Jul. 10, 2009 - Soooo tired today.... oh to ramble on....
I feel like rambling, I do that lot really.... There are days when I have so much going through my mind it's like I can't keep anything straight.... so it all comes out in bursts of nonsense!
I am so behind on my school work.... I really should be doing it and not writing on this blog.... I missed a whole week of school while in OK and now I have two weeks of stuff to get done by Sunday.... I am sure I'll get it done, but right now I just can't get motivated to start!.... not to mention I am soooo sleepy and having a hard time keeping my eyes open!!!
I was up last night late doing school work.... Isaiah was up a few times during the night he "slept" in our room on the floor....not sure how much sleeping he did though! ...he wasn't feeling good yesterday and threw up around noon....and said his stomach was hurting him most the day..... If there is ever ANY bug around he catches it! Poor kid! He is acting ok today...jumping around....being anwry.... normal boy stuff...
....and the baby was moving around like crazy all through the night.... no sure what THAT was about but wow....are my stomach and ribs wore out!!!! It seemed like every time I fell asleep I was awakened by either Za, Aaron snoring, or the baby SUMERSAULTING in my tummy! Which by the way has fallen into a schedule.... a scary scehdule that includes small arobics between 9 and 10 and what feels like break dancing from 11 to 1!!! I am soooo hoping that once the little one is on the OUTSIDE he/she will realize that 9:00 is Bedtime! Sure!!.... having been a mother for 13 years.... I know better! well.... I can still hope!
Alisha came in our room around 5:00 and said she couldn't sleep... then about 10 minutes later Aaron's alarm went off....we had to get up and ready for the day so we could follow Aaron to the Chevy dealership to drop his SUV off at the shop.... I really could have slept another 5 hours!!!! But I AM glad he took it in.... it has been acting so crazy lately and I really wouldn't want him to have car trouble!! So hopefully they get it fixed in a few days....and maybe we can pick it up in the evening!.... no more ealry mornings..PLEASE!
I feel really overwhlemed today...... lonely, alone.... did I mention, overwhlemed!
There is sooo much to do....and I have NO energy to do any of it...I find myself growing more anxious everyday....
I know things will be so much easier this time around.... the girls are such big helpers and I know they will want to hold the little one when I need to take a shower or just need a minute... Or just whenever I'll let them!....
They also help so much around the house and can keep the house as well if not better than I can.... I am proud of them and thankful that they are my girls.... Today without me asking.... they have cleaned the kitchen ( I think maybe Kayla did) and I hear the washer and dryer going and Kayla just brought a load of clothes in here, folded them/put them on hangers....and is now putting them all away... Isaac is cleaning his room (finishing it up).... which yesterday both he and the girls rearranged their rooms... they love doing that.... they say it feels like a new room .... I don't mind as long as they don't hurt themselves or break the furniture.... *sigh*.... I don't know what I'd do without those kids! Even on the worst days I still am so thankful they are my kids!
So now I'm going to try and go lay down for a nap..... and not think about the school work I have to get done, or the curriculum I have to buy for the upcoming year, co-op I have to get signed up for.... sports.... are we doing sports this year? Not sure yet...dr's appointments, dentists appointments...oh yeah, the kids need new glasses too.....or ALL the baby stuff we have to get before the little one's birthday.... oh boy....speaking of birthdays... Alisha and Isaiah both have one in October too... I better get gifts ordered.... bills to pay.... oh brother...the list keeps growing! My anniversary is also coming up....in August...15 years! you know....maybe we can just rent a movie and buy some take out.... I think a nice quiet evening at home will be perfect!
ok...really.... off to take a nap!
Tosha.
Comments
Jul. 25, 2009 - What great helpers!
Posted by Raisingarrows
Tosha,
You are so blessed to have such great helpers! It truly does get easier the more children you have b/c the littles grow up and help out. Great training for when they have their own family! Give everyone loves from us!
Amy for the Roberts family
Aug. 6, 2009 - hi mom....
Posted by MakaylaJo
Hey mom
Makayla
