--------I can accept God’s forgiveness because of …
 HIS  forgiveness.
 It’s from HIM-
The One Who Gives Every Perfect Gift-
and each of His gifts is perfect.
 God is not human and does not make mistakes or play favorites-
although I know He would tell me that I am His favorite and mean it….…
just like He would tell YOU that you are His favorite and mean it  just the same.
 He loved us more than His Son and gave us a promise that Jesus never had-
 the promise that He would never leave us or forsake us.

There is no partial or defective or one-time forgiveness.
He doesn’t give out any lemons, so there is no need
for me to try and make lemonade with what He gives.
 It’s complete, no matter what I do.
 It is already paid for in advance, and not grudgingly, but for the JOY set before Him.
 I was His joy when I could care less about what He wanted and I am still His joy now and forever. His greatest wish was to keep me close for eternity, and He would give WHATEVER  just to get me there. Every requirement is already met, and there Is no fine print.
It cannot be taxed away or given to the runner-up- because THERE  IS  NONE…

I can accept it because He believes in me. He knew every path I would walk and every tear and every sin and every  ugly thought and I can accept His forgiveness because there is no plan B.

He made plan A looking right at the absolute most wicked, horrifying truth
 and He must have seen something beyond ecstasy
 that made Him decide from the creation of the world that He would do it this way.

And I want to be there to find out what it was that made HIM  go THAT FAR . 
I don’t want to be the one  freaking out because I never thought I’d make it.
I just want to jump in and enjoy it with Him right away.