Jan. 5, 2009 - A new start....umm...a little delayed.

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Dec. 23, 2008 - A new home....and finding us...

Wow, what an adventure!

   We have moved into a house in Farmington, New Mexico...which is a really nice little community. Now our house is a lot smaller than our home in Texas and I think we may have to be pretty creative organizing everything....but it suits us just fine and I know we will call it "home" one day.

 The children are getting settled and have love the HUGE break from studies....however, I am looking forward to getting back to our schedule and normalcy!!!

 

 My surgeries went great and I have healed nicely and am pretty much back to normal...Praise the Lord! I have to admit I am praying that God would bless us soon... I have the baby bug for sure!

 

We REALLY miss our church, friends and family though.... and I have found myself getting choked up if I walk by a photo or something that reminds me of home.... either Oklahoma or Texas!

 

 When we moved to Texas I thought we would be a mess.... but God provided a sweet church family who we feel like we have known forever... kindred brethren, and things were not that tough at all! As a matter of fact, it didn't take long for it to feel like we always lived there!

Now I have to admit.... when Aaron told me we would be moving to New Mexico... I thought it would be a little exciting... there is always a bit of excitement with a move because you never know what God has in store for you....but it didn't take long for apprehension to set in and doubt and fear....

 

 I didn't want to leave these people!

 

 I was pitiful....and there were days I didn't like Aaron for making me move and I wasn't very kind to him and I repent for being that way.... I was wrong. But you know... my nature was screaming!

 

 I LOVED them!

 

 I still love them and find myself crying when I think about them!!! About the gingerbread houses they will be making tonight and the fellowship I am missing!!! About the hot cocoa they will be drinking and the memories I won't be a part of!!! About the growing their children will do that I will miss....and the songs they will sing without my voice being heard.... my heart yearns for their company and the love I always felt when I was with them!!!

 

 But I knew... yes, I know deep down in my heart that God had other things for us....and I know that is better for our family for things to change, how long would it had lasted if it hadn't?...and I know that it was Aaron's place to decide this for our family...and God put him over me and I need to rest in that spot and find comfort in it.... I knew it then too... denial doesn't change anything....maybe I'll learn that one day! but still, my sin nature creeps it ulgy face out and well...you know!

 

 We have spent more time together in the last month than we did over the last year! We have played board games, gone sledding and went for afternoon rides to the country to look at God's wonderful creation! We have just been with each other...

I missed these things and I had forgotten what was important to us...who we are...

 

 I have always been the wife who sits by the window waiting for her husband's truck to come up the road...with dinner on the table and ready for him to walk in... The children have always loved meeting him at the door to tell about their adventures of the day....

 and all that was lost...

we got to where we didn't miss him as much...we found ourselves ok when he was gone...and when he WAS there it wasn't the same... he was too tired to do anything and we were frustrated at the situation...and taking it out on each other... We couldn't remember US....

 

I am thankful for the friends I made....they will ALWAYS be my friends... and when we are in Glory we will all be together again....but also, I am thankful for our move here and the ability to reconnect with my family and discover who we are again! What a sweet gift...and a perfect one this Holiday season.

 

God is Holy and His way is Perfect....

 

Blessings, Tosha

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Nov. 12, 2008 - A new wave....or shall I call it another mountain?

Wow, it has been a long time since I have written anything on here... there is too much that has gone on since I last logged on....

So first of all.... tomorrow will be Aaron's last day working for the company we moved to Houston with. He resigned his position last Friday.... nothing we had planned, it just happened.

 Aaron's boss has done a lot of really great things for our family. He has gone far beyond what we would expect of him and we have been greatly blessed through him however, in spite of all that , it has been a really tough year for our family and Aaron has missed a lot.... we have missed him too!

When your husband/dad is gone 20 days out of the month, it is difficult to have a normal life. The kids have missed having daddy around....our values and morals have been compromised and that is just something we can't live with...money, nice houses and cars or vacations, do NOT make us happy...we can do without those things and are willing to do whatever it takes to get back to our old way of life!

