Swimming in the Kootney Lake is COLD it's not FREEZING cold but it's COLD I believe that I would have to say that it's one of the cooler places I have gone swimming besides the ocean! The first time I was able to take a dip. Luke, Morgan (their cousin), and I decided to bike to a beach called Queensbay. I thought 'Hey sure this won't be to bad!' -.- .... Okay to apparently people on the flatlands a.k.a saskatchewan CANNOT handle the two "small" hills in the road heading to the beach... I would of been fine on a flatter travel but NOOOOO this was not the case... biking uphill really took a toll on me and I will be the first to admit that the hills were not that big and if I were walking it would been easier and then coasted down on my bike. HAHA so anyways I was BARELY able to make it to the beach. I thought that I would of been hot and sweaty enough to dive right in but as soon as I was thigh deep in this cold cold water my temperature went down drastically and I was not able to bravely venture in over my head... so I just stood there shivering till my foot cramped up..... the same thing happened when I went a 2nd time this time it was Philip, Luke, Noah, and their Father.... again I did not submerge my head under the water... haha Philip managed to get me in deep enough were my foot could not touch the bottom... but I think he regretted that when I grabbed onto his shoulders and he had to swim around with me panicking on his back refusing to let go for fear of the cold water.
Actually the only refreshing swim that I had during my whole trip I would have to say was my delicious trip to Ainsworth Hot springs... to which Philip and I went together with some of the WOOFERS (Workers on Organic Farms) and their friends. So Philip and I had a joyous time exploring the hot spring caves and swimming in the pool. I was quite fascinated by the caves though... to bad that I couldn't spend more time in them though because the steam from the water was quite smothering for my small lungs to be in there for long periods of time. But it was my first time in a hot spring and I would certainly do it again!
There were alot of birthdays that took place in the time I spent there.. Philip's brother Noah turned the big 11 and Mom's birthday and Philip's Grandma's birthday! I got to meet Mom's mother.. her name is Esther... we both found that funny we kept turning when people called our name.. haha :)
I spent the first of July in Nelson CANADA DAY! WHOO HOO the fireworks are beautiful and I am sure that you can see the pictures in my albums if you wish to! THEY WERE SO BEAUTIFUL!
I also met up with Philip and my friend Chris it was an enjoyable visit we made noodles and played video games.... in which I won once haha!.... Did I mention that I beat the Series of Unfortunate Events game in 5 1/2 hrs.... NEVER GIVE ME A PUZZLE GAME!!!! I WILL NOT STOP TILL I FINISH!!!!! Anyways we then headed into Nelson and went out for lunch at a Chinese Buffet and Chris's girlfriend Kazia joined us. So after that we wandered Nelson for awhile and rented a movie called the knowing..... NEVER WATCH THAT MOVIE... IT'S SCARY!!!!!!! (for me anyway... creepy black stones)
During my first week there I got the pleasure of nursing Philip back to health from a week-long fever.. he was literally burning up... I hate it when my poor man gets sick... :( but he's better now :)
Mom and I learned how to do wire work around pendants for necklaces! Oh that was so much fun, I made three pendants and 2 necklaces! One of which I kept and one I gave to Mom for her to do with as she wished.. whether she wants to keep it or sell it! I should start up a jewelry business here in making necklaces since I have seen so many people around Asquith wearing my necklaces already hehe >.<
Needless to say my first trip alone to B.C. (without my parents) went really well... I DID NOT want to leave and given the choice I wouldn't of... but reality happens and God will always make good things come from waiting for his will. Right now my place is in my home and preparing myself for the future... I don't know what it holds but God does and that's all that matters. I cried when I had to leave Philip cried by himself and mom needed comfort food so they stopped at DQ for chocolate for her. I will never forget all the treasured memories that I had over there.. I know there are some that I haven't mentioned so if anyone wants to put down some of those memories that they had with me during my visit please feel free to share it.
Love,
Esther

Let's Start With Pictures of My Other Family

My Fiance

2nd Oldest Son

3rd Oldest Son

4th Oldest Son

I was quite nervous at first because it had been a year since I had last seen them and of course it's always rattling when it's the person you loves parents right? HEHE >.< I LOVE THEM!!!! Oh so dearly! Philip's mom's name is Mary, we got alot of girl time by working in the garden, beading, and just plain talking it was so refreshing for the both of us. She is definately a woman above rubies and a blessing to me and her family, a woman above rubies. We had a lovely girls day out in which we went bead shopping and window shopping and clothes shopping, every moment with her was precious and special. I loved the spiritual talks we had about our faith in God and how she helped strengthen me and shared her thoughts and fears. Mom is definitely very precious to me and I love her in Christ, she's my mom, sister, and friend. She's inspired me to take up knitting/crocheting/quilting, I want to learn she's womanly quiet and enjoyable crafts. You can look up her blog actually her name is Canadagirl
I am no longer intimidate by Philip's father, I quite enjoyed his company and got used to his lovely sense of humor, he reminds me alot of my dad in many ways so it was easier to start a conversation with him and listen to what he had to say.
Philip has 3 brothers, Luke, Noah, and Nic, Luke is the 2nd oldest he and I had alot of fun talking and hanging together with him and thier cousin Morgan. Nic and Noah are bundles of energy always talking about something and finding new ways to capture thier mother's attention (not always in a good way mind you) >.< hehe. I loved them all I was introduced to new games Settlers of Catan it's where you build settlements and armies ETC. I can't find a way to exactly explain it so I will let you do the work in looking it up :P
I met Philip's christian mentor Rudy.... I have never met such a lovable teddy bear of a man! (except my grandpa of course) and his wife Susan is a dear, they had Philip and I over for supper and it was a joyful/tearful evening of sharing and biblical conversation, and testimonies! While waiting for dinner I was overjoyed at the fact of a little tiny sparrow landing on my out-stretched finger! It meant alot to me! Rudy's property is so beautiful it over looks Kootney Lake and facing the mountains in which the sun sets, it's such a gorgeous and peaceful place, you could feel the Lord's presence there.
But the extremely surprising and delightful part about my precious time at Rudy's is yet to be explained! You see Philip got me a promise ring last year, it was to big for my hand so I always had to wear another small plain band with it so that it wouldn't fall off. So before we left for my graduation we brought my ring in to be resized so that it would be in before I left to go to B.C. I was very disappointed to find out the day before we had to go that my ring was not in yet and thus i would not be able to wear it till I got back from my 2 week trip to Philip's.... After dinner with Rudy, the teddy sent us down to sit at a place that he called the Oasis.... so looking forward to watching the gorgeous sunset with Philip we hurried down to the beautiful place. The oasis is literally a haven of rest if I do say so myself. It is a dock sitting right on the lake, looking over the lake and into the not so distant mountains which were glowing, pink, and purple, and yellow, the air smelt so pure and refreshing and the sounds of birds and the splashing of waves just added to the over all beauty of this place. Philip and I sat in the chairs provided and sang hymns and songs... but in particular I sang a very special song to Philip.. and at the end of it he presented me with my resized promise ring!!!! Asking me to promise to marry him in a year and a half! He made to sure to state though that this was not the engagement ring as of yet because my dad specifically asked him to wait a bit yet, before he took that step..... to me it didn't matter it was one of the most special moments of my life.... OF COURSE I SAID YES!!!! hehe >.< Philip is so sweet and wonderful.
Also during my trip I got to share with Philip's church with a gift of song, I sang Amazing Grace (My Chains are Gone) by Chris Tomlin... it was new for me to hear people sniffling afterwards... but then again Amazing Grace is a POWERFUL hymn it is one that should be held with reverence and with a thankful heart. It was a blessing to sing it, because every ounce of my heart was poured into my voise from my wretched heart that the Lord saved. (Here's a secret... I made Philip's dad watery eyed) apperantly that's BIG :) (Rudy was the one who encouraged me to sing, but Philip was the one who accepted) haha he told me that I was going to sing.... <3 I love him.
I also got to meet Jenna, Jessica, and Christina young girls and friends of Philip that I had previously only corresponded with through email, it was a blessing to finally meet them face to face and talk about important things. Jenna was the one that I spent the most time though as of after youth get together we walked down to Balfour and had some girl time! (and Bugged Philip at work)
There is so much more that I could write and i will tomorrow, for the evening has come here in flat saskatchewan so tonight I will bid you all Adeiu and will again commence to writing on the morrow.
Blessing in Christ,
Essie
My Bible studies this morning brought me to the book of Psalm’s (Due to Dad’s health we had personal devotions today) Psalm’s 1 itself is labeled: The Blessed Man.
