I realized recently that in a time when you are emotionally about to die, you must embrace the most necessary actions of life. Such as breathing, sleeping, and eating... staying warm is good, too... I'm living in my body, and its helping me NOT die inside...

...

I also realized something else. Age is in one's years. Knowledge is in one's mind. Maturity is in one's body. And wisdom is in one's heart. And the fact is, they do NOT always have anything to do with each other. Your age doesn't always effect your wisdom, knowledge, and maturity. So to any dopes who tell me I'm stupid, imature, or naive because I'm younger than them... y'all just need to get a life.

 ...

And last, I realized... I have THE BEST friends in the world. Anyone who can even remotely even consider that they might even have the slightest chance of being reffered to by me as a friend (even people I've never met in person here on HSB) then y'all had better consider yourselves the most amazingly awesome people ever. I'm blessed to have met you and am eternally grateful.

I loves ya all!

~Elle

Days like today are what make me question goodness and happiness and all that stuff.. I wonder what the point is and why I should bother with trying so hard when in the end I just end up in pieces. It hurts to let myself out, and its hurts to let others in. And time after time, I get to this same point and feel this same way thinking the same thing... I've been here sooooo many times! Maybe this is the time to learn. Maybe I should just give up on this whole thing and put up the walls that kept me safe a long time ago. Because this is too much. It is like... this is just the worst ever... I had it coming I guess... But I think I've fallen so hard and so far this time... I am going to have a very hard time getting up again. Not even sure I want to cuz once I'm up I'll just be in position to fall again... Its all my fault, too. It could have been different. I should have known. I DID know... There was just some hope in the back of my mind. Some hope this time I could actually believe people meant what they said and said what they meant. Some hope I would be wrong. Yes, I should have known better. And now I'm broken and have no clue how or why I should put myself back together. After so many empty words, cold and flat... So many promises... and lies... so much pretending... And just when I thought there was a chance... Serves me right...

Well, here I am in Oklahoma City, in a hotel room, all by myself (please don't come kiddnap me) and I'm waiting for my group to be ready to go to St. Elijah so we can start a nice fun long day of awesomeness (hopefully) and be really cool. 

I guess I'm weird because I thought we were supposed to meet in the hotel breakfast room at 7:00 am and I got down there and it was empty... that was at 7:30 am... okayyyyyyyy ... so I wait. I just got a coffee and apple and I'm making that and some m&m's  my yummiful breakfast! Hey, I am NOT a morning person.

Anyways, today should be pretty good. My hair is all dry up here. The weather is much different here than in Texas.  But its nice, no humidity. Just got lots and lots of lip balm and hand lotion. *sip of coffee*

Well, as many of you know, I don't play Basketball... at all... EVER!!! Plus I sprained my wrist ice skating recently sooooo... I'll just watch. I don't really know who to cheer on. Mostly because I don't know the teams. But I'll clap for everyone then and its gonna be fun!

Sorry, if this sounds like its not really going anywhere, but I'm supposed to meet up with people and head to the church in half an hour so I'm just killing time until then.

Hey, you know what I hate? Its when people say "till" as in "until" and not " 'til". It bugs me muchly. Its like "I have to wait till this happens to do this". I wanna say, "Dude, are you like a farmer, cuz you're tilling and stuff?". Ack! Anyways, yeah, that was kinda random. But I wrote 'until' in the above paragraph so it just reminded me.

*sips more coffee*

*feels like a zombie*

*falling asleep*

*smacks face to stay awake*

*realizes face is now very red and flushed*

*goes to try and cool face to get rid of the blush*

*no luck*

. . .

Ok, well, I'ma go cuz this is going to be scary if I don't, so....

Later Gaters! 

~

Elle

OK OK OK!!!

I'm posting, see? Gosh...

Juuuuuuust kidding! I mean, not about the posting part, just about the mean 'gosh' part... I really am posting... obviously...

ANYWAYS!

First off, I would like to thank Alteriel for good ideas in the comments on my last (ancient) post. Though I must inform her, that I actually... am... a blonde...  But its okay, because blonde moments are funny and truely worth posting about. And I torture my puppy ALL the time when I play the clarinet. He howls... poor poor puppy... As for snakes in the toilet... (ahem)... cannot say I have ever seen that... and I am thankful!  

But BORING stuff!!! That I have got much of!!!

Well first of all, I painted my figernails with an insanely crazy patern. It was fun.

 I also ate a carrot (I have to give Andrew a link to this blog just for that, ha ha), and my carrot was yummy, and carrotously satisfactory! I really enjoyed my carrot.  

