Happy Thanksgiving!

I am so thankful today for everything! Absolutely everything!

Hope you ALL have a wonderful day!

Thank God for all my life.

:)

~Elle

Days like today are what make me question goodness and happiness and all that stuff.. I wonder what the point is and why I should bother with trying so hard when in the end I just end up in pieces. It hurts to let myself out, and its hurts to let others in. And time after time, I get to this same point and feel this same way thinking the same thing... I've been here sooooo many times! Maybe this is the time to learn. Maybe I should just give up on this whole thing and put up the walls that kept me safe a long time ago. Because this is too much. It is like... this is just the worst ever... I had it coming I guess... But I think I've fallen so hard and so far this time... I am going to have a very hard time getting up again. Not even sure I want to cuz once I'm up I'll just be in position to fall again... Its all my fault, too. It could have been different. I should have known. I DID know... There was just some hope in the back of my mind. Some hope this time I could actually believe people meant what they said and said what they meant. Some hope I would be wrong. Yes, I should have known better. And now I'm broken and have no clue how or why I should put myself back together. After so many empty words, cold and flat... So many promises... and lies... so much pretending... And just when I thought there was a chance... Serves me right...

Well, here I am in Oklahoma City, in a hotel room, all by myself (please don't come kiddnap me) and I'm waiting for my group to be ready to go to St. Elijah so we can start a nice fun long day of awesomeness (hopefully) and be really cool. 

I guess I'm weird because I thought we were supposed to meet in the hotel breakfast room at 7:00 am and I got down there and it was empty... that was at 7:30 am... okayyyyyyyy ... so I wait. I just got a coffee and apple and I'm making that and some m&m's  my yummiful breakfast! Hey, I am NOT a morning person.

Anyways, today should be pretty good. My hair is all dry up here. The weather is much different here than in Texas.  But its nice, no humidity. Just got lots and lots of lip balm and hand lotion. *sip of coffee*

Well, as many of you know, I don't play Basketball... at all... EVER!!! Plus I sprained my wrist ice skating recently sooooo... I'll just watch. I don't really know who to cheer on. Mostly because I don't know the teams. But I'll clap for everyone then and its gonna be fun!

Sorry, if this sounds like its not really going anywhere, but I'm supposed to meet up with people and head to the church in half an hour so I'm just killing time until then.

Hey, you know what I hate? Its when people say "till" as in "until" and not " 'til". It bugs me muchly. Its like "I have to wait till this happens to do this". I wanna say, "Dude, are you like a farmer, cuz you're tilling and stuff?". Ack! Anyways, yeah, that was kinda random. But I wrote 'until' in the above paragraph so it just reminded me.

*sips more coffee*

*feels like a zombie*

*falling asleep*

*smacks face to stay awake*

*realizes face is now very red and flushed*

*goes to try and cool face to get rid of the blush*

*no luck*

. . .

Ok, well, I'ma go cuz this is going to be scary if I don't, so....

Later Gaters! 

~

Elle

OK OK OK!!!

I'm posting, see? Gosh...

Juuuuuuust kidding! I mean, not about the posting part, just about the mean 'gosh' part... I really am posting... obviously...

ANYWAYS!

First off, I would like to thank Alteriel for good ideas in the comments on my last (ancient) post. Though I must inform her, that I actually... am... a blonde...  But its okay, because blonde moments are funny and truely worth posting about. And I torture my puppy ALL the time when I play the clarinet. He howls... poor poor puppy... As for snakes in the toilet... (ahem)... cannot say I have ever seen that... and I am thankful!  

But BORING stuff!!! That I have got much of!!!

Well first of all, I painted my figernails with an insanely crazy patern. It was fun.

 I also ate a carrot (I have to give Andrew a link to this blog just for that, ha ha), and my carrot was yummy, and carrotously satisfactory! I really enjoyed my carrot.  

I also have decided to burn my make-up. For two reasons. One) it is horrifically annoying and tedious . Two) it would make pretty colors if I lit it up, don't you think? I think it would. OH NO!!! I just got a really good idea! I could burn my nail polish!!!  Yes, that would be fun I think... or hairspray... or WINDEX!

Moving on!

Michael Buble!!! Enough said!

Been getting ready for the OKC Basketball Tournament for SOYO. That's been crazy, too.

Been avoiding Facebook because it's frustrating me lately. Been stuck on skype...  

And seriously, I come here to my blog VERY frequently, I just can't ever think of thinks to post. So I move on to other things. I've been writing a scripish thing for this filmish thing that I'm not too sure what is, and I'm not too sure what I'm doing and its been confusing...

My cat looks puffy right now... just gotta throw that out there. 

Oh, and Robert Pattinson is very ugly, and Han Solo dominates Edward Cullen... and Edmund owns them all!!! 

My back hurts and I'm tired. I got up early. But I was late anyways. I was supposed to meet my aunt at 6:00 AM but my alarm didn't go off. I woke up just in time to think, "I need to be doing something right now. What is it?". Then my phone rang and it was my aunt and I freaked out...  