Psalm 1:1 Blessed is the man that walketh not in the counsel of the ungodly, nor standeth in the way of sinners, nor sitteth in the seat of the scornful.
- The Blessed Man spoken about here is the Lord Jesus Christ in *type (compare 2 Timothy 1:10 ‘But is now made manifest by the appearing of our Lord Jesus Christ, who hath abolished *death, and hath brought life and immortality to light through the gospel:’) The word “blessed” could of also been translated “happy.” The first three verses not only show forth the Lord, who is our example (1 Peter 2:21 ‘For even hereunto were ye called: because Christ also suffered for us, leaving us an example, that ye should follow his steps:’); they show what the truly righteous man is-the example that Christians should show others (1 Timothy 4:12 ‘Let no man despise thy youth; but be thou an example of the believers, in word, in conversation, in charity (love), in spirit, in faith, in purity.’).
Psalm 1:2 But his delight is in the law of the Lord; and in his law doth he meditate day and night.
- Our joy should be in God’s laws, and words that he has pointed out to us. It should be a joy to obey him and live righteously doing his will.
- We must concentrate and make sure that the Lord’s will is on our minds from morning till night, his will be done in us!
Psalm 1:3 And he shall be like a tree planted by the rivers of water, that bringeth forth his fruit in his season; his leaf also shall not wither; and whatsoever he doeth shall prosper.
- Tree planted by the rivers: Compare his thought with our Lord as the Vine (John 15: 1-6 ‘I am the true vine, and my Father is the husbandman.’ ‘Every branch in me that beareth now fruit he taketh away: and every branch that beareth fruit, he purgeth it, that it may bring forth more fruit.’ ‘Now ye are clean through the word which I have spoke unto you.’ ‘Abide in me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit of itself, except it abide in the vine; no more can ye, except ye abide in me.’ ‘I am the vine, ye are the branches: He that abideth in me, and I in him, the same bringeth forth much fruit: for without me ye can do nothing.’ ‘If a man abide not in me, he is cast forth as a branch, and is withered; and men gather them, and cast them into the fire, and they are burned,’)
- Whatsoever he doeth: This verse, with its picture of a tree, speaks of fruit bearing in service for God, which will prosper because it is for Him and of Him-in his power.
Psalm 1:4-5 The ungodly are not so: but are like the chaff which the wind driveth away.’ ‘Therefore the ungodly shall not stand in the judgment, nor sinners in the congregation of the righteous.
- The ungodly (which are not directed of God) are like chaff (husks of grain) when the wind cometh they get blown away since they are founded on nothing but wordly principles. Thus this being said in verse 4, verse 5 continues by saying, that since they are founded on nothing, they shall not be able to stand in the day of judgment (The great white throne in Revelation) neither shall sinners be comfortable in the congregations (groups) of the Christians, for Christ is not in them and the Christian’s righteousness shalt expose their need of Christ and their sin.
Psalm 1:6 For the Lord knoweth the way of the righteous: but the way of the ungodly shall perish.
- The Lord knoweth his people, and where they shalt go. Belonging to him is eternal we shalt live with him forever. In the presence of the Almighty God. But the way of the man who rejects Christ, is utter annihilation (death) this doesn’t just speak of physical earthly death, but of the second death (hell) where their souls shall burn eternally. Forever separated from God.
From being given this odd ability to see the darkness in people's eyes to the contemplation of were I stand in my walk with the Lord God Almighty, to my book.
Two weeks ago when talked to Philip, it was really good for me, I have had my hurting emotions building up inside of me for some time now regarding the state of the youth today. I had been trembling for 3 days over the state of this world and am still getting over the jitters.
I literally and truthfully CRIED like a baby to him about it. For in reality the fear of the Lord finally hit me. Just how big his wrath is that will be poured out on the earth. Even during the tribulation period he will still show his mercy in some areas. Hebrews 10:31 says "It is a fearful thing to fall into the hands of an Angry God." and it really is. I was so scared last night for my friends, family, loved ones because I knew that some of them would not be joining me in heaven. I was questioning my own authenticity. WHAT WAS I DOING?!
Proverbs 1:7 "The fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge, but FOOLS despise wisdom and instruction."
Ignoring the signs about us, being scared to witness to the people around you, your friends at school, your co-workers, your family, anyone... for fear of rejection, you have to question yourself, do I REALLY love them? Do I care? Don't you want to save them from that terrible place they are headed to without Christ. 'Life without Jesus is HELL' That statement is true. Do you want them to go to that terrible place? Their blood on your hands? Give them their choice, your persecution you might receive is NOTHING compared to the eternal torment that they will receive.
You want to know what they will be thinking there in the flames? "Why didn't you tell me? Why didn't you ever bring it up and warn me about this horrible place? I thought we were friends..."
"Weeping and gnashing of teeth..." Matthew 8:10
"Lake of fire and brimstone... they shall be tormented day and night..." Revelation 20:10
"Whosoever was not found written in the Book of Life was cast into the Lake of Fire." Revelation 20:15
Why do people ignore this?! WHY?! Because we are to afraid to step out of our comfort zone. When people do become missionaries and go out to stand for the Lord and Saviour praise God. People travel and spread the word, which is wonderful and loving... but even though we are young, we can do something. Right here in our town, on our street, withing our friends and family... we have a mission right here in front of us.
I love this poem it cuts really deep
Taken from: http://www.youtube.com/wat
'Don't bother me...
Don't bother me with souls to save,
I have my own agenda,
There's school to do,
Sports to play,
Important thing to attend to.
Don't bother me with my friend at work,
He's got his own religion,
I don't have time to change his mind,
He'll make his own decision.
Don't bother me with that little girl,
The girl playing in the streets,
She's much to young to understand,
That her savior she could meet.
Don't bother me with the sounds I hear,
The sounds of people shrieking,
Although I wonder who they are,
Who are these victims screaming?
Don't bother me with who they are,
I really don't want the blame,
Cuz' it's my friend at work,
And that little girl...
Who from HELL... Scream out my name.'
This poem just cuts me deep. It's made to make you think. To make you weep.
Does anyone KNOW what it's like to lay in the dark and CRY for souls? I finally do. This world wants people to think that it doesn't need a savior... so why? WHY DO I HEAR THE WORLD CRYING OUT FOR ONE EVERYDAY?!
Why am I sitting here comfortably in this house, in this country, when there are cries coming out from around the world. People are dying for their faith, people are committing suicide, people are crying, hurting, bleeding.
And we wonder what's happening on the football game.
I am accusing nobody in particular. I just have to look at myself and see the lifestyle I live to know something is terribly wrong. I needed this wake up call from the Lord.
I prayed for 2 hours last night to have mercy on me for the ignorance I have been living in. To forgive me and my friends of our trespasses. I groveled at his feet crying and weeping and trembling, because there is nobody in this world who shall be able to stand in front of him.
I am a sinner, saved by the grace of God.
I could of died in 2007 and gone to hell. I know I would of, having biblical knowledge, and good works only won't get you to heaven.
It's a heart condition. I finally gave it all up. If the Lord told me to go to Africa right now to be a sunday school teacher or to start a women's group I would. My life I have given to him, and now I understand. After a year since my return tot he Lord. he has revealed to me his great commission. Made me finally understand a sliver of the pain he must of felt on that cross. I can hardly bear a sliver, anyone who was given the burden the Lord had would die from the agony.
"Take my life and let it be consecrated Lord to Thee."
He's in control now.
He's my first love
The Lord will not have second place, he wants first in your life.
He's the greatest love there is, and more fearful with wrath.
Thank you all,
Esther
P.S. I am rewriting the 4 chapters that I have completed in my book already, i felt that my current version reflected less emotion than than the impact I wanted, but now that I know the pain and worry that God granted me to feel.
I will make this book, make you feel it too.
He edited my piano song fleeting memories sound file and removed all background sounds, to make it sound professional, then he added rain and thunder sounds into the background.... and after all that he whispered sweet things into my melody.... <3.
So I fell asleep last night hearing the love of my life tell me he loved me through that song, and I woke up to the his text message and that song still playing over and over again (aren't ipods the best).
So this morning I got on and decided to share my happy moment. Because I have never had anyone do that anything so sweet for me before and the fact that he just randomly thought about doing that after we got off the phone saturday night astounds me and makes me feel all cute and cuddly.
THANK YOU PHILIP!!!!!!!!!!!!
I LOVE YOU SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH!!!!!!!
