The children are watching a home movie we made in Germany. I can not belive the chaos that goes on around me :0) OK I can believe it! I am like a British Barney.. an all singing, all juggling moving momma. The chidlren are 6, 4, 2 and 1 we make birdseed apple treats for the brids, go to a zoo, make paper bag puppets and go through the alphabet one activity at a time. I miss those simple days of total exhaustion, where every day is an adventure and circus act.

I am so glad I have the video because it reminds me of the fun times. My brain appears to have blanked most of the childrens childhood, I am too busy in the moment of now.. managing the rest of their childhood.

The toothless grins, the sticky faces, the digging in the dirt, the simple crafts and complicated explanations. I miss those moments of togetherness. Somewhere over the years I went fom being in the middle to orchastrating from the outside, conducting rather than being in the band... YET hearing my children remember those times and talk of their days now, it would appear they haven't noticed.. maybe..just maybe I could sneak back in, take up my part and keep on playing.

So along with my summer challenge to myself.. to speak more postiviely to my children I am going to add, have a circus moment regularly, play in the dirt, get in the mele, laugh more and not forget the camera! After all I will need something to remind me of these fun days in a few years :0)

Wendy