I also have decided to burn my make-up. For two reasons. One) it is horrifically annoying and tedious . Two) it would make pretty colors if I lit it up, don't you think? I think it would. OH NO!!! I just got a really good idea! I could burn my nail polish!!!  Yes, that would be fun I think... or hairspray... or WINDEX!

Moving on!

Michael Buble!!! Enough said!

Been getting ready for the OKC Basketball Tournament for SOYO. That's been crazy, too.

Been avoiding Facebook because it's frustrating me lately. Been stuck on skype...  

And seriously, I come here to my blog VERY frequently, I just can't ever think of thinks to post. So I move on to other things. I've been writing a scripish thing for this filmish thing that I'm not too sure what is, and I'm not too sure what I'm doing and its been confusing...

My cat looks puffy right now... just gotta throw that out there. 

Oh, and Robert Pattinson is very ugly, and Han Solo dominates Edward Cullen... and Edmund owns them all!!! 

My back hurts and I'm tired. I got up early. But I was late anyways. I was supposed to meet my aunt at 6:00 AM but my alarm didn't go off. I woke up just in time to think, "I need to be doing something right now. What is it?". Then my phone rang and it was my aunt and I freaked out...  

Yup...

See, this is why I don't post. Its too scary!    HA HA

Oh well...

I better stop though, because I don't want to get blocked for spamming myself. No, it wouldn't be the first time...

'Kay, see Y'all!

Much love!!!

~Elle

Today is gonna be a good day! 

But that's beside the point!

The point is...

I have no clue what to post about!   

Ideas?

Please! I'm drawing a blank! 

Wanna see it?

ok!

_______________

Isn't it pathetic...  

Come on, PLEASE, I need INPUT!

(Ack! Right now the're a tincy wincy wittle buggy buzzin' by my ear!... just thought you should know)

Okay! Thanks, Guys!!!

All I can say for now is...

My posts have seen better days. . . 

*sigh*

I'll post something cooler soon. And LONG!

Faith, People, faith! I can do this!

. . .

I just have nothing interesting in my life to post about.    

I'll think of something!

LOVE YOU GUYS    (who are still here) Stay with me! PLEASE 

Ha ha! 

~Elle

Like WOW!

wow wow wow wow wow wow wow wow wow

WOW...

wooooooooooooooooooooooooooow

People need to read "Do Hard things"

That book is like,

WOW!

Guys, seriously, this book is total gold and its gonna REALLY gonna change the world if enough people read it...

...

WOWWWW!

Read it! and visit this link

http://www.therebelution.com/

Cuz if you do you're just gonna be like...

WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Cuz its just so,

WOW!

...

wow

I am NOT normal...

I know that...

But maybe that isn't a bad thing...

Maybe its just a fact...

I do NOT fit in...

But it doesn't mean that I am wrong...

I stand OUT, but I am NOT broken...

And though I know I have many, I refuse to believe I AM a problem...

I know I'm not perfect, but thats why I'm me...

I may not be beautiful, but I'm just right...

I will DO what I should, but I will not deny what I think...

and most importantly,

I will use my head, but I will ALWAYS listen to my heart...

I am strong, 

I am brave,

I am whole,

I love and hate...

I laugh and cry...

I wish and hope...

I fail and try,

again, and again, and again...

I am ME!

Why is life so complicated. I wish I knew what was going on... But I never do...

I just wish I knew what I wanted.

Okay I have one request to make.

Just tell me what you think a out me.

I can take anything but not knowing the truth.

if you think I'm a loser then say so, if you think I'm awesome don't be afraid to say...

I mean really.

What do you like about me, what can't you stand?

I just wanna know what people think....

A broken heart will ache with every beat,

and at times you want to just admit defeat...

But though those throbs bring pain, and make you strive,

You should thank them, cuz they mean you're still alive...

I like to say, that you can tell a country's condition by the condition of its public flags.

Would you agree?

Well, America needs to get a life then. I look at the flags all over the place and it near kills me to see that they're all tattered and shreaded and full of holes and just flat out pathetically kept and mantained.

It's a really sad sight!

Come on, People!

That's our flag! It represents out pride!

Good gracious, its not right to be flyin' it in ribbons...

Look, if you're keepin' a flag make sure you understand it is NOT just a decoration... Its the symbol of who and what we are as a country... as a people...

AS AMERICA!!!

God Bless this Land!

I soooooooooo love raw milk!  

I refuse to drink anything else, People... REFUSE! 

Its just so nasty, all that white goo they sell as milk these days.

