd > pleaser. You have probably been out on the town your share of times, yet > you come home with the values that your mother taught you. Marriage and > children are very important to you, but only after you have fun. Don't let the >people you please influence you to stray. > > > > (27-34 points) You are DEBBIE REYNOLDS: > You are cute, and everyone loves you. You are a best friend > that no one takes the chance of losing. You never hurt feelings and > seldom have your own feelings hurt. Life is a breeze. You are witty, > and calm most of the time. Just keep clear of back stabbers, and you are >worry-free. > > > > 35-42 points) You are GRACE KELLY: > > You are a lover. Romance, flowers, and wine are all you need to > > enjoy yourself. You are serious about all commitments and are a >> family person. You call your Mom every Sunday, and never forget a > >Birthday. Don't let your passion for romance get confused with the real >>thing. > > > > 43-50 points) You are KATHERINE HEPBURN: > You are smart, a real thinker. Every situation is approached > with a plan. You are very healthy in mind and body. You don't take > crap from anyone. You have only a couple of individuals that you consider > "real friends". You teach strong family values. Keep your feet > planted in them, but don't overlook a bad situation when it does happen. > > > > (51-60 points) You are ELIZABETH TAYLOR: > Everyone is in awe of you. You know what you want and how to > get it. You have more friends than you know what to do with. Your word > is your bond. Everyone knows when you say something it is money in the >bank. You attract the opposite sex. Your intelligence overwhelms most. > Your memory is the next thing to photographic. Everyone admires you > because you are so considerate and lovable. You know how to enjoy life > and treat people right. |
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Phil. 4:13 This will give you chills.... No matter how religious you may or may not be, this can give you chills. Phil. 4:13 states: "I can do all things through Christ which strengthen me." Here's the story: A young man who had been raised as an atheist was training to be an Olympic diver. The only religious influence in his life came from his outspoken Christian friend. The young diver never really paid much attention to his friend's sermons, but he heard them often. One night the diver went to the indoor pool at the college he attended. The lights were all off, but as the pool had big skylights and the moon was bright, there was plenty of light to practice by. The young man climbed up to the highest diving board and as he turned his back to the pool on the edge of the board and extended his arms out, he saw his shadow on the wall. The shadow of his body, was in the shape of a cross. The man felt a strange feeling, like someone was speaking to him. Instead of diving, he knelt down and finally asked God to come into his life. As the young man stood, a maintenance man walked in and turned the lights on. The pool had been drained for repairs. Remember this story and send it to a friend. Pass this to ten people -- and the person who sent it to you !!!!!!!!!!! ANGELS EXIST, but they all don't have wings, those angels are called FRIENDS, SUCH ! AS YO U. |
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$20.00 Sometimes we just need to be reminded! A well-known speaker started off his seminar by holding up a $20.00 bill. In the room of 200, he asked, "Who would like this $20 bill?" Hands started going up. He said, "I am going to give this $20 to one of you but first, let me do this. He proceeded to crumple up the $20 dollar bill. He then asked, "Who still wants it?" Still the hands were up in the air. Well, he replied, "What if I do this?" And he dropped it on the ground and started to grind it into the floor with his shoe. He picked it up, now crumpled and dirty. "Now, who still wants it?" Still the hands went into the air. My friends, we have all learned a very valuable lesson. No matter what I did to the money, you still wanted it because it did not decrease in value. It was still worth $20. Many times in our lives, we are dropped, crumpled, and ground into the dirt by the decisions we make and the circumstances that come our way. We feel as though we are worthless.! But no matter what has happened or what will happen, you will never lose your value. Dirty or clean, crumpled or finely creased, you are still priceless to those who DO LOVE you. The worth of our lives comes not in what we do or who we know, but by WHO WE ARE. You are special- Don't EVER forget it." If you do not pass this on, you may never know the lives it touches, the hurting hearts it speaks to, or the hope that it can bring. Count your blessings, not your problems. And remember: amateurs built the ark professionals built the Titanic. If God brings you to it - He will bring you through it. |
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---- Some people never seem motivated to participate, but are just inclined to watch while others do the work. They are called "Speck Taters". They're related to people that never do anything to help, but are gifted at finding fault with the way others do the work. They are called "Common Taters". Some people are very bossy and like to tell others what to do, but don't want to soil their own hands. They are called "Dic Taters". Some people are always looking to cause problems by asking others to agree with them. It is too hot or too cold, too sour or too sweet. They are called "Ajji Taters". There are those who say they will help, but somehow just never get around to actually doing the promised help. They are called "Hezzie Taters". Some people can put up a front and pretend to be someone they are not. They are called "Immie Taters". Then, THANK GOD, there are those who love others and do what they say they will. They are always prepared to stop whatever they are doing and lend a helping hand. They bring real sunshine into the lives of others. They are called "Sweet Po Taters". |
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> > > Slow Dance > > > > > > This poem was written by a terminally ill young girl > in aNew York > Hospital . > > > > SLOW > DANCE > > > Have you ever watched kids > > On a merry-go-round? > > Or listened to the rain > > Slapping on the ground? > > Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight? > > Or gazed at the sun into the fading night? > > You better slow down. > > Don't dance so fast. > > Time is short. > > The music won't last. > > > Do you run through each day > > On the fly? > > When you ask How are you? > > Do you hear the reply? > > When the day is done > > Do you lie in your bed > > With the next hundred chores > > Running through your head? > > You'd better slow down > > Don't dance so fast. > > Time is short. > > The music won't last. > > > Ever told your child, > > We'll do it tomorrow? > > And in your haste, > > Not see his sorrow? > > Ever lost touch, > > Let a good friendship die > > Cause you never had time > > To call and say,"Hi" > > You'd better slow down. > > Don't dance so fast. > > Time is short. > > The music won't last. > > When you run so fast to get somewhere > > You miss half the fun of getting there. > > When you worry and hurry through your day, > > It is like an unopened gift.... > > Thrown away. > > Life is not a race. > > Do take it slower > > Hear the music > > Before the song is over. > |
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WENT TO A PARTY, MOM (read all the way to the bottom and sign your name) I went to a party, And remembered what you said. You told me not to drink, Mom, so I had a sprite instead. I felt proud of myself, The way you said I would, that I didn't drink and drive, though some friends said I should. I made a healthy choice, And your advice to me was right. The party finally ended, and the kids drove out of sight. I got into my car, Sure to get home in one piece. I never knew what was coming, Mom, something I expected least. Now I'm lying on the pavement, And I hear the policeman say, the kid that caused this wreck was drunk, Mom, his voice seems far away. My own blood's all around me, As I try hard not to cry. I can hear the paramedic say, this girl is going to die. I'm sure the guy had no idea, While he was flying high. Because he chose to drink and drive, now I would have to die. So why do people do it, Mom Knowing that it ruins lives? And now the pain is cutting me, like a hundred stabbing knives. Tell sister not to be afraid, Mom Tell daddy to be brave. And when I go to heaven, put " Mommy's Girl" on my grave. Someone should have taught him, That it's wrong to drink and drive. Maybe if his parents had, I'd still be alive. My breath is getting shorter, Mom I'm getting really scared. These are my final moments, and I'm so unprepared. I wish that you could hold me Mom, As I lie here and die. I wish that I could say, "I love you, Mom!" So I love you and good-bye. |