Love your star,
Esther
Album: Goodnough Homecoming Reunion 2008
It was a blast I don't think I can stress that enough! Everything from being an official for the "Goodnough Olympics" to beating my cousin Tyler with a foam baseball bat for being perverted. Yes it was great getting together with my main cousin also. Vanessa, Krysten, Jared, Tyler, Brett, Jordan, Aaron, Cameron, Nathan, Bryson, Abbigail everyone was there! I mostly hung out with Jared, Tyler, Vanessa and Krysten, but it was worth it.
One thing for sure is that my family is one of the most important things to me! Alot of the Goodnough family isn't saved and alot of them are very much against Christianity. We had a small gathering of about maybe 10 people for Sunday sercive of singing and sharing. But the family that was there ... wow, prayer time and sharing had such a huge impact, I started crying after thanking them all for being there and giving me tough love when I needed it back then. My Aunty Jana gave me this huge hug after, and I hadn't really spent much time with her, but it felt amazing!
Sadly my cousin Jared, Brett and Tyler are not Christians, and I pray that someday they will be, because I really can't think about them burning in hell forever, it's such a horrifying thought! I did however have a good debate with Tyler about it and made him think. I will be spending a good amount of time with them when I go for Hannah's operation in a couple months. So I hope that it will used for God's glory. I know that my cousin Jared is very open so maybe God will touch his heart.
Well i hope you enjoy the pictures of this fun event in my life!
Love,
Esther
By: Esther Goodnough
Life. Love. Friends. Family.
God
Girls/Boys, I know that in this day and age depression is rampant among us.
How do I know?
I am an ex-suicidist.
My testimony is one of alot of pain and tears.
I would change my past, but at the same time not.
Because it's made me the person I am today.
Thanks be to the Lord!
I was driven to write this up because I've been burdened to tell you that there is hope.
This world is a cruel place to have to live in.
Full of questions?
Scared?
Insecure?
Abused?
Alone?
I thought I was too.
~*~
I was 5 years old when I started having encounters with demons.
When I was young my best friends lived right down the street from me.
I spent most of my time there and everything was fine for awhile.
Finally my friend and I would start having visions,
Seeing faces in the dark,
Voices, drumming, figures, triangles,
They would sleepwalk with their eyes rolled back,
Muttering, unexplainable lights, blood dripping from walls.
Laughter.
Of course at first our parents wouldn't believe us
We were kids after all out imaginations were quite active.
But one summer before they moved out of that house...
Their father was knocking down walls in their house to build a new room.
and he found items of witchcraft.
Oujia Boards, Tarot Cards, Pendants.
That was the step that changed my life forever.
I would always have nightmares to the point that by the age of 7.
Bitterness. Extreme Anger. Morbidity.
Was already slowly peeping through in my life.
Selfishness was a prominent feature, as I always thought about myself.
My Family though was a strong christian one.
My Father was an ex-pastor type figure,
He tried guiding me through my hard times but of course I was to rebellious.
I already believed I was a Christian because my parents were!
But thanks to their instruction I still had a mind of what to cross and what not too.
Anyways from 12-15 I found my outlets.
Music. Art. Blood. Boys.
My MUSIC was mostly heavy screamo rock.
I had discovered a beautiful ART called Mangaka.
But I twisted it to fit my demonic needs and fulfill my violent tendencies.
I didn't want my parents to know my mind, but they could tell through my drawings that there was a problem.
Around the age of 13-14.
I was losing my best friends.
I had 3 of them and they were all leaving me.
I know it was because of who I was becoming,
But even my 2 friends that experienced everything I had with were leaving me.
They were strong Christians and they didn't want to get involved back and dwell with me on the past.
They had their own scars.
That's when BLOOD and BOYS came in.
I would slash my arms usually by the shoulders.
My Wrists were only if I was too rebellious to care about what my parents thought.
I eventually came to that stage and I let the scars show with pride.
I found the pain relieving cuz' it relieved the fear and pain of my heart.
My tears wouldn't cease to flow, I mostly cried myself to sleep through those years.
That's when I started to seek help in other people besides my family.
That's were the BOYS came in.
I grew bitter towards family and the good crowd of people.
I hated it because I always felt like I was being compared to them.
So I started turning to the guys that came into my life.
But even to them I was cold.
I guess you could call me a user?
I still to this day feel bad for the things I have done to those poor souls.
Playing with hearts whether singularly of in groups isn't a great idea.
I can give thanks to the Lord though that I never gave myself to them.
God kept me from crossing that line thankfully.
I never lost my first anything.
I had one friend from my past experiences who was still praying fervently for me.
She saw the people coming into my life and she saw me in desperation latching unto them.
The feelings, were fake, after a week or two I would end up feeling more and more...
EMPTY.
So I ended things, probably for the best?
I know people were already telling my mom and dad that I was going to end up on a street-corner.
My relationship with my parents was going down the drain.
My mom was the most out-reaching to me, my dad I believe just got tired of telling me what to do.
She helped me come around once in awhile but again no heart change had occured.
I remember telling her.
"I'll finish school with top grades, stay out of your way, and move out when I finish... and in exchange... STAY OUT OF MY LIFE!"
By 15 I was unreachable by any family member.
I made my rebelliousness known more and more.
My family kept their children from me... I really was a train-wreck, and a scary character by that time.
I had nobody to turn to any more.
I had "hit-rock-bottom" as they say.
Death was always on my mind.
I wanted it.
I breathed it.
Dreamt it.
Tasted it.
I had already tried to commit suicide a couple times.
I couldn't bring myself to stab myself.
Hanging? The rope broke.
I just couldn't seem to do it just yet but I was planning to do it during the start of 2007.
Coincidentally Mom and Dad decided to send me to Camp Chill-Out 2007.
It was a Christian camp, they thought it would be a good thing, since I had been there the year before.
But already the lights that were in my life were turning out so I decided to go.
After all I could see my friends again, say good-bye and then go home and die right?
Well I got to see my friends again. Nathan. David. Josiah.
I even made some new ones, Philip and Daniel.
Something strange happened though.
My friend Philip had so much in common with me.
Not in the morbidity or depressed area, but I connected with him so easily.
We did everything together, talked and he got me to open up so fast.
We were fast friends!
One that I didn't want to lose of hurt.
So we all said good-bye and went our separate ways.
I missed them all so much... which I thought was odd.
I never felt that sensation for quite awhile.
I decided NOT to die just yet, I wanted to see what would happen.
Nathan, Philip, and I were best friends.
But there was something about Philip that made me think about my life more and more.
But I didn't want to do anything because there was this guy that everyone thought I would end up with.
His name was Trevor.
I had liked him for 7 years but there was something about him that made me depressed.
He would act like he liked me but then he would disappear for a year or two and I would think I got over him.
But when he came around I would always fall for him.
This darkened my heart more and more because it broke me inside.
I felt even more worthless.
So I did something I hadn't done in a LONG time.
I prayed to the Lord.
My life was slowly mending but I knew that I couldn't hold it together by myself.
I mean just look at what I had done with my life already!
I told him to take my life, and do what he wanted with it.
I was tired of controlling it, it led me to hatred and fear.
I asked him to take away the pain and the doubt and to help me get my life back on track.
I didn't want to hurt anyone anymore.
I remember telling Philip one time on the phone how much I wanted to die.
All the small problems that I looked at being so big, everyone leaving me.
He told me that he and Nathan cared about me, my parents cared about me, my family.
I was just being selfish.
I was kind of like WoW.
I know now that he was right.
I was being 100% selfish.
Always thinking about my pain, but not thinking about the pain I was causing people!
I was hurting everyone acting the way I did.
I realized that THEY LOVED ME. I just didn't make the feeling mutual!
I was killing them all inside slowly with the pain I was causing.
Seeing my mom cry to me.
Seeing my dad telling me he still was there for me.
Grandpa encouraging me in the Lord and witnessing to me.
Aunts and Uncles saying cutting things just to try and get something in my stubborn head.
It was all LOVE!
The lights started turning on again in my life.
I was getting over Trevor.
I was becoming stronger.
The Lord was removing the pain and heartache.
The bitterness slowly receded.
School went even better.
I was making good friendships!
My family life got easier.
But most of all.
I WAS "LOOKING UNTO JESUS the AUTHOR AND FINISHER OF OUR FAITH!"
He was living in my life, and I knew that even through trials and Tribulations.
He would always be there to help me through them as long as I looked towards him and not away.
My tears have stopped flowing.
My scars have disappeared.
I have learned to love.
As for Nathan, Philip, and me?
We are still a trio of best Friends we all have gone through our hard times.
But been there for each other.
God used them to help turn on the lights and bring me back.
Philip and me?
We are currently together and have been for a year.
Courting... and looking to the Lord.
Marriage our ultimate goal.
