Living and loving life as a homeschooling Army family.

Reading and thinking...

So I can't quite get to sleep tonight.  First of all, my TOS magazine came today and I've been eyeing it all evening.  I finally picked it up for a quick read....an hour later and I've barely gottne through 25% of it.  And that's just looking at the pictures, saying "Ohhhh, I definitely want to read that..."  :)  It's hard to go through it when the boys are running around...I get so lost in the vast  wealth of amazing information.  :)  LOVE IT!

And tonight my husband is heavy on my mind.  I talked to him online today for a few minutes.  While he's there, we usually talk online everyday via messenger.  When we're busy, we leave messages for each other.  And he was busy for the past few days, so when I finally got to talk to him today, I was aggravated that I had made plans and had to cut our conversation short. 

Some days it's not so bad, him being gone.  I don't want to sound flippant, but some days are easier to handle. Lately, though, our oldest son has been acting up like crazy and I know that his heart is heavy with thoughts of his Daddy.  And those days are the hardest on me, and him of course.  Hardest because I'm driven to the brink by the time bedtime rolls around and the hardest because I know he hurts and he misses his Daddy as much as I miss my husband.  And my heart just breaks for him, and his little brother.

I know this deployment is eventually going to end.  He's been gone two weeks shy of ten months.  But some days, I ache for him to be home with us so much that it hurts. 

(long pause, heavy sigh.....)

So, I should go to bed.  :)  We have to be at the car dealership for van repair in the morning. 

We miss you, Adam.  And he talks about you all the time.  They both do.  Stay safe, we'll see you when it's time.  xoxoxo