So as of now, we aren't sure what we are going to do or exactly where we are going to go.... Aaron has spoke with several different companies who are interested in talking to him about a job in an area we have always dreamed of living.... we are just trusting God in all this.

We will be just fine and we are confident that God has already worked this out and knows exactly what He is doing and we are going to trust in, rely on and cling to Him.

Some exciting news.... on Tuesday the 17th of THIS month (November)...I am getting my bloodwork done and pre-registering at the hospital to have my tubal reversal... the funds will be sent in tomorrow and ton he 20th I will have my surgery. I am also getting my gall bladder removed at the same time so I will not have to have two separate surgeries... which I am soooooo glad about!

After MONTHS and MONTHS of looking, I found a surgeron who is on our insurance who happens to work at the same hospital of an OB/GYN who does reversals (which is hard to find even in Houston....unless you are willing to pay $10,000 or more or give money to doctors who also abort babies...which we are AGAINST TOTALLY!) ... so I probably won't be on here for a while.... we will be packing the rest of this week and then after my surgery we are heading to visit family and spend Thanksgiving with them.... then Aaron and I are off the find a house.... So anyway, if I am not on here for a while....that is why!

Blessings, Tosha

 

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Oct. 1, 2008 - The hurricane.... Oh IKE!

Well, we made it through Ike just fine.... we were without power for over two weeks... but it was not as bad as it could have been! God showed great mercy to us!

Actually, the storm was a blessing for us because we were able to spend more time with Aaron those two weeks than the entire time we have lived here in Texas...  We played lots of games and sat on our front porch and sang while Aaron played his guitar... We have missed our time together as a family and so we appreciated it.

We went through a lot of batteries, candles and gasoline (which we had to drive 87 miles to find).... and I think we are all done with sandwiches for a while!

We didn't have any damage to our home and only lost a couple of trees.... the neighbor's tree fell in our front yard and Aaron had to cut it with a hand saw and it took us a couple of days to get it piled up (our neighborhood and most of Houston still has a lot of debris everywhere).... There are still some 40,000 people still without power and they are saying that they should have it by the weekend.... we have heard that one before though, so we are praying they are right this time!

So Aaron is back in LA and things are back to what we now call normal....

Blessings, Tosha

 

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Aug. 23, 2008 - an update on my mother...

Thanks to everyone who prayed, thought about or emailed me concerning my mother...

 When I spoke with my dad this morning, he said it was the scariest thing he has ever been through.... And went on to tell me that she awoke around 4:00 AM and was not feeling good. She felt like she was going to pass out and couldn't stay awake. He called my sister (who is an EMT) and when she got there mom's blood pressure was very low. They tried to get her up and walking but she was throwing up and felt really bad.

This went on for a while and she started to feel better. She told my sister to go home and she would call her doctor when his office opened up at 8:00 AM...

She laid back down to rest and had stopped throwing up. My dad went into the living room to sit a while. He started to get sleepy and thought about just sleeping on the couch so he wouldn't wake my mom.... but decided he would go in and lay by her in case she needed him....

 He woke up to her body convulsing and she was making a gurgling sound.... he grabbed her up and her lips and eyes were blue...she wasn't breathing! She had passed out and threw up and had chocked on it...He hit her on the back a few times and was yelling BREATHE! and she took in a breath and starting coughing.

  He called my other sister to come help, when she got there mom was conscious but slipping in and out... so they got her loaded and took her to the doctor's office (why they didn't call 911 or head to the ER is beyond me!)  So anyway, once they got there her doctor realized that her blood pressure was too low and he couldn't get it stabilized so he sent her to the inpatient ER... then they transferred her to the ICU where they ran test after test.... she already has one kidney that doesn't have much function left in it and the meds she had taken caused the other one to stop working correctly as well.... her heart rate was very low and her blood pressure not over 80/60... they said that if they hadn't brought her in she wouldn't have made it much longer... They hooked her up to IV fluids and started labs.... They found out that she had taken two meds that didn't...or shouldn't be mixed... both prescribed to her....Her blood pressure meds had just been changed to a higher dosage... she took too many doses of each... so not only were they dealing with the interaction. she also overdosed! We are still not sure how this happened.... and I hope we can get some answers about this later.