We've gone through alot of doubt, but I guess I just needed to relearn how to trust.
He's never broken it and even though we live far from each other.
God has made it bearable and wonderful.
My Family and I?
Life is great, there are no scars from those times with any of us.
We are open and truthful about everything and my parents are amazingly supportive.
We do street ministry together.
We are a FAMILY once again.
Me and God?
Forever and ever!
He will always be my master.
He's changed my life around and made my life into something beautiful.
My Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ.
I know he lives and he's real.
For he lives in my heart.
(>.<)<3
We lost Hub-caps on a road to Balfour, saw fire-works in Nelson B.C, collected shells at Vancouver Beach B.C (west), shopped at Metro-town, got hyper in Surrey, got praised on my music skills in Edmonton AB, and got snowed on in Barkerville.... wonderful eh?
Anyways my family and I had a great time we have brought my cousin down to live with us for 2 months this summer his name is Alvir and I have to keep him company.
I have gotten into Beading a ton! And have finished 2 necklaces. I have no clue what I am going to do with them right now, I am thinking of sending one to my other mom Mrs. R because she taught me how to bead, and use the crimpers to make them look professional.
I will be starting college next year for Teaching English and taking courses on Sport Photography. I have been sewing too, scrap-booking, and other little hobbies to keep my mind busy, because school doesn't do enough of it.
I was rushed to the Hospital last night because of SEVERE stomach pain and although I am feeling a little bit subdued now I was feeling like dying yesterday. But like always they just hopped me up on meds and told me to go. I got angry I have been having this problem for the past 3 1/2 years and they haven't done a thing so mom might be taking me to a specialist and/or taking me to Edmonton when we get there.
So that is pretty much a quick over-view of what has been happening.
Much Love,
Esther
Sharing a picture from the "Land of Living Skies"My family has been rather stressed and uptight lately, i think mostly because of work, not enough family time, Hannah's operation coming up and getting that organized. I know I have been stressed because of the fact that I'm quiting work and trying to start my own free-lance photography business... and just plain life. Lately it's been a little harder, since everyone is stressed I am slightly stressed also, although I can still control my actions, and what I say. But as custom in my family, they get a bit louder at... ME... or course because who else is there? Mom and Dad never get grumpy at each-other, and hardly at Hannah since they worry about her tons, so I am the only logical person to vent their annoyance on. Which is okay because I understand why and where they are coming on. Just everyone has been a tad bit more demanding.
So yeah that is why I KNOW that this vacation will be a good thing for my family. Maybe we'll be able to "relax" or get something that can fool us to think we're relaxing... that could work too!
Ahhhhhh another horrible thing I have JUST remembered! I will not be able to pack my BIG suitcase... you know those roll-a-way suitcases? How there can be up to four sizes? Small, Medium, Large, and Extra Large? Well I am ONLY allowed to take the medium and the carry-on bag that matches it.... yeah I know what is a girl like me supposed to do when I usually HAVE to bring my large one for just a couple of days!? All I know is I have to compromise and bring very little extra items and just CLOTHES, HYGIENICS, and Other small random needs. and STUFF them all into this small medium bag. (-.-) the reason why I have to pack so little is that Dad and Mom wanna do a little camping... yeah wonderful. I'll be staying at Philip's house during their lovely outdoor experience. and also we are bringing my Cousin Alvir back with us from Vancouver. So it's ALLLLLLL good right? Just watch him pack a BIG bag.... (-.-) lol no I will not be jealous at all.......
I haven't seen my cousin alvir in 3 years, but my excitement is running through my veins. I was basically raised with this kid, because my mom and dad took him in when there were some family problems and he lived with us for 4 years. So we basically consider eachother brother and sister! So I can totally beat him up if he brings a bigger bag (^.^) jk.... I think....
Well Much love,
Esther
I MUST tell the story of how we got there and what happened in the process of this mess.
So prepare yourself for a giggle or two,
or if you are prone to laugh out loud at small things
you'll find this about as hilarious as I did.
My Hilarious Photo-shoot
Alright so my friend Kayla and I have been planning me to do her grad pictures for the longest time, actually since the start of her school year of being in 12th grade! I am a freelance photographer striving to go professional after school so we finally decided on this yesterday that we were going to get them done even though it was month before her grad, but she'd be two busy in June and so would I.
So first on the docket was that i was going to do her hair. She wanted me to curl it... I was like 'Sure this shouldn't be a problem, I work with curly hair all the time.' (Since my own hair is VERY curly). So she sits down after washing and drying her hair, I found out to me great disappointment that her hair is as flat as i was from before we washed it. I mean seriously! Her hair was so straight that even after getting it wet it didn't fluff in the least. So I tried mousse 3 different kinds! NOTHING so I grab my hair curler.... which took a great deal to find because I never use it, and I try to curl her hair, which doesn't work because her hair is just really that flat. So I use my last resort... (Me being dumb in the ways of making salon strong curls) I SOAKED her hair in hairspray and commenced to curling her hair. (-.-) yeah I know now that what I did was wrong. I just glad her hair didn't start on fire, even though it was smoking and sizzling from the hairspray. To no avail, I just could do it. The side and the back look O-KAY-ISH but it really, really sucked.
But Kayla was not let down she and I got ready to go the city, resolving that we were going to make a hair appointment at a salon in the mall for her to get her hair down for these pictures. Okay so mom loaded up the car with my cousin me and my sister and kayla and we were off to the city!
Mom dropped us off at Midtown Plaza (So far the biggest mall in Saskatoon) and we got busy. We went straight to the hair salon there and around that time it was 2:30, her hair appointment was to be at 3:45! Yeah alot of wasted time indeed! So I went to Arby's to get a large curly fries and Kayla and I then went to booster juice.... but now if anyone knows Kayla they would have to agree with me that she has a punkish sense of style. yes she is one of my best friends but she's kind of a darker character. BUT extremely perky and cheerful and random, thus I love her to bits. So she got the dirtiest looks of them all when we went into stores and the hair salon especially.
Anyways we blew the time away and she was taken in for her hair appointment. It being a spa I just kind of sat in the chair next to her till I heard a voice go. "Hi, do you want a tour of the spa?" It was an EXTREMELY feminine voice so I turned around and there was this guy... Yes I know he was gay. But I smiled and said "Sure" So he cheerfully showed me around the spa, even though I myself was a hilarious looking creature at the time... my big backpack with my camera's in it and tripod and all. He was an extremely enjoyable character, maybe because he was happy through everything it made we feel at ease.
(I know alot of people would be like "WHY WOULD YOU ASSOCIATE WITH SUCH A THING?!" I would just have to say "Because Jesus died for him too. You break one of God's commandemts you break them all it doesn't matter what it is one is no better than the other, I'm the Christian he isn't, I have to show God's love because only God can judge him, I have to be careful but it doesn't hurt to witness)
Anyways so he was going on about different things like aroma therapy and was letting me smell all the smells to "relax" and he took me through the massage area and the waiting room with like 5 big screen T.V's and asked me what I was doing there today. So I told him "Oh I'm a freelance photographer and I am taking pics of my friend for her grad." and he was like "WOW... THAT IS LIKE SO COOL! Do you have you're own business I should get you to take pictures of me!" I was like "o.....k....." and I gave him my card.
By that time Kayla was done her hair appointment and it was 4:42 in the afternoon. She then shanged into her grad gown.... surprising EVERYONE with her beauty. Which I always knew was there, I mean she took the hair-stylists by surprise. There was not one closed mouth in that studio. So we paid and left ... but now the fun part. We had to WALK through the mall to get the washrooms so that she could put on her make-up and earrings for the shoot. So here we were, (prince charming) is what she called me and (cinderella with a red and black dress) which was Kayla walking through the mall hand in hand skipping.... I was DYING of laughter and couldn't stand up straight so as we were skip/walking hand in hand through the mall of people who were staring at us incrediously, I was barely standing up because of laughter, which made other people look all the more. We got to the bathroom, I'm still shaking because of the fun I just had... (I was NOT embarrassed whatsoever, I thought it was fun) she puts on her make-up and stuff and we head back THROUGH the mall to get the doors that will take us 4 blocks to get to the park but before we reached the doors, this girl comes running up and says "Can i take a picture of you going through the mall like that?!" So we pose for a pic and start our four blocked journey... four blocks of walking DOWN-TOWN like this... that was even funnier, people were like "Hurry. hurry, you'll be late for the ball!" Kayla and I just laughed it off and finally reached the park... and here are the pictures from the park after that BUSY BUSY day!












There are some things that I would like to bring up. Good news and bad news, I will start with the good news first since that is always a good thing... I think.
