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• 27 November 2007 - I'm back

I didn't really drop off the face of the earth, although it may seem that way. I don't even know where to begin with such a drastic absence.

So much of what I do I have to question, to see if it's really what I need or should be doing for God's glory, and I can't always answer yes. I've been doing that a lot lately.

I'd like to say school is going smoothly, but it's not. I'd like to say I'm all ready for the baby, but I'm not. I'd like to say my life is gliding along wonderfully, but it's not.

I've a need to be on my knees right now, because I so cannot do all that there is to do in my life without my Lord. I know that's an okay place to be, too, so I'm not complaining. I'm sort of in stall mode right now, or could it be more likely DENIAL?

Does it all go away if you pretend it's not there? Well, no. It does not. But we do try, sometimes, don't we?

I'm alright, though. Not suffering any major problems, pregnancy is going well (only about 9 weeks left), kids are all fine, husband on normal stress alert as usual, so there's really no need for concern.

I just stopped blogging. I have to wonder why? Why blog, why do this, why do that? What does God get out of me doing this or that?

That is where I am. I'll be back. Thanks for stopping in.

• 27 November 2007 - Untitled Comment

Posted by CrossView

Glad to *hear* all is well.
Sometimes, taking a step back IS the best thing to do...

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• 27 November 2007 - Untitled Comment

Posted by sajolley

Why hello there. I was not surprised for you to take a break. Your plate is full. Your mind is full. Blogging is not a priority now, although I do love it when you post.

The first year I blogged, I was quite introspective about it, and took several breaks. I think it is quite normal. But I kept coming back to voice these big thoughts rolling around in my head.

To blog or not to blog, that is the question. What worth or value is there in blogging? Is it edifying in my life? Is it sucking precious time away?

I have since answered all these questions and more and am still blogging. And although I completely understand your absence, you were missed. I am just fortunate enough that I get to see your face on occasion as well. :)
amanda

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• 27 November 2007 - Untitled Comment

Posted by diamondsintherough

Hi Janelle,
Thanks for your comment. It's nice to see you back, although I understand perfectly what you are getting at, wondering why you are blogging. I keep thinking, "In the multitude of words there wanteth not sin..." And sometimes there is just more life going on in the real world than we can handle while trying to keep up a blog!
Sally

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• 2 December 2007 - Untitled Comment

Posted by mycrazylife

Hey Janelle,

I wonder the same thing sometimes and then I remember that we are here to encourage each other and a laugh now and then is good too. Although sometimes it seems very unimportant, there have been moments that God has clearly blessed me and others through blogging. He sent my best friend to me through my blog. A friend I had prayed for, for a long time. So I hope you will come back...when you are ready of course. And plus, I miss you! Isn't that reason enough? Just kidding ;) Pompous aren't I?

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• 3 December 2007 - Untitled Comment

Posted by kellieann

I'm glad things are going well for you. I hope the end of your pregnancy is smooth.

I have some of the same thoughts sometimes. I believe you are right to analyze your motives and take a step back, if need be. Blogging should be fun and guilt-free and definitely directed by the Lord.

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