We did not get a lot of information while she was in the hospital ( I hat HIPPA!)... we only heard that her potassium levels were too high and that all the rest of her levels were WAY off!.... The nurse said that she had a bad first night there and they were concerned about her (they didn't call to let me know this... I would have been on my way there!!! UGH!)

Yesterday she was doing better and things were looking up.

I talked to her around 11:00 today and she was feeling much better.... the meds had worn off and her levels were all better.... the doctor said that if she continued to improve she could go home and then come back to see him in a couple of days....

I just talked to my sister  (5:00 PM) and she was released from the hospital and on their way home... I am sure they will rest better tonight....

Thanks again for all the prayers... I think she still has some recovering to do and it will take her body a while to get back to normal.... but she is on her way.

Blessings, Tosha Tanquary

 

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Aug. 21, 2008 - My mom.

My sister called me this morning and told me that she had been over at
my parent's house all morning since around 4... mom had called her and
said she felt like she was going to pass out and didn't feel right. My
sister is an EMT .... she took her blood pressure and it was 80/60...
anyway, they took her to see her doctor and he is admitting her... I
really don't know much of anything...which is driving me CRAZY! they are
10 hours away.... so I really can't do anything except sit by the
phone.... UGH!

If you would...please Pray for her.... her name is Janie McVay.

I'll update if I hear anything.

Thanks, Tosha

Update.... my mom is in the ICU.... I don't really know anything else right now...I am waiting for my sister to call!

 

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Aug. 20, 2008 - our Hatian son....

We have been sponsors through Compassion International for several years now and today I got this email... I thought I would pass it on, just in case someone else would like to help out too!!!

Our Hatian son will be 19 this October.... he has been a part of our family since he was 8!!  He will not be in the program once he turns 21... and although I am thankful that he has grown into a godly man... I am a little sad too that we will not be a part of his life anymore... I plan to go visit him on his graduation...

Blessings, Tosha

Dear Aaron and Tosha, I have urgent news affecting Jean, your sponsored child in Haiti. A dramatic rise in food prices has created a life-threatening food crisis in the poorest regions of Haiti. Families earning less than $2 a day cannot afford to buy the food they need. They have no margin. Most Compassion-sponsored children and their families have been affected to some degree — and some have been absolutely devastated. We need your help! We are asking each sponsor to please consider sending an emergency gift to our Global Food Crisis Fund. On average, a gift of $39 will help one family for a month (a mother and two children); $78 will help two families. Donate now using our online form. Although not everyone will be able to participate in this critical relief effort, if you are able, please know that your gift will be enormously helpful and appreciated. As resources allow, we will distribute food and other support to the most severely affected children and families first, followed by less affected families, as determined by our program staff. Please pray for our staff as they try to cope with this overwhelming need. God bless you. Sincerely in Him, Dr. Wess Stafford President

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Aug. 10, 2008 - children, blogging away....

Homeschool blogger has become a great tool to get my children interested in writing.... so now, our  three oldest have their own blogs.... stop by and tell them howdy!!!

Makayla

Alisha

Isaac

 Have a great day!!!

Tosha

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Aug. 7, 2008 - my mother!

My sister just called and told me that my mother (Janie), fell down and snapped
her wrist! the bones are sticking through her skin and her tailbone area
hurts.... she is 60 years old and has osterioarthritus and
osterioparosis.... She already had cracked disks in her back so I am
sure this hasn't helped that.... please pray for her!

A update..... my mom has to go tomorrow to an orthopedic surgeon to have pins put in her wrist. She has some issues with her heart...so it is a little scary.

