It never fails ... as soon as I am done selling or giving away every last bit of maternity clothing and baby clothing and baby gear I own, I find out I am pregnant!  This is the 3rd time this has happened. You'd think I would learn and just keep everything locked away in storage or something! LOL! But I just don't see the point in keeping things I don't *think* I'll need again, when other people can use them in the meantime.

Well this is a bad time for *us* to be getting ready for a new baby, but it's the perfect time for God. I am viewing this pregnancy as a time when God can show His sovereignity (sp?), His grace and mercy, and His provision. I'm totally counting on Him for everything. My pastor touched on something Sunday at church, about always trying to "help" God and I have to admit I am guilty of that. Not that I think God needs my help, but it's more like a works-based idea of grace, like what can *I* do to make sure this turns out okay? It's hard for me to just sit back and do nothing, letting God do everything. I guess I have the false doctrine of "God helps those who help themselves" stamped firmly onto my soul.

Jer 17:5 (NIV) This is what the LORD says: "Cursed is the one who trusts in man, who depends on flesh for his strength and whose heart turns away from the LORD."

Prov 28:26 (NIV) He who trusts in himself is a fool...

We're all still in a state of disbelief. With a 15yo, I feel way too old to have another baby, though I know there are women who have babies even after their first grandchildren are born. Littlebit asked if we were going to "buy it at the store". Sweetcheeks and Taz both looked immediately at my abdomen expecting it to be huge all of a sudden. Taz is already trying to come up with boy names and bedroom arrangements.

Physically, I feel great. I feel better than I've felt in the past 3 years. It's like whatever happened to me over the past three years to make me so sluggish and constantly fatigued has been reversed.

And I'm guessing the due date would be in March sometime.