My family and I decided to take a family vacation this year. And trust me we need it so very much. Considering (some of the bad news) things aren't looking to brightly upon us for this year. I have grown very strong needless to say in these past months preparing myself for what might and might not happen.
Also Philip came for a visit which also broke alot of the stress and tension I was feeling. He's a very wonderful young man. And it was refreshing to see and talk to him in person about these issues since they had been bugging me for quite awhile.
Alright... well the bad news is..... My little sister Hannah is going for her second open heart surgery this year in either August or September. God has been wonderful to us and she's been such a blessing... but things are yet again not looking to brightly upon us. With this upcoming surgery she's also not expected much life expectancy so we are bracing ourselves for the worst but yet leaving it all the Lord's hands. "The Lord giveth and the Lord taketh away."
My mom is the one I am most worried about I mean we are all hurting and worried but my mom I think will have the worst of it in worry attacks... she keeps telling me that she tries to put away the 'what ifs' from her mind but it just doesn't seem to work. And she randomly sits and starts crying over her Bible... lately the Crying attack have been getting lesser as she braces herself but I know it's really hard on her and I don't know what I am going to do after if things don't go that well... I might head to Langley.
I am thinking of asking a special someone to come and be there for my mom at the hospital during the operation because my mom is going to need a Christian woman there for her to cry too, I know she had such a hard time last time even though my daddy was there, she'll still cry whether or not the operation goes well. But I will ask the question at the appropriate time. I am willing to even go so far as to pay the way for her stay. But I know she has a busy household of her own.
I am trying to stay optimistic. But circumstances keep coming up that crash them down... I really just don't know what to say about the subject anymore. (I usually can think of stuff to say to keep people going) but in this case even I will be at a loss for words, much less breath.
I would appreciate prayers and love,
Love,
Esther
The Depravity of Our World Today
By: Esther Goodnough
Today I had an elderly lady look at me and ask “How did you turn out so morally secure? Our youth of today are so vulgar.” I sat down sober, and slightly depressed to think about this comment. I’ve thought about this before but never to this extent, society as a whole accepting the way these “people of tomorrow” are turning out. Are you adults really okay with the rebelliousness, drugs, sex, and violence that is being promoted by magazines, television and society?!
I am a 16yr. old girl and I can already pin-point the fall of my youth around me. We are slowly being sucked into the trap of this mainstream. Nowadays it’s OKAY to have a baby at 16, it’s OKAY to throw away your decency in public, it’s OKAY to swear, it’s OKAY to have fornication (sexual impurity before marriage), it’s OKAY to do drugs to fit in, it’s OKAY to take Jesus’ name in vain! What a sad world we are now living in! Our fore-fathers would weep! Prayers are being kept our of our schools, people want to take the name of God out of our national anthems. Atheism is rampant because the schools teach evolution which has been proven in so many ways wrong in the past. Children today aren’t given any hope, they aren’t given any heart or purpose if they were born as parasites that came from nothing. They aren’t told that they were formed in God’s image.
The government is corrupt and family break-ups are tearing children up inside, half the time because their parents are too selfish to pull it together. I am sick of this society, but I cannot do anything about it. The Bible says that the world will slowly fall more and more till the rapture and the Lord’s 1000 year reign. Christianity is attacked with such force that it’s producing so many false converts.
I want a real church, with a real Bible, that preaches about a literal Hell. I want a church that will show you the law of Christ so that it will pierce the heart of all us lazy Christians. I want to see the men of these churches step up and take their positions as head of the households, and I wish for the women to back-down and HONOUR their husbands like the Bible says. I want to become like Paul and Silas the two men who turned the world upside-down. I want the youth of today to stop and think about eternity. I want hypocrisy to stop and for the “Christian” youth to get out there and witness to a dying world! I want this fantasy world of being able to do everything without the Lord to get a reality-check soon. But I know they won’t. This world will fall and crumble in the wrath of God and there is nothing we can do about it. It has already been prophesied about in that precious book the BIBLE.
“He that overcometh shall inherit the all things: and I will be his God, and he shall be my son.
But the fearful, and unbelieving, and the abominable, and murderers, and horemongers, and sorcerers, and idolaters, and all liars, shall have their part in the lake which burneth with fire and brimstone: which is the second death.”
Revelation 21: 7-8
That should be a fearful verse for anybody. But of course nobody wants to take God’s word seriously, it’s all “fairytales” for them. The God of the old testament was a judge, that didn’t tolerate evil. And you know what? He is still that way. He will throw you into that
I have some questions to ask you. I am just as guilty as these as you are. We break one commandment we break them all. This is going to judge you by the law.
- Have you ever told a lie? Yes
What does that make you? A Liar.
- Have you ever stolen something? Yes
What does that make you? A Thief
- Have you ever lusted after someone? Yes
What does that make you? An Adulterer
So by your own admission you are a: lying, thieving, adulterer at heart and you will have to face God on judgment day with Guilty scrolled across your forehead. And he will have no choice but to send you to hell, because he is a good judge.
[To be continued]
May 2 and 3rd
Confederation Inn
3330 Fairlight Drive
Saskatoon, SK S7M 3Y4
Ph: 1-800-265-3358
or: 1-306-384-2882
Website Link (Click it): Discerning the Times
Speakers
Dr. Rob Lindsted: Author, engineering professor turned missionary, Bible teacher, and principal of a large Christian Academy. His passion for Bible Truth and missions takes Milk and Honey Ministries to Asia, the Amazon, and more, reaching orphans and street children for Christ.
John Plantz: John Plantz represents FOI Gospel Ministry, a Canadian ministry working in fellowship with the Friends of Israel Gospel Ministry. The Friends of Israel is a worldwide Christian organization communicating biblical truth about Isreal and the Messiah, while fostering solidarity with Jewish people. John resides in Manitoba and ministers primarily in Manitoba and eastern Saskatchewan.
Dave Dunn: Dave teaches as an adjunct professor while serving as the Alberta Director of Bridges for Peace. Dave served for seven years as the President of Creation Science of Saskatchewan (CSSI). He is a frequent traveler to Israel and is a permanent member of the Ramat Rahel Archaeological Expedition in Israel which will see it's fourth consecutive year of excavating take place in July and August this summer. Dave is a frequent speaker in churches, camps, and conferences, most often speaking on Israel and Prophecy. He and his wife Patricia have been married for forty years and have three daughters. They continue to reside in Three Hills.
Warren Smith: Warren Smith (B.A., University of Pennsylvania, M.S.W., Tulane University) is a freelance writer who was formerly involved in the New Age movement. He has written extensively on the subject of spiritual deception and he has been widely interviewed on radio and television. His books include The Light that was Dark: From New Age to Amazing Grace, Deceived on Purpose: The New Age Implications of the Purpose-Driven Church, and Reinventing Jesus Christ: The New Gospel.
Schedule
Friday, May 2nd
9:00 am - John Plantz "Doctrine of G-D's Attributes"
10:00 am - Break
10:15 am - Dave Dunn "Assault on the Foundation of Truth"
11:15 am - Break
11:30 am - Rob Lindsted "Alignment in the Middle East and Bible Predictions"
12:30 pm - Noon Break
1:30 pm - Warren Smith "From the New Age to Amazing Grace"
2:30 pm - Break
2:45 pm - John Plantz "Covenants of G-D and Israel"
3:45 pm - Break
4:00 pm - Dave Dunn "The Assault on the Guardians of Truth"
5:00 pm - Supper Break
6:30 pm - Warren Smith "Deceived on Purpose"
7:30 pm - Break
7:45 pm - Rob Lindsted "Will Islam Survive?"
8:45 pm - Wrap Up
9:00 am - Dave Dunn "Assault on the Pillar and Ground of Truth"
10:00 am - Break
10:15 am - John Plantz "False Prophets/False Prophecies"
11:15 am - Break
11:30 am - Rob Lindsted "Rapture of the Church - Myth or Fact"
12:30 pm - Lunch Break
1:30 pm - Warren Smith "Reinventing Jesus Christ"
2:30 pm - Break
2:45 pm - Dave Dunn "The Assault of the Incarnation of Truth"
3:45 pm - Break
4:00 pm - Questions and Answers
5:00 pm - Supper Break
6:30 pm - Rob Lindsted "Taking the Good news to a Lost World"
7:30 pm - Wrap Up
It is our purpose to awaken the brethren and to look to Ephesians 4: 12-15 as our function and mission.