I just have to trust God in all this.... it will all be ok....

Thanks for the prayers!

Tosha

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Jul. 30, 2008 - my back, my legs....my tummy!

Last Thursday, the children and I were at Wal-Mart excitingly going through the school supplies that were on sale. We found 70 page notebooks for $.05 each! So oh my!!! I couldn't help myself! We loaded up two boxes and I lifted them into my cart..

...all of a sudden I got that all too familiar twinge feeling in my lower back and could hardly catch my breath....

.....Now since Aaron was gone I had this streak of fear shoot through my body....how I am going to drive home?! I leaned on the cart for a minute or two trying to gain my composer....and when I felt good enough to move I ushered the children to the check out....

...luckily Makayla was with me... I can always count on her help! She got everything unloaded onto the conveyer belt and then loaded the sacks back into the cart.

We got home and I took some Tylenol and just tried to relax...the pain started to subside and I did feel better. We all went bed.... I thought all was well....

...In the middle of the night I woke up to a VERY achy right leg....felt like I had twisted it and I couldn't get comfortable.

The next morning (Friday) I woke up and my leg felt a little tingly. Once Aaron got home I kinda forgot about the whole thing and everything felt fine.

Then Saturday evening my leg started feeling tingly again (like when you stand underneath a strong shower for too long)....

The next morning when we got up to get ready for church I noticed something very wrong! I couldn't feel my right leg from the top (where it attaches to my body) to just below my knee. We went to church and while there I could feel the numbness travel down a little further and up to near my belly button and down the other leg!

I was a bit scared!

So on Monday morning I called the doctor and told the nurse everything that had been going on. She said that she couldn't get me in for a day or two and she didn't want me to wait that long and told me to drop everything and go directly to the ER!

So I called Aaron, he came home and we loaded into his suburban and headed to the ER.

 We got there at 11:00 AM and I didn't get into a room until 6:00 PM... it was a L O N G Day!

I had an MRI (what a trip!) and X-Rays which showed that I have two herniated disks...the doctor thinks that the inflammation has caused the numbness (pressed nerves). He RX'ed some anti-inflammatory meds and I have to go back in a week to see my regular doctor.... if there is no change I will have to see a neurologist....
 I think it is going to be fine...I was told to take it easy, no lifting anything over 20 lbs and I am supposed to lay on my side most of the time... I can't drive until we know the numbness isn't going to move down my legs any further.

Also,....the MRI showed that I have gall stones and need to have my gallbladder removed! Bummer!

But I am not surprised....been having trouble with that for years. As a matter of fact I have an attack every other month or so. But I am going to wait until my back is better before even thinking about that! Not sure how this whole thing will affect my tubal reversal surgery in September....

On Tuesday, Aaron came home from work before noon and of course I knew what that meant! He would have to go to LA... but he wanted us to go with him. He didn't want me to be alone...and I didn't want to be alone either!

So we got everyone packed and away we went.

We got to the hotel and he had to go on out to work. The children and I went for a swim...the doctor told me that I needed to be as active as I could be and light exercise would be good for my back and help it heal.

Then last night I had a gall bladder attack! Can you believe that!!! I was up from around 2 AM to somewhere near 4:30 AM!!!!

I was leaning up against the wall asking myself why in the world wouldn't I get this taken care of!!! How many more times would I want this to happen?! And WHAT is the deal with the last few days!!!

This time of year has always been a hard one for us!

Three miscarriages, we had to move, Aaron had his heart problem and had a pacemaker put in on the 3rd of August last year.... IS there anyway at all we can just sleep through July and August of next year?!

yikes..... I need a nap!

 

Tosha

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Jul. 26, 2008 - the doorbell.....

Ok.... so yesterday afternoon when Aaron called, he said that he would leave first thing in the morning on Saturday and be home before we woke up....