I want the REAL deal. Not tainted, butchered, or robbed!!!  MUST have raw milk or its just gross. 

I'm starting a REAL boycot for NON-raw milk. All or nothing people!

Who's with me?

Has anyone seen the new movie "17 Again"?

That movie is soooooooooo awesome! 

While I must admit it lacks the "G rated" quality of Zac Efron's more popular films, it portrays and presents VERY good points about highschool. 

I love it and have seen it 7 times now.

If you haven't seen it you really should!

I LOVE it! 

A good fun movie...

Hey!

I just got back from my Aunt's house in the country. They only get dial up out there , so I have been avoiding the internet for a while! NOT YOU GUYS!  Just the internet...

So, yes! I will try to start keeping up more on my blog...  

Its just a cryin' shame the way I've been neglecting it lately. Poor thing deserves better. I've just been kinda busy with other stuff.

Its no excuse!  I'll be here more from now on.

Especially now that I'm home with FAST internet.

So, good-bye, for now! But not for long I hope.

 You guys!

~Elle

Nobody comments on my posts.

No mater what I do! 

WHY?!?

PLEASE! Comment, PLEASE! 

It... hurts... to be so... sooo... 

unpopular... 

I'm so mad right now!

My cbox blocked me for spamming myself!

I can't get back on for a week.

What's up with that. Its crazy. I go and try to write something but it's like

"sorry, you have been banned for superfluous use of this user's cbox account"

What the heck is up with that?

Whatever, just a few more days I guess.

I think I might just get a new account, cuz thats rediculous!

I don't know yet...

I'll just wait for now I guess. But if it happens again, I'm gonna have to make some changes!

I'm starting a scheme here!

*everyone runs and hides in bomb-proof basements*

NO NO! Its safe!... I think... *scratches her head* 

Yeah, I'm pretty sure it won't blow up the world anytime soon.

But here it is...

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Don't you guys just KNOW you're awesome? Isn't it just so obvious? Good! Cuz I've got a plan to make things so that we awesome people can not only be together, but we'll gather to form an alliance and be known as the Awesomnians. Sound good?

'Kay, so everyone who thinks they're awesome needs to move with me to Colorado. We'll burrow into the mountain and make Pike's Peak our HQ . We'll need to vote on a president but we'll get to that in the future.

But first, I'm going to invite everyone on my friends list , along with a few choice fellows on the outside, and all of you will invite whoever you think is awesome who hasn't already been invited.

Okay, lets do it! Meet Y'all at the bottome of Pike's Peak. Or in Garden of the God's... Wherever. Bring a wistle that can be our form of comunication...   or a cell phone if you have it.

And I'm off to pack!

Elle

So here's the thing about my life... its crazy!  

I got grounded from the laptop and now I'm not grounded and... wow! Isn't it fun? 

Anyways, I can post now because I'm not grounded anymore. Yay! 

So I got back from camp (which was sooo awesome) and I was going to post about it, but it was a month ago so I think it'd just be awkward, right? So I won't. 

BUT, yeah...

I'll find a more interesting subject to post on after church tomorrow. But for now you'll have to deal with my rambling, 'kay. 

My birthday (ahem, my sixteenth birthday) was about a month ago, and I didn't get a cake. So I got a cake tonight and was so excited because it said '8' on the lable, so I was thinking 8 layers, right? That would be so yummy. But... it meant 8 inches. It was only one layer... saaaad...  

I'm watching "The Angel and the Badman"... yup... fun... 

You know this is boring isn't it. I just don't feel like posting right now. But I feel like I should.   

Oh-well, this is going to have to work because if I go on much longer I'll just be spamming my own blog. And I don't want to do that.  

Soooo... later I guess... 

Elle

It has been way tooo long since I posted. I've just had a bit of stuff to do lately. I'll put something up soon. I just don't want to post something stupid ... you know?

But for now, I just want to give a special thanks to Zel Dreamwalker Girl Template Tester . She is working hard to make my new template. I don't like the one I have because it doesn't really fit my theme. Peaches just don't shine the right light on my "wishing on stars" thing. BUT, she has been making me a template that does. I am SOOO excited. I can't wait. Thanks a big bunch, Zel .

She's also been helping me with My Film View. Thats my new blog . Its for reviews and statements about acters and movies and television shows and stuff like that. Anything that has to do with films and acting. PLEASE check it out. As I said, I'm still working on the template to get some cool new features up. And I can definitely use your opinions and suggestions.

Thanks Y'all

I'll try and be a better blogger as soon as this current craziness here at home gets done.

~Elle