I have deleted some of my posts again.  I want to present a more positive attitude.  As we are going through several changes.  I have found a new church and it has been very uplifting and very encouraging.  They are so positive and on fire!!  They  have been praying over my oldest son and he is recovering nicely so far from his illness.  We never did find out what was causing him to wake up in the nights struggling to breathe.  We had tried all kinds of medicines and treatments....but nothing was helping and he was only experiencing other side effects that made him feel worse.  So with trusting God, I took him off everything and just continued praying.  And he is feeling better. 

Another change is that we are on vacation again - out on the west coast.  And it has helped my son as well.  The dampness has been good for him, though it has been windy and alittle chilly here yet.  The nice part is that the grass is green and lhe trees are green and the flowers are blooming!!  So nice. 

The other change is that I am still trying to sort out my marriage.  I had posted that we were having problems, and sadly nothing is changing.  I am on my trip to just rest and renew myself and also for our children to rest and renew.  Looking forward to just spending time with the Lord to learn what path I follow.  I want to follow the Lord's word, and not alot of religion.  I find that religion is mostly made up by man's thoughts and it misses alot of important parts that makes Jesus so sweet and gentle...loving and forgiving and kindness.....oh to clothe myself as such. 

Blessings from acraisydaisy