So last night , the children and I were in the family room watching a movie....the door bell rang... we all froze. I NEVER answer the door unless I am expecting someone...It rang again.... I turned the TV down and hushed the children... it rang again and again and again (like someone was pushing it over and over again as quickly as they could) so I tip toed to the window and peeked through the blinds. I couldn't see anyone on the porch and no other cars except mine in the driveway.... Then the door bell rang again! I nearly jumped out of my skin! I ushered the the children into my bedroom and told them to stay there... I didn't want whoever was standing on the porch to hear them. I figured at some point they would just go away....but then the doorbell rang again and again and again.... I was getting quite scared at this point....until I saw AARON peaking through the window...SMILING!!!

So I opened the door...all the while he is laughing! He said he wanted to surprise us....and he that he had thought about his little stunt the whole way home!!!

hmmmm.... I will have to get him back for this one! But I am so glad he is home!

Tosha

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Jul. 24, 2008 - a struggle.

We have been so busy lately...trying to get things gathered and ready for our new school year to start...the children have started Spanish classes, piano and have had doctors appoinments, not to mention swimming days, trips to the museums, church, and I am trying to keep our home together and managed .... I feel like I am always runnnnnnning! 

Aaron has been gone a lot lately... it almost seems weird to have him home now! We all sleep better when he is home. Everyone is calmer....more at ease... the children fuss about who gets to sit next to daddy....somehow he usually ends up with a child on every side and one in his lap....

Still, when he is gone it is hard for me to juggle being two parents....we were made to compliment one another and I need him and what he brings to our relationship... I want him here with me. Did I mention I miss him?!

Lots of nights when he calls to tell us good-night, when the phones are hung up tears aren't held back any more and children who have tried to be brave and understanding just can't be anymore...and who can blame them? So it should be of no surprise and quite understandble when they act up during the day....understandable but not excusable mind you. We have had some difficult days...that is for sure!

 Anyway, so we are trying to be as normal as possible... we don't get to see him very often nor spend time together as a family...and we all miss it terribly! So we make the most of the time we have.... ...There have been lots of  functions and/or visits we have bypassed because our time together is so precious and we get so little of it...and to be quite frank we just want to be together...alone...

 Not sure if that is selfish or not... but please understand that we are just trying to survive...and we need support and help through this time...not made to feel guilty for trying to keep our family in tact. We are just doing our best....

We will celebrate our 14th wedding anniversary this August,.... this has been one of the toughest years so far.... but I have to be optimistic....

 I believe that God has a perfect plan regardless of whether or not I like it... to live is Christ and to die is gain. We are going to be fine and we will learn whatever we are to learn out of this and whatever God's will includes for us we are assurd that His grace is suffient for us.

Blessings,

Tosha

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Jul. 23, 2008 - Another change!!!

  I am so upset today.... I was so ready to go to OK to have my Tubal Reversal surgery! I had all the arrangments made...Aaron had his vacation days planned and I found replacements for my nursery position at church.... my sister said we could stay in her travel trailer while we were there....everything was set!

So the date had to be changed to the 18th of September!!!

ANOTHER MONTH!

Oh well..... I guess it will be ok.... but still upsetting!

   I am going to make the best of it.... we will start our new school year on the 1st of August and will be in our routine...I am going to get some things around the house done so when I get back I can just relax and heal...and hopefully my husband's job will slow down a bit and he can be home more by then!

Also, I need....NEED to start taking my vitamins that I was told to take and prepare my body so healing will be easier and quicker.... wouldn't hurt to focus on losing a few more pounds too!

The time will fly by and since we are so busy I probably won't even notice it!

Blessings,

Tosha

 

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Jul. 8, 2008 - A hillbilly housewife and the flght of the bumble bee!

As a stay-at-home mom.... part of my "job" is to manage my home... I buy the groceries, pay the bills, of course homeschool our children and make sure the house is kept tidy...and if it is out of sorts I gather all team members and we do what our family calls...

"the flight of the bumble bee!"...

