My college roommate & friend who was my maid of honor just got email up & going again after several months of having none.  Fortunately, she still had the same email address.  I happened to email her (just because I was thinking about her) the same day she was back on-line. She got married about 6 months after I did. but waited longer to have children.  Her oldest is the same age as my 2nd child.  Her four are much closer together in age than mine are.  Our lives have been in some ways radically different.  She has worked most of her married life, I have been a stay at home mom.  Her kids have been in private & public school, mine have been homeschooled for nearly all of their education.  And...her husband was abusive.  They have been separated for about 18 months now.  At times he makes an attempt to work on the marriage, but most of the time not.  She said that it is hard being a single mom, (especially since her middle two children are rebellious and acting out), but on the other hand, life is more peaceful without him. 
     She asked how my married daughter is doing.  Again, interesting timing of us getting back in touch. 
     My husband is out of town.  He'll be back about midnight tonight, but last night when he called, he asked if I had read our daughter's blog.  Apparently she has (at least) two.  I had read the "clean" blog.  He allerted me to the "darker" side.  The language is rough.  Much more so than I ever thought would come from her.  The discussion of some other parts of her life were a bit of a surprise to me.  (Things she told us a year ago she wasn't doing... either that was a lie, or she has started doing them since then.)  But the hardest thing to read was her utter hatred of her parents, particularly her father.  Equally hard were her posts about planning to go to h*ll, because she certainly doesn't want to spend eternity with Christians. 
     This is the young lady who 8 years ago helped me at my curriculum booth at the SMHEA and CSTHEA fairs.  This is the young lady who said she wanted to be a homeschooling mom and use the Christian curriclum that she & her brothers used. This is the young lady who went on a 6 week mission trip to Brazil with Brio Magazine the summer she was 16.  This is the young lady who graduated in May from a "Christian" college.  (But I can't help but think that she was a Christian when she enrolled, but somewhere in the last 4 years lost her relationship with Christ.) 
     My husband and I talked on the phone 'til nearly 1, and then I was up until 2 reading the blog and crying.    At 7:20 this morning I got a call from FedEx, wanting directions to our house.  Our new sub-division doesn't show up on the maps, and getting deliveries has been a challenge.  She said they were going to try to deliver this morning, so I got up (earlier than I'd planned!) and got ready to start the day.  The delivery didn't make it at all, so I've been on low energy and raw emotions all day.
     Besides the ache at the choices she has made and the hate she feels, I fear for my younger son.  My daughter suggests that he is much like her, and when we get his basement bedroom finished, he will be able to escape like she did and only have to put up with us at meal time.  On a positive note, he decided years ago that he wants to go to Bryan College, and that does not seem to have changed. 
     Kathy said that there has been some similar feelings between  one of her daughters and thier dad.   So, my college roommate and I have renewed a pact to pray for each other and our families.   And, as much as it hurts to pray for it, my prayer is, "Whatever it takes to bring them to You, Lord." 

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