'For the perfecting of the saints, for the work of the ministry, for the edifying of the body of Christ; till we all come in the unity of the faith, and of the knowledge of the Son of God, unto a perfect man, unto the measure of the stature of the fullness of Christ: that we henceforth be no more children, tossed to and fro, and carried about with every wind of doctrine, by the sleight of men, and cunning craftiness, whereby they lie in wait to deceive; But speaking the truth in love, may grow up into him in all things, which is the head, even Christ.'
'This know also, in the last days perilous times shall come. For men shall be lovers of their own selves, covetous, boasters, proud, blasphemers, disobedient to parents, unthankful, unholy, without natural affection, trucebreakers, false accusers, incontinent (lack of self control), fierce, despisers of those that are good, traitors, heady, high minded, lovers of pleasure more than lovers of God; having a form of godliness, but denying the power thereof: from such turn away.' II Timothy 3:1-5
Several like-minded ministries hold these conferences with the intent to warn the body of Christ of the deception that is creeping in with very little resistance.
These Speakers will deal with the roots of these moves and ultimate consequences of following them.
There will be a free will offering during the conference and we trust our Lord and Savious to supply our every need.
Ted Goodnough can be reached by phone at 1-306-531-4733 - Email: Tedg@shaw.ca
* Extra
Theme: John 8:32B "and the truth shall make you free."
Conference will be recorded on CD and DVD.
We have reserved 20 rooms at the Confederation Inn for $75/Single or $80/Double per night. Call 1-800-265-3358. Advise the Hotel that you are with the conference.
- We believe in One God, who exists in three persons.
Deuteronomy 6:4 and I John 5:7 - We believe that salvation comes by faith alone in the Lord Jesus Christ.
Ephesians 2:8-9 / Romans 3:28 - We believe that Jesus is the only mediator between God and man.
I Timothy 2:5 - We believe that the Bible (as found in the Greek Textus Receptus - New Testament and the Hebrew Masoretic Text - Old Testament) is the complete inerrant Word of God. It is the final and only authority of God’s truth. The Bible is to be interpreted literally, not allegorically.
I Timothy 3:16 / Proverbs 30:5 / Matthew 5:18 / Psalms 12:6-7 - We believe that the Church will be removed by the rapture before the tribulation begins.
I Thessalonians 4:16-17 - This is followed by a seven year tribulation period.
Jeremiah 30:7 - Jesus Christ will return at the end of the tribulation period and set up a literal 1000 year kingdom.
Matthew 24:30 / Revelation 20:6 - Those who die in their sins will be judged at the Great White Throne of judgment and face eternal ****ation in the lake of fire.
Revelation 20:15 - Those who receive Jesus as their Lord and Saviour will spend eternity with the Lord in paradise.
John 6:47 / Revelation 21: 1-4 - We believe in the eternal security of the believer.
John 10:28
I personally am very excited for this event. Something I look forward to. All the Passages are from the Authorized King James Version of the Bible that we believe to be God's Holy preserved word of God. Messages will also be preached for this version of the Bible.
There will be book stands that the speakers and the Goodnough Family will be holding during this conference if you are looking to add good reading material to your library.
Special Appearances will Include the : Ong Family, Angelica and Matthew Guigon with guest Esther Goodnough, and singing with Esther Goodnough.
Luncheon and Supper will not be covered. But there is a Buffet right in the hotel where the conference will take place were you and your family may eat from prices are unknown at this point in time.
God Bless,
Esther Goodnough
AND
Family
By: Esther Goodnough
This portion of scripture sums up the Hebrew ideal of honorable womanhood, to be secure in the home where God is obeyed. This woman is someone her husband can trust without a doubt, someone who will do him good not evil. This woman worketh willingly with her hands for the good of her household. She gives to the needy and weak. She keeps her family clothed and warm in the cold times.
I like looking at Verses 25-30.
"Strength and honour are her clothing; and she shall rejoice in the time to come."
" She openeth her mouth with wisdom; and in her tongue is the law of kindness."
"She looketh well to the ways of her household; and eateth not the bread of idleness."
"Her children rise up, and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praiseth her."
"Many daughters have done virtuously, but thou excellest them all."
"Favour is deceitful, and beauty is vain: but a woman that feareth the Lord, she shall be praised."
Yes this passage of scripture would no doubt trouble the little world of Women's Liberalism. I am by no chance one of them.
So After reading all these wonderful and inspiring verses I decided to look up more on Women's submission. Our mission is to honour the Lord and to submit to the leader of our household. Whether we be married or single with father. Our mission is to serve and submit.
I think of 1 Chorinthians 14: 34-35:
"Let your women keep silence in the churches: For it is not permitted unto them to speak, but they are commanded to be under obedience, as also saith the law."
"And if they will learn anything, let them ask their husbands: for it is a shame for women to speak in the church."
I remember a girl telling me once. "Paul was just one big female demeaning pig! I will speak out in church and become a pastor just to prove him wrong. Us women can preach just as well as the men, sometimes we are even more on fire for the Lord." But I just couldn't agree with her. The reason why most women "THINK" they are more on fire for the Lord is because we are moving the men down to a level were we don't render control to them, to don't give them their due respect, so of course they aren't doing to be all gang-ho about your on fire-ness.
Women's Liberation Movement is not helping the Bible in any way. They are removing the role of the man and putting women in the higher power. Nowadays women work just as much as the men, same pay, most don't want to stay at home with their family because they think they are better and can do better than the man. I know quite a few girls my age who don't want to get married because they think that men are good for nothing organisms that are a mistake on this earth, and don't want to get stuck with having to get a divorce in the future, so they fornicate and have "common law marriages" which is completely against God's law.
I know young girls who dress like sluts and then turn around and call men pigs because the guys lust after them. Actually I would have to put women in the perspective of reasoning of why our generation has fallen so much. I think back to the early 19 centuries and earlier. Women wore full length dresses up to their ankles and their collars to their upper necks and they were way less rapes and harassments as there is now!
Women lowered their worth so men lowered their worth too. Girls nowadays all just want the excitement of relationships. They don't want the responsibility. They are becoming dominant and biggoted. Whether or not girls want to admit it or not. We all know what will start up a guy to lust after us. Whether or not we want to admit it, we enjoy hearing "Oh _________, _________ is checking you out!" So we wear less and less, and the guys fall more and more. I really don't want to be responsible for the fall of men, I don't want to be accused of being a stumbling block. The Bible does say "Whosoever looketh upon a woman to lust after her, hath commited adultery already with her in his heart." Why try God's wrath? Is that really something we want to be accused of on judgement day?
Modesty is a precious thing. My friend Angelica and I always talk about how precious it is too keep ourselves pure till we are married. We both think how much we will be treasured by whoever we marry because they will be the only ones to hear us say "I love you" too. How when we say out heart is yours we mean it because it hasn't been given to 100's of others. How every little thing will truly be HIS and HIS only. We talk about how happiness in relationships can only truly be found if the Lord our God is in control, guiding us and strengthening us to be strong for eachother. I have heard the sad stories the heart broken cries. Girls who gave themselves away only for the guy to turn around and say... "whatever" In the end, every woman wants a MAN and every man wants a WOMAN. But nobody wants to wait.
I read a Book called "Stay in the Castle" pretty much a true story. It's only a small pamphlet. But it has a very good point, it's about a princess who lives in a huge castle with her father and a few servants. She's been told by her loving father that a prince from a distant country has been promised to her and she must prepare herself for this prince just like he is preparing himself for her. She's never met this boy. But after a few years the dream grows distant and she longs for the "happiness" of the people she hear from the village, during their evening parties, she thinks that, that must be living. Why dream for something that might never come... those people are living NOW! One day a young man from the village comes to deliver something and she answers the door. Needless to say she sneaks out of the castle with him and sees the "life" of the villagers and wants to be a part of the gaiety and pleasure. She then confronts her father (who already knew of her outings) and announces that she will be marrying that village boy. The father lets her go.
The Story then changes to a a few months later. The princess in pregnant and her village husband is drunk laying in a corner. She goes outside to clean and sees a galant figure of a man riding down the road towards her old home the castle. Her heart quickens as he speeds towards the castle. His character makes her stand in awe as he knocks on the castle door and her father opens it. There is no audible dialog between the two but the father points towards her home and shakes his head. The Young prince then hangs his head and dispair and catches her glancing at him. They stare at each-other for a short moment, and he gets on his horse and rides sadly away. She is left with no home, no love, and no hope.
Sadly this is the story of most young girls. We all want a prince but don't want the wait. We want to "live" now we don't want to know the joy of the future.
I say sadly as a young woman who loves my friends who have been hurt by this experience, that the choices you make now WILL affect your future. We all want a prince, we want someone who will see past out exterior and into our interior. Most of the time we are selfish. My Mama tells me. "For every man there is one woman, and for every woman one man." doesn't it scar you thinking that you gave yourself to someone else's future husband?
