I seem to have a reoccuring theme here.

The theme being a lack of joy, a spirit of laziness, attitude of frustration and a sprinkle of discontent.

    I sometimes wonder when I will learn. I wonder if I will EVER learn. I don't like failure. I don't like being a LOSER in the areas that really seem so basic.

    JOY has been better! I have seen a marked improvement in this area. I have been able to FORCE out smiles when I would rather just nod and acknowledge a child who is interupting me. This is a BONUS!!! I am pleased about this as are my little blessings.

   Laziness. What a nasty word. I hate to think of myslef as lazy. I guess you could say it is a poor character trait. I don't think I am a SLOPPY lazy, but more of a PROCRASTINATER lazy. I prefer to do things in MY time and not the PROPER time. This I must pray on more.

   Frustration. This comes because I PROCRASTINATE! I would not be frustrated if I would do things in a TIMELY manner and FINSH the job well. I get frustrated because I don't do what I need to do at the time I should do it and when I FINALLY decide to do it I have to hurry because I am BEHIND schedule and then I only do the job half. THUS leaving me FRUSTRATED! (How frustrating is that!!!!)

    Discontent. This is just a smidge. I am FINALLY getting a handle on this. I am learning to put aside worldly wants and think about needs. Needs of the day and not wants of the month.. I am very content being a wife, mom, and friend. Getting to this point has been a long journey.

1 Timothy 6:7-9 

    7For we have brought nothing into the world, so we cannot take anything out of it either.

 8If we have food and covering, with these we shall be content.

 9But those who want to get rich fall into temptation and a snare and many foolish and harmful desires which plunge men into ruin and destruction.

Lord, may I continue to work on my weak areas and give glory to you in my weaknesses.  Teach me how to teach my children your ways. My I not be lax in this but do this faithfully!

Thanks for loving me Lord. Thanks for not giving up on me, but gently refining me and growing me into your daughter!

I am seeking You Father. Show me the way.