A steadfastly tenacious mommy embattled for the hearts of her children...

January 18, 2007

Sometimes I forget. . .

. . . that people who READ my blog, KNOW everything about my life, and FORGET that I have no clue what's happening with them! It's been interesting to talk to people who are checking my blog on a regular basis, because my blog has virtually eliminated the need for people to talk to me.

Also, in my "Quest for Low Fuel Prices" a friend told me today that it's $1.87 somewhere near where he lives (which is relatively close to where I live). That's amazing...a $0.23 drop since I arrived! Someone I know in California told me fuel had gone UP there this last few days, so praise God!!

In other news, my alternator almost accidently fell off my car. God provided the right people at the right time though, and my car is being fixed tonight. I should have it back tomorrow, but how awesome that God knows! I had my car looked at before I left Montana, so this was really a God-thing that He provided someone at the right moment!

I got to talk to my kids for seven minutes tonight. That's all I've been "allowed" this week. My daughter managed to get out some information that was very....lets call it "informative" before she was cut off and our call was disconnected. It's so heartbreaking to experience a woman who just met my kids two months ago play these kinds of games with my kids, but I know my 9-year-old well enough, and she and I have had really good communication (she's my "little attorney") so this conversation was very "telling". Please pray that my children's hearts are protected. And that my 9-year-old isn't seriously being allowed to wear MAKE-UP!!!! (oh well, in the big scheme of things....right??)

But break my heart...She's soooo beautiful, there's just no reason to hide behind makeup. Especially at nine years old.

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January 19, 2007 - Untitled Comment

Posted by Jenna

How are you holding up? It breaks my heart for you that their dad and his wife (or girlfriend?) are playing games with your kids. This is all so sad. Their dad isn't even thinking of their feelings and is only trying to hurt you. I am praying that they will be back with you soon where they belong.

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January 19, 2007 - Thank you for the prayers!

Posted by a4givensinner

All things considered, I'm doing pretty good. God has been really, really, really faithful and, if only my girls were with me, my life would be practically perfect right now. I get teary-eyed when I go through boxes and hit a "school box" (packed with the girls work) and trying to talk to them is always cause for a good cry, since about 4/5 times he won't allow us to talk.

It's all games, it's all lies, and it's all based on no one really caring to hear about the truth. I've got teachers, doctors, therapists (for my daughter's autism), TSS workers, a pediatric neuropsychologist...etc. etc. etc. that all have seen what a good family God has blessed us with. Unfortunately, no one wants to talk to them, and ignorance = neglect (they are ignorant, I must be neglectful). Please pray that a judge will see through that, once I actually get a court date.

I do need some practical-things...if anyone reading my blog is in PA (Harrisburg/Mechanicsburg) there is a need for me to find people to help...I can't go into details on my blog about what exactly, but perhaps God will use the world-o-blog to open up those doors. Feel free to pass that need along (finding people in PA) if God so leads.

And please pray for my girls. I just know them well enough to know they are struggling deeply right now with how much their life has changed. Everything in his house is the opposite of my home (per my 9-yo's exact words last night) and that's scary to me. . . I wish so much she could have told me more before his current wife disconnected the call. . . My heart aches, but God works all things together for good. It sure feels like this is nothing but a bundle of bad-n-ugly, (and it is) but if God is trustworthy then I have to believe He is telling the truth and that He (who sees from eternity's view) is working through all this for good.

This is all related to what I was talking to the State Representative about the other day. . . She was very compassionate and wanted to hear my thoughts on CPS reform. I'm going to be emailling her later today. (It's funny when you email someone like that how you proof-read, and proofread...). God has connected me with some really good parent-advocate groups and a LOT of people who are working to reform the CPS system that want my ideas...Which, of course, are "as numerous as the sands of the sea" (well, almost).

But, at the end of the day, I just want to curl up with my kiddos, our bible books, and a big ol' bowl of popcorn.

I LOVE YOU GIRLS!!! but God loves you more!!!!!!!!!!!

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January 19, 2007 - PA needs..

Posted by Melanie

Hi,

I've been reading your blog for a while now, I love your stories about your girls and have been praying for the ex situation. I know someone who lives in PA, and she's a teacher, so she may know some resources that would be what you're looking for. If you want to email me at josephmelanie@juno.com and let me know what you are needing help with, I'd be happy to pass along your needs to her, or get her to contact you.

Keep your chin up!

Melanie
http://www.homeschoolhelp.com

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January 19, 2007 - PA needs..

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January 19, 2007 - Untitled Comment

Posted by Jenna

I didn't realize you are in PA! That is where I live. I live near Pittsburgh though. But still, if there is anything I can do, please let me know. I am only 3-4 hours from you and I teach school in Pennsylvania so I do know a lot of the legal workings of the education system here. My email is mommy3act@hotmail.com.

Anything I can do to help you, honestly, I would be more than willing. I hate to see you going through this. As a single mom myself, I know how hard this has to be on you.

Email me if you want and we can talk more. I am still praying for you!!!!! Jen

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January 28, 2007 - Untitled Comment

Posted by Lizzie

I'm so sorry!

See, I feel so badly for us that my husband is gone. I think that I would be devastated to be without my son.
You are doing so well and I thank you so much for all your encouragement to me!
Lizzie
A Dusty Frame

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About Me

I am a Christian homeschool mother of three daughters who believes ideals are like stars...Although I may never be able to reach them, I can use them to guide the direction of my life. Sharing the journey of my family through this blog has been put on hold during this trying season in our lives. Please pray for my daughters.