Being a pure, holy, unblemished young woman is nothing to be ashamed about. I am ashamed of the girls my age who have given everything away and flaunted it in my face. But I don't envy them in any way. Because I know that MY prince would be happier knowing that I am that way, and that everything that I have will he his.
I WANT to be a woman that my future husband can say is worth more than rubies and that God can agree with. I WILL be a woman who fears the Lord. And even if you have failed in that department. The Lord would be more than happy to pick you up and dust you off. Because if you are a christian, You are a child of the King.
Esther Goodnough
Well I absolutely LOVE books.
I Actually have a LIBRARY of around 450-500 Books.
Any young - teen- adult - or senior would love to browse my library alone.
I collect anything from Bibles, Childrens, Series, Knowledge, Shakespeare, Bunyan, (etc.)
My Father has many more books than me but I want to point out a few of my favorites.
I think that books are the biggest impact of people's minds... at least on mine, and I have to be more careful with books than with anything else because they are what influence me.
I am against Romance, Sci-fi, Witchcraft.
But anyway here is my books list.
2.) God Doesn't Believe in Athiests - Ray Comfort
3.) What Hollywood Believes - Ray Comfort
4.) I Kissed Dating Goodbye - Joshua Harris
5.) Boy Meets Girl - Joshua Harris
6.) Christian Modesty and the Public Undressing of America - Jeff Poland
7.) Bible Answers For Every Need - Barbour Publishers
8.) To Be His Help-meet - Debi Pearl
9.) Martyrs Mirror
10.) The Complete Works of Sherlock Holmes - Authur Conan Doyle
11.) Pilgrims Progress - John Bunyan
12.) Holy War - John Bunyan
(Will add more)
Obviously God's will was for them not to win, but I know that this experience is something that they will always remember and treasure. It'll prepare them for if they ever decide to pursue curling in the Olympic area. They have worked hard and learned and I am so proud of them! I hope that they will find what is right for them to follow and that they will take this as a milestone in their life. Not everyone gets to go to those games, it was hard work getting there, and an honor to participate much less just watch right?
Anyways I scouted out all the pictures I could find from the opening ceremony to the games because the closing ceremony pictures aren't posted up yet. But I will post up the Pictures of them.
May they keep their spirits up and move on to a bright future!

(At the Games)

(Opening Ceremony)

(Before The Action)





(Curling)


Actually all this weekend I was freaking out because I didn't know what was going on at the games and at first I could not figure out what the website was saying regarding the results. But I finally figured them out! (Smart me?) (^.^) I felt for them but you know what. I will always cheer them on! Through tense times indeed... I even dreamed about curling okay?! I didn't get anything telling me how they did and there were a few newscasts about it but nothing that really showed me how they did and then I found a blog place that kept me informed some but of course it's nothing like hearing it from philip's own mouth and I can hardly wait.
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Esther!
Alot of things have been going on lately! I quit my job at Timmies, (Lone reason) And I have a stomach checkup on Monday! I have no clue what they are going to do, but I heard that they are going to shove a tube down my throat! Ugh! Also Philip is at the Bc Winter Games Going for the gold in curling with his team! I WISH HIM THE BEST OF BLESSING!
My blog is titled "Thinking futuristicly"
I've been sending info out like crazy to colleges. As most people know I wanted to get into Photography. And I still really want to do that, but I was thinking in an economy like today just working through that won't suffice until I become well known! So I went to thinking about all the things I like doing and came up with a conclusion, although it may seem like alot for a new graduate to take on.
2 Years: I will be taking a year of training from TESOL language school in order to teach english in other countries and even here in Canada to immigrants. And then for the 2nd year I would like to go to Tokyo Japan and teach in a highschool there.
Then I will come back because Philip will be graduated by then. And take a course in interior design which could last 1-2 years, depends on what kind of diploma I am working for.
After that I would like to take an informative course on the different trades out there. So that I can relate to alot of the stuff that I will be around because I would like to take over my Grandpa's position.
And then AFTER all that I want to take my photography course.
Looking at it in a round about way I might be getting a start in the photography realm soon! I am so excited! I applied for a job at the Superstore Photography center! It seems like the job was sent down right from heaven because they posted up the sign right when I quit my job and was desperately looking for a new one. So I hope that I get a call back and that everything will go nice and smoothly!
I think that all together with my course apox - 7 years of training? Might be more. But again it depends on what the Lord wills for my life. He might want me to settle down. I know that alot of OTHER stuff that I wll not mention. Will be happening in the future during those times. But I love to get excited!
Oh yes May 2nd is the 2008 conference of "Discerning the Times" In Saskatoon at the saskatoon inn! And Philip will be coming down for 2 weeks during that time period!
Well I wish the best to you all!
Esther
Esther's Video : Comment at will!
(What Kind of Music do I promote?)
Yes alot of people have been asking me what kind of music I listen too?
Never on this blog but on others such as (Myspace, Bebo, Facebook... etc)
There are many types of Music I like, many styles and ideas but my current favorites are:
1.) Josh Verdes
2.) Bamboo
3.) Goot
4.) Alvin and the Chipmunks
5.) Midas Well
6.) Rookie of the Year
7.) Sarah Mclachlan
8.) Vanessa Carlton
9.) One Republic
10.) All-American Rejects
11.) Plus One
12.) Skillet
13.) Relient K
14.) Joe Brooks
15.) Shiny Toy Guns
16.) Nickleback
17.) Switchfoot
18.) Mandy Moore
19.) The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
20.) Hawk Nelson
21.) Chris Tomlin
22.) Keith Green
23.) Cascada
24.) 4Him
25.) Aly and AJ
26.) B4-4
27.) Barlow Girl
28.) Chris Brown
29.) Chris Rice
30.) Clay Aiken
31.) Amanda Falk
32.) Taylor Swift
33.) Enya
34.) Everyday Sunday
35.) YellowCard
36.) George
37.) HelloGoodbye
38.) Imogen Heap
39.) Jaci Valesquez
40.) Amy Lee
41.) Jesse McCartney
42.) Jonas Brothers
43.) Jump5
44.) Kelly Clarkson
45.) Mercy Me
46.) Michel Buble
47.) Mika
48.) JoJo
49.) Hoobastank
50.) Bethany Joy Lenz
51.) Steven Curtis Chapman
52.) Ryan Cabrera
53.) Selah
54.) Se7en
55.) Sick Puppies
56.) Stacie Orrico
57.) Teddy Geiger
58.) The Rasmus
59.) Gazzette
60.) Antic Cafe
61.) Yui
62.) Fei Lun Hei
I think that is all but I might have more... hmmmmm that's already alot. but whatever. my music is all clean. And it's just my preference there is a difference use for each one.
But I went to Athlete's world and bought my "yoga" apparel. (I don't do yoga) I got it for my cardio classes and swimming instruction. (I got a LEISURE PASS!) For all those people who have no clue what I am talking about...
A leisure pass is a card that let's me get into any of Saskatoon's fitness places (Terry Fox Run, Saskatoon Track and Field House, Cosmo swimming centers, gyms, Badminton, and tennis arena's and so much more!) Needless to say I am going to get fit and STAY FIT! I MUST!
So after I did allllll that I went to Burger king and ordered a triple whopper (I FINISHED IT!) But I am so not eating another one for the rest of my life! I was sick! And I got swim shorts (yoga apperal) but it's all good and happy now!
Well that's it!
Esther

Every girl has her stages watch from innocent to completely evil to who I am today.
I am not proud of what I once was but i would like to show from what I was
A innocent little girl who thought she was a Christian because her parents were
To a insecure teenage emo/goth full of sin, to slowly finding my way back to my redeemer.
Lol notice how my hair got shorter during the "bad" years and better during the good?
I thank the Lord and KNOW that he was there during those rebellious there.
He was continually calling out to be and pleading to me.
And right before I lost everything he picked me up.
I almost lost my family, close friends, and my life.
But Jesus Christ gave a new true and living life that I can to this day and till forevermore
REJOICE IN!

















Thanks be to God for keeping me in his hands and teaching me to submit to his will,
Giving me back my conscience as a whole and keeping my family together in this crisis.
We almost didn't make it through, I almost got kicked out of the house.
But I came humbly to the feet of God, through the Lord opening up his word and Love to me once again.
Isn't our Lord great?
December 19th 2007
Mrs. Kay Mattly
Passed away from out midst of believers.
She was in her mid 90's
And loved God fervently.