Yup...

See, this is why I don't post. Its too scary!    HA HA

Oh well...

I better stop though, because I don't want to get blocked for spamming myself. No, it wouldn't be the first time...

'Kay, see Y'all!

Much love!!!

~Elle

    Hey, Y'all! 

     I'm back from camp and, yes, I will post pictures as soon as I figure out how to get them from my disposable camera to real life, from real life to the computer, and from the computer to here... Hey, have a little faith in me; I can do it... maybe... I hope... 

    Oh well, camp was soooo awesome  and I am so sad it ended so soon . I wanted to stay another week or maybe a month. It was so cool and it really changed a lot of the ways I look at life and my faith in God. I learned a ton and I have made some REALLY good friends who all unfortunately lived in either Colorado or Oklahoma. I won't see any of them until camp next year, *feels sad*... You know I used to be intensely anti-Facebook because I saw the way people were about it, and how they spent (what I thought was) too much time doing something which (I thought) was wasting time, but... I’ve changed my mind and I really do wish I had one. I would be able to keep up with these great people and we could all interact on a level even though we're really hundreds of miles away from one another. I already miss a lot of them, *feels even sadder*... 

     But to look at the glass half full, instead of half empty, I DID have a good time. Actually to be honest, the first three days were like death. I didn't know ANYbody, and even though I'm REALLY loud and energetic (and probably slightly annoying) when I'm around people I know well, I am REALLY quiet and boring and nervous around people I don't know . So, yeah, the first three days until I started to get to know people were pretty bad and I hated it. But after I started feeling more comfortable I started to really enjoy myself and have a lot of fun.

     It is a really structured camp. Everything has a schedule and is heavily supervised to limit naughtiness . I always hear about some kinds of questionable, ahem, "activities" taking place at camps. But aside from a little water balloon prank  by one cabin AND their counselor, I can't think of anything really awkward happening the whole time. The counselors are everywhere and no one COULD get away with anything weird so... it was pretty cool.

     Anyways, there's is NOTHING that could stop me from going back next summer.

     Ha! it’s funny, I was getting up at like ten and eleven every morning before I left, and I would have to drag myself out of bed even that late, but at camp you have to be at breakfast at eight and if you want a shower you get up early cuz there were only three showers in a cabin of 14 girls... you do the math. Plus we had to do chores in the cabin before we left. Anyways I ended up getting up at six in the morning every day for a week and we never went to bed before twelve midnight, so when I got home last night, I stayed up until one, but I couldn't sleep past eight this morning. It’s kind of funny.

     So... Yeah, that’s it... camp was way too awesome and I hate that it had to end so soon. * is getting sad again* Oh, but don't get me wrong, it IS great to be home again and I missed everyone here a lot, I just wish I could have been at camp a bit longer, you know? Oh-well, I do have a bunch of email addresses and will try and keep in touch with everyone through that.

     I'm sorry if I'm rambling and complaining . It’s probably boring to read so I'm going to stop. I'll probably post happier stuff again soon. Some time when I post the pictures.

     I love you guys!

    ~Elle

 I am very hungry right now, and I want to post something interesting, but I can't get my mind off food.
    So this morning I slept in pretty late and by the time I was up (10:30 AM... hey, I was tired) it was too late to eat breakfast (which was fine for me, I hardly ever eat it anyway) so I decided I would just wait for lunch. Now, for the past half year I have been taking Martial Arts. I have had a class every Tuesday and Thursday at 4:45 PM and a class every Wednesday at 1:00 PM. It takes about a half-hour to get to the academy so we leave 30 minutes early. I'm sure you all know that today is a Wednesday... well, I didn't. So instead of taking my shower, eating an early lunch, and getting in my uniform to go... I stayed on the couch and watched TV. Suddenly, at about 12:30 PM, my mom comes down the stairs and says,
     "Hey, why aren't you in your uniform, we need to leave!"
     ...
     Needless to say, through the scrambling, getting a 2 minute shower, and finally getting dressed and into the car... I did not get my lunch.
     Yeah, you're probably saying, "Oh, get over it I've missed all my meals 'til dinner many times, and I'm still alive."
     Well, let me tell you that I didn't eat like anything yesterday due to a spell of ChronicTummyache-initis, I had a grueling lesson at my Martial Arts class (involving 50 pushups with one hand each, lots of punching, and kneeing exercises [Okay, it may sound easy, but it’s not, just trust me]), and finally I'll just admit it, I'm a wimp.
     Anyways, I'm starving right now, and to top off the complication of the whole situation, I can only eat soup, because of some dental work I had done on Monday. And, of course, we have no soup, so I had to call my mom at the grocery store and ask her to pick some up for me, and now I’m waiting for her to get back.
     This may be the dumbest thing you have ever read , but, like I said, I can't think of anything else to write about but food.

 And right now, I would really like some chocolate.

Elle (The Very Hungry Lady)