It goes like this....Everyone grabs something out of place and as quickly as possible puts it back where it goes, unload and load dish washer, throw a load in...take a load out....hang it up, fold it, put it away...take out trash, make beds, vacuum floors, wipe off counter tops, make sure that even the blinds get dusted... feed and water the dog...ceiling fans...well... I forget those most days...

oh well, who will notice if they are on?!

 The main thing is to make sure our home environment.... in which we spend most of our time is clean and comfortable...and so if someone drops by...no biggie!
We try to stay on top of things... otherwise it can get away from us....and oh how I hate spending my weekend cleaning!!!!
So I have looked online to find some websites with practical solutions to some of my everyday hassles.... A friend sent this link to me a couple of years ago ......I love The Hillbilly Housewife website .... there are loads of advice about saving money, being frugal, feeding your family on a budget and lots of basic recipes... it even has a bread machine manuel and how to make homemade sanitary pads!!!
What more can you ask from a website!!!
So I thought it would be good to pass on.... enjoy!
Blessings,
Tosha

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Jun. 26, 2008 - A look back.... Our missing son.

In 1998, I took a pregnancy test (urine) at home (6 weeks) and then one in the Dr.'s office (8 weeks) that were both positive. I had to go get an U/S to confirm dates...a few days before my appointment I started to spot. I couldn't get into to see my OB/GYN so we went to the ER... they gave me a blood test and said my levels were high and looked great, not to worry...

That night I went home and started to bleed... but it wasn't normal. And I was crampy... not bad, kinda felt like gas.

So we went back to the ER... they confirmed that there was fetal tissue in my cervix... (why do they call it that!)... anyway I was told to go home and let nature take it's course... A really hot bath could help speed up the process....

Just a side note: The ER nurses are not the same nurses that are in my DR's office... I have never had any treatment like this from them. They are all VERY caring and compassionate as is my Dr.

So anyway, I thought it was all over...

We went home and I proceeded to bleed for a week. AND, I did NOT take a hot bath.... I laid around mostly. I still had this little bit of hope that screamed...what if?

It was a LONG week...then we went back to see another Dr. for an U/S (My OB/GYN was out of town, I HAD to KNOW!)... They couldn't see anything.... We were devastated... We already had names picked out... I had bought baby things... we sooo wanted this... I was angry. I felt the nurses were being mean and uncaring... I would ask questions and they were cold and acted as though it was nothing...

Aaron and I decided to get an IUD (not knowing that it actually aborts babies... I was told the metal kills the sperm before it gets far enough to come in contact with an egg...).... I didn't want to go through another loss... I didn't think my heart could take it....I just wanted to morn my lost child and that was that!

 I gathered all the baby things I had collected... I put them in a shoe box and taped it shut... and packed it away, out of sight.

I had the MC the first part of September... the 5th to be exact.... I needed to heal a bit before the procedure was done the bleeding had to stop first. I had an appointment set for the 22nd of October...1998 to get my IUD.

The day before I had to go in to the DR... He sent me to the lab to have my levels checked to make sure they were decreasing like they were supposed to....When I got up to the office he told me that he wanted to do another U/S to make sure everything had passed and that my uterus was able to hold the IUD.... (Of course I wouldn't question this...he had seen the lab, something didn't add up, I didn't know this until later.)

He turned on the machine...it wasn't facing me, and I thought that was a little weird because he actually turned the patient screen so I couldn't see it... but I thought it was just because what I had gone through...after all, seeing an empty womb is hard to take after a loss....

He began to smile... a BIG smile....I was upset at this... thinking, "how could he smile"..."here I am without a baby and had to come to this place anyway with all these pregnant ladies and newborns...grrr"... I was more than mad....

He turned the machine and said... "say hello to your son!!!"  Still smiling, now with a  tear in his eye.

I was 14.5 weeks along and there he was... not only was he alive and moving all over the place... but it was CLEAR it was a boy!!!

I nearly fell off the table...

How did this happen?

How could this be possible?

Aaron couldn' t get off work that day... I RAN to the car to call him...shaking... I told him that I had some interesting news....

