It happened again today. That old feeling of butterflies in my stomach visited me at 7:30am with a vengeance. I was asked to do an interview with the local radio station about the 'day in the life' of a homeschooler. That was a few weeks ago...and I replied "Sure!" Two other Moms also agreed so we planned to meet for a quick cup of coffee before the interview session. Of course it didn't hit me 'til I was seated around the table with coffee mug in hand and gabbing with my homeschool friends. The 'What ifs?' reared their ugly heads as my stomach started to rumble. What if I put my foot in my mouth? What if I knock over the microphone? What if I start sneezing continuously? What if I don't know the answer to the question? What if I start laughing uncontrollably? What if I don't make any sense? The list could go on and on. I had touched upon that old fear of public speaking that has accompanied me most of my life. As I glanced over at my younger friend, she whispered, "My stomach hurts." That's all it took for me to smile. We were in this together. I realized that the silly, random 'what ifs" would not paralyze us from telling our stories. We shared a common adventure that united our courage. After driving to the radio station office, I inhaled a deep breath and knew we would do fine. The powerful knowledge that I was not alone gave me (and my brave friends) the ability to relax and enjoy the gabbing about a subject dear to my heart. God has an amazing way of connecting us to each other in those butterfly moments. He supplies the extra blessings to let us breathe in the peace and calm us. I didn't even need a butterfly net! |
• Mar. 13, 2009 - Untitled Comment
Thank you Bis Sis....I Miss You!!