Animal girl - My Finished Phase Autobiography

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October 22, 2008

My Finished Phase Autobiography

Romans 12:1-2 I beseech you therefore, brethren, by the mercies of God, that you present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable to God, which is your reasonable service. And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God.

I just finished my phase Autobiography. It is titled, "The Right Love". Here it is:

The Right Love

    As I was looking through my personal diary, to look back in my life, I ran across this date: March 30, 2008. Shocked at what I was reading, I almost burst into tears.
    You see, I had just figured out, from reading what I had written in my diary five months before, that I had now had a crush on my pastor, Joel Kirtley, for almost five months now. I had been trying for a few weeks to get rid of this crush. Never did I realize, though, that I had this crush for so long. Joel was married and had five children, so I had to get rid of this crush.
    Nothing seemed to be working. I talked to my Mom, and to one of my youth leaders, Heather. Heather had said that I should give it to God, and start reading his word, the Bible, more often. So I prayed about it, asking God to take this crush away from me, and I started reading the Bible daily. Finally, the crush was gone. Yet, I still felt that I needed to talk to Joel about it.
    All too soon, it was Sunday. My heart wanted to explode out of my chest as I walked over to the sanctuary to talk to Joel. Feeling like making excuses not to talk to him about it, I was convinced my stomach was doing summersaults, my heart was an execution drum, and there was a lump in my throat. I was scared, because even though my crush on Joel was gone, I still had a feeling that I should ask him for forgiveness. Terrified, I was worried that he would be enraged at me.
    Joel saw me and said, “You look like you feel absolutely horrible.” Nodding my head, I knew I had to do this, but I also knew it would be very hard. Would he be angry? Would we be friends anymore? Those were the questions, racing through my head, making me feel like running away.
    “You were talking about forgiveness in your sermon today,” I said as I sat down next to Joel, trembling. “That made me realize I need to ask you for forgiveness. Now, I don’t have this anymore, because I prayed to God and He helped me get rid of it, but I had…” All of a sudden, the words would not come out of my mouth. It felt like they were stuck in my throat. This conversation was so much harder than I thought it would be!
    “Let me guess,” said Joel. “You had a crush on me.” At that, I cringed, and wanted to disappear. I was thinking how horrible having a crush on him was, because he was married and had children. Thinking he was going to be furious with me, I felt like getting up and running away.
    What he said next amazed and relieved me. “It’s okay,” he said. “Actually, I’m flattered! I am also proud of you for being brave enough to ask me for forgiveness. Most people probably wouldn’t be able to have done that.”
    Wow, I thought. He is not mad at me! I walked away from that discussion feeling much better than I had before.
    The next Sunday, as I watched and listened to Joel teaching, it felt so good not to have a crush on him anymore. I learned two things from my crush on Joel. It is so much better to have the right kind of love for each person, and it feels so good to be forgiven. It is a good thing I was looking in my journal, so I would grasp that it had been that long and that I needed to get rid of my crush. From now on, I will try my hardest not to let something nonsensical like a crush get between Joel and me again.

So, what did you think of my autobiography? What did you like about it? What did you dislike about it? What is something I should be careful of in my next piece of writing?

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