Tearfully, in as much voice as I could muster I said, "The baby is alive....and it's a boy!".... I could hear him crying...

So here is what the Doctor thinks.... I wasn't as far along as they thought... the US didn't show the baby because the one they had used before wasn't a great one... Isaac most likely had a twin and that baby just didn't make it. This would be why there was fetal tissue and all the blood, I did MC.... but Isaac survived and was growing well and all my levels looked great.

I bled on and off all through my pregnancy, it was very scary!!!!

My labor was EASY, I didn't have much pain AT all!!!

We named him "Isaac" because God spared him....

He allowed him to live, just as Isaac in the Bible was allowed to live when Abraham was told to offer him as a sacrifice and the angel grabbed his hand....

 

He just recently turned 9.... and he is such a blessing to our family... I can't imagine our lives without him!

Tosha Tanquary

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Jun. 18, 2008 - Makayla's Birthday!!!!

 

Today my little girl is 12 years old!!! I sure love you Makayla Jo!!!!

Mom.

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Jun. 11, 2008 - Good news for Tyler!

We got some really good news today!!!

My nephew (he is 1) had to go see his cardiologist today to find out if he would have to have surgery to repair a murmur in his tiny little heart.... the doctor said that the murmur is getting smaller and it doesn't look like anything will have to be done about it! Praise God!!! We are very thankful!!! YEA!!!

blessings,

 Tosha

 

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Jun. 9, 2008 - How can you be home all day with your kids?

The question should be....How can you go all day without them?

 

 (And yes, Za was MEANING to make that face!!! )

I love being home with our children...

 Makayla has been missed so much today!

It is so weird when one (or all) of the children are gone.... there is something very abnormal and out of place and I don't like it!

Unfortunatly for me, I know they are growing up and want to be with friends....and I know there will come a day when they would RATHER be with freinds.... I know that is normal and it is fine.

But I still miss them when they aren't home!

She hasn't even called... or answered her phone! Now in 10 years that will be fine...but she is only 11! And I am getting antsy!!! Oh brother.. I need to get a grip!

My goal as a mother is to teach my children godly morals and help them to be independant of me and Aaron...

So as our children go into their teenage years I need to keep that in mind... they aren't meant to stay with me for the rest of their lives.... So I will cherish every bit of time I DO have with them and when it is time for them to go out on their own, God will give me the grace to get through it and the ability to let go.

I sure love them all.... they have been such wonderful blessings....and I wouldn't trade any of them for the world...How God did that (giving His Son...) is so beyond my understanding and such a sweet picture of a love I can not completely understand!

Blessings,

 Tosha

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Jun. 8, 2008 - Our son...

Aaron was gone until Friday night. We are thankful he was able to make it home for Isaac's birthday! Which by the way, turned out to be a great day.

I was out until 2:00 AM on the 7th, trying to get all the stuff ready for him so he could wake up to his presents and a decorated room....(A pro of living in a big city...you can go shopping at whatever hour!)

 I sure love that boy!

I have never met a person like Isaac!

Since he was a wee little boy we have teased, saying he is from "Sector seven"... His personality is one of a kind and it is hard not to fall in love with his intensity and enthusiasm!

He is full of energy and has the most incredible imagination.... his heart is soft and sweet.... He amazes me some days with his knowledge of the scriptures and it is awesome to see him grow into a godly young man... inspite of my poor parenting skills!

We are blessed to have him in our family!

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May. 29, 2008 - The date is set....

My Tubal Reversal Surgery will be performed on the 21st of August, 2008 at the Bartlesville Surgery Center.... We are very excited about it!!!

We would have never been able to pay for this if it had not been for God leading us to Blessed Arrows... Which is a steralization reversal funding ministry.... Everyone in the group gives donations which are put into a savings account for the couple at the top of the waiting list...The group also provides much needed prayer, love, and support... they are a great group of people whom I am blessed to know!

Tosha

 

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