The Conflict of Two Natures

 14For we know that the Law is spiritual, but I am of flesh, sold into bondage to sin.

 15For what I am doing, I do not understand; for I am not practicing what I would like to do, but I am doing the very thing I hate.

 16But if I do the very thing I do not want to do, I agree with the Law, confessing that the Law is good.

 17So now, no longer am I the one doing it, but sin which dwells in me.

 18For I know that nothing good dwells in me, that is, in my flesh; for the willing is present in me, but the doing of the good is not.

 19For the good that I want, I do not do, but I practice the very evil that I do not want.

 20But if I am doing the very thing I do not want, I am no longer the one doing it, but sin which dwells in me.

 21I find then the principle that evil is present in me, the one who wants to do good.

 22For I joyfully concur with the law of God in the inner man,

 23but I see a different law in the members of my body, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin which is in my members.

 24Wretched man that I am! Who will set me free from the body of this death?

 25Thanks be to God through Jesus Christ our Lord! So then, on the one hand I myself with my mind am serving the law of God, but on the other, with my flesh the law of sin.

I hate Mother's Day! I really do! How can I sit in a place of esteem and celebration when I am such a wretched sinner and mom. As everyone said HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY to me my heart was sad and my soul cried out for them to STOP!

Then Chirst in HIS love had preordained for me to read this chapter this morning in my devotion! Oh how my heart rejoiced! Paul, a bond servant of Chirst, felt just like me. Bless this man for writing down the Words of God so I could read them this morning and be released form my self hatred!

When I read the words, I am doing the very thing I hate, I paused and wept in my heart, knowing full well this was me!

I yell, when gentle words should come, I glare, when I should smile and re direct the sweet child, I say, Leave me alone for ONE min., when I should gather them up in my arms and cuddle them,  I sit and dawldle when I know I should be diligently working to get things in order. The list could go on believe me!!! OH believe me!

For the willing is present in me, but the doing of the good is not, Father God! You know this of me! I am in awe that you still love me and want me to be your child (I read that this morning too!) You adopted me! You accept me! YOU DIED FOR ME and are preparing a place for me.........EVEN though I sure don't deserve it!

I am willing Lord, but my flesh is so weak! Strengthen me UP! Stand me on the solid rock! May I hold up my head PROUD that I am your child, BUT so humble that I am not worthy on my own and need your covering! Thank you for setting me FREE! Thanks be to God through Jesus Christ our LORD!

Lord, You are AWESOME! You know I needed these words this morning! You gave the next chapter in Romans 8 as a gift, like a bandaid to the soul! I am resting in YOU and in YOUR love! Thanks for adopting me....eventhough I am a repeat offender! I love you!