I can remeber my sweet grandmother, like it was yesturday.  We would often have sleep overs with her and Grandpa.  I loved his laugh.  I loved the smell of her linens, and the kitchen.  They were always doing something in the kitchen.  Grandpa baked the best bread!!!  My Grandmother would sing and dance...she was always doing something funny.  Her eyes sparkled like diamonds.  She worried about nothing.  She worked hard all her life, taking care of her family.  I enjoyed her stories of the old days when she was a girl.  Her and her sisters would hide their dishes behind the cookstove to avoid doing them lol.  How I miss those happy times.  Life was simple back then.  Now adays things have changed so much.  Families don't barely spend anytime together anymore, what has happened to them?  What does family mean to you...those who find this...please leave a comment.  What do you and your families do for fun?  What do you do together, how do you show that you love each other? 

I can't say that my family does alot together.  My husband and I are going through a very difficult time right now, and I haven't lived at home for the last 4 months.  One month I lived with a friend near where we live due to my oldest son being so ill.  The last 3 months, I have been staying with other friends far from where we live.  She and her family have really gone out of their way for us.  And we have become in the way.  I have lost myself in my troubles and haven't done anything to help myself.  I want to say how sorry I am to my friend for losing myself and bringing such stress to her home.  I listened to something really hard that she had to say to me today....and that is that I complain about alot of things that I do.  And she has helped me...as much as it hurt my feelings to hear it....it showed me that I have complained.....about my husband and my home....my life.  The grass is not greener on the other side of the fence.  God hates divorce....and I need to work out my troubles....to go through them calmly and trusting in Him.  Not avoiding them and going around them, living in fear and anger.  I am here for a reason, to learn that home is where the heart is....even if my husbands heart is not there....the Lord can heal us.  Trust in Him and lean not onto our own understanding.  Another friend emailed me today and she told me to not focus on my husband so much, but to look at myself and fill my mind with the Lord's Word.    Somehow I think that my grandparents would be happy to hear that too.  I can feel the Lord smiling and I imagine if I could see my grandmother....she would be singing and dancing, and my grandfather would be laughing!!  I would love some homemade bread fresh out of the oven. 

Thank you God.....and thank you Z!!!!!!  And thank you others that pray for us. 

Blessings from acraisydaisy