Write In His Light

Such a long time....

I have had a long reflection period.  One that I am trying to stay focused on God's directive and perspectives.  I feel like I am totally revamping my thoughts and ways.  I don't know about you but at times I sit back and think what am I doing?  Knowing that you are not going God's way.  I am the type of person that if I can't do it "right" than I don't do it at all, or quit before I start.  Like homeshcooling.  I know that God has called us to homeschool but, I let insecurities step in the way and prevent me from suceeding the way that I feel God leading me.  It is hard not to get bogged down by all the negative comments by those who don't agree with homeschooling.  Oh, and if your child is behind in any way, they are like vultures who step in and devour your confidence.  You dare not ask for help or voice your struggles with these people because they will just tell you..I told you so. 

These are just some thoughts running through my head lately.  I need more.  I need to find a homeschooling group that I can relate to and be fed by.  I need to hang out with like minded people.  The bible talks about this.  Right now my kids have severe allergies and it is hard to get out.  I really hope that soon we get to go somewhere where we can go outside and read by the trees.  Cabin fever is so awful!  I would also love to get started in writing.  I have a lot written but, just nothing permanent.  I am listening too much to those that hinder any further advancement in this subject.  Why do people feel like they have the right to tell you you can't do something.  I know that I can do these things through the Lord and by His guidance.  Focusing on His ways and not the worlds.  Pretty soon, watch out...I WILL BE OUT THERE! :)