I am coming around to the idea that I really do have physical limitations, and that despite my stupid brain's refusal to acknowledge them, they DO exist and they do interfere with my ability to homeschool my kids the way I want to. 

I would much rather stick my head in the sand and hum a happy tune.

But the reality is that I have something which we think is rheumatoid arthritis, and the associated joint pain, stiffness, and fatigue is quite a deterrent some days. We still have the big kids in 5-point restraints because they are much safer than seatbelt boosters, and I find myself longing for the day they no longer fit in them and we are forced to use a booster.  Then I wouldn't have any guilt and my hands will be much happier with only one kid to buckle in. And out.  And in.  And out. 

The fatigue is tough, but the stiffness slows me down and makes pretty much everything harder to do, and longer.

So I sit here trying to figure out how to merge my health and comfort with the needs of 3 children.  On top of all this I am trying to find the time and ability to manage my youngest's 3 Early Intervention therapies a week, my DD's upcoming weekly OT appt and possible PT appt, and the sensory and OT therapy my oldest DS needs (we haven't even had him evaluated yet though).  That's maybe 7 therapies in one week, plus dance. 

Yikes.  Better put my thinking cap on.  Or hire an Operations Manager.