I would like to offer my condolences to:
Mr. Arthur Mattly,
He is a dear and sweet man
and I know that he will take this loss very hard.
Please pray for this loved man.
That he might be able to smile in the midst of death,
till he follows his beloved home.
"Oh death... where is thy sting?
Oh Grave... where is thy victory?"
<3
Is Christmas...
Christian?
By: Michael Schnieder
Comments from Esther at bottom.
For the vast majority of people the question is really no question at all. Is Christmas Christian? "Of course it is! What could be more Christian than Christmas? Isn't it Jesus' birthday?" Others have become increasingly uncomfortable with the celebration of Christmas. When they look at the bacchanalia that takes place around December 25, there is an uneasy feeling that something is not quite right. And yet they keep telling themselves, "Isn't Christmas Jesus' birthday? The world has corrupted Christmas, but underneath it's still a wonderful holiday." And so they struggle year after year to put "Christ back into Christmas."
It may be a shocking though to some, but after wrestling with the question for several years now, searching the scriptures and church history, I have come to the conclusion that there is nothing Christian about Christmas; that in its present observance as well as in its origin, Christmas is basically and essentially pagan. If that thought is new and startling to you, I invite you to consider the possibility that for you Christmas is a blind spot that needs some re-examination.
I don't mean to say that I'm unimpressed with the sentimental appeal of the "holiday spirit." There's a certain charm about this season of the year-the thought of family gatherings, dreaming of a "white Christmas," chestnuts roasting on an open fire, city sidewalks, busy sidewalks, dressed in a holiday style. No one with any sentimentality could escape a twinge of nostalgia when there's a feeling of Christmas in the air. Even the most hardened cynic can't stifle a softening childlike feeling of good that will last for a few days.
I've tried the approach that says, "let's put Christ back into Christmas." but I have become more and more convinced that Christ doesn't want to be "put back into" Christmas. If we speak against the "commercialization" of Christmas and emphasize the "real meaning of Christmas," most people would readily agree. People are very well aware of what they consider to be materialistic excesses of Christmas celebration, and they love sermons on the "true" meaning of Christmas. But I'm asking "What is the TRUE meaning of Christmas?" When you get right down to its essence... "WHAT IS CHRISTMAS?!"
Where did it come from?
How did it originate?
What does it stand for now?
The real question is the nature of the institution itself.
I think you will be shocked if you evaluate the institution of Christmas realistically. What I'm asking you to do is lay down your cultural prejudices and preferences and approach this question with an open mind. Granted, that's hard to do. We are so snowed under a century of tradition and nostalgia that it's almost impossible for some people to look at the issue objectively at all. I'm asking you to put aside your preconceived notions, at least temporarily, to look honestly at this institution we call Christmas. Frankly, this article is calculated to disturb you, to make you think, and to cause you to change your actions if they are not consistent with the truth of the gospel.
1. ITS INCEPTION
What is the origin of Christmas? How did it begin? Were its beginnings pagan or Christian? There is no indication in the New Testament that the early Christians observed Christmas at all. It can be demonstrated in church history that for probably the first 300 years after the birth pf Christ Christians knew nothing of Christmas celebration. It was only as the church began to drift away from apostolic doctrine and practice into corruption that Christmas began.
Where did it come from? Where did the drifting Church get the ideas and customs associated with Christmas today? The source of most of the basic forms of paganism in the ancient world can be traced back to the Babylonian "mysteries." All of the ancient cultures,
In the New Testament "
What was to be the attitude of God's people towards this "
The Church became "The Roman Catholic Church" and its method became compromise with paganism. Ever since, the Roman Catholic way of converting pagans to its style of worship has been to absorb them gradually, along with their idolatrous observances. The church was content to swell the number of nominal adherents by meeting paganism halfway. There were some valiant voices of protest who bitterly lamented the inconsistency of this approach, but their voices were raised in vain.
The Roman Church has continued the same approach until this day. It can be seen particularly in Central and
How then did we receive out "holidays" (holy days) with their customs and traditions, Christmas as well as Easter, Halloween, and Mardi-Gras? Each of them has come to us through ancient
It was for this very reason that is Calvin's
When the Puritans came to
It was not until the 19th Century that Christmas had any religious significance in Protestant churches.
What then is the History of Christmas? It came into the Church centuries after the New Testament, was discarded at the Reformation, and has only in this century crept back into the
2. ITS INSTITUTIONS
Let's look, then, at some of the familiar customs of Christmas and examine their significance. I'm taking only a small selection of the many familiar traditions, but I assure you that what I say about these is true of all the Christmas customs, and I encourage you to check them all out in any secular encyclopedia.
Take, for instance, the very date of Christmas, December 25. As you are probably aware, no one really knows the time of Christ's birth and December 25 is a highly unlikely time. Why then December 25? Well, at the time of year when the days began to lengthen again, the Babylonians celebrated the victory of their sun god. The Roman copy of this Babylonian custom was called Saturnalia, the feast of the birth of Sol. It was for centuries an abomination to Christians. The celebration was an orgy of pagan revelry. But the Church, instead of standing firm against paganism, began to compromise. It wanted to help "weak" young Christians who didn't want to give up the fun and merry making surrounding this winter solstice. So the Church said, "Go on with your fun and celebration. Only now we'll call it a celebration on the birth of the Son of God. Instead of losing people to paganism, we'll combine the two and gradually even win some of the pagans of our day to profess Christianity. Let's not force men to choose between the two."
Then think about the name "Christmas" itself. What does it mean? Many people do not even know that it is a combination of Christ and mass. Christmas is the Roman Catholic celebration of a particular mass in honor of the Birth of Christ. Perhaps it would impress on our minds the "real" meaning of Christmas if we refer to it as "Christmass." What is the significance of the mass? At its heart the Roman Catholic mass is a denial of the sufficiency of Christ's atonement. It professes to be a reenactment of the sacrifice of Christ for sin. It is a denial of the Gospel (Heb 9:12,24-26;10:10,12,14). The Roman Catholic Church has many other masses, such as "Michaelmass," but it is their "Christmass" that Protestants have singled out for observance.
What could be more harmless that the beautiful Christmas trees that light up our homes during the Christmas season? But do you know why we have trees in our homes? From ancient times tress have played an important role in pagan religion and were even worshipped. Norsemen, Celts and Saxons used trees to ward off witches, evil spirits, and ghosts. In
Even the nativity scene, which some regard as the most "Christian" symbol of Christmas, is tainted with pagan influence. Nearly every recorded form of pagan worship which has descended from Babylonian "mysteries" focuses the attention of the worshipper on a mother goddess and the birth of her child. Different cultures used different names, but the concept is uniformly the same. In
Or that about "Santa Clause?" Can anyone seriously deny that he represents the "real" meaning of Christmas for the vast majority of Americans? I won't go into the familiar stories of his origin as a Roman Catholic saint, but what does he stand for today? Is he a harmless, jolly, fat elf, or has he become an anti-Christian symbol of greed, materialism, selfishness-an expression of "something for nothing?" "What's in it for me?"
Parents who tell their children that Santa Claus myth are endangering their credibility with their children. When they ask you, "Can Santa really see me through these walls?" – What do you reply? Our children ought to be able to know that they can trust everything we tell them without question. How else can we expect them to believe us when we tell them. . .
"The old, old story of unseen things above,
of Jesus and his glory, of Jesus and his love?"
Everything the modern American pagan believes about God is capsuled in Santa Claus. He is busily engaged in a nice - though rather meaningless activities most of the year. He exists somewhere up north as a friendly old man with a long white beard. He visits his people only once a year, spending the 364 days in obscurity. A child may write him at the north pole, but the communication is strictly one way; Santa is not involved with daily living. The way for a child to be acceptable in Santa's sight is to be "good." Santa warns about the consequences of being "bad," but his word can't really be trusted. The child knows that he has now been perfect, and even though he may feel some anxiety, he remembers last year and knows that no matter what Santa says, or what the child does, in the end Santa will reward him. Santa represents a god who threatens man with hell and judgment only to keep him in line in this life, but who will accept all men in one way or the other in the end. If you teach your children the Santa Claus myth, you are unknowingly giving them material to build an un-biblical concept of the Transcendent.
Isn't it interesting that the Japanese have raised Santa Claus to the rank of a deity and given him an equal place among the seven popular gods of good luck? No wonder that a liberal Protestant churchman recently suggested that St. Nicholas could very well be the first ecumenical saint. He said that the average pagan and the ordinary Roman Catholic, as well as the Protestant, would applaud the move: "Even the Buddhists and Moslems who revere the old fellow, might take a long stride along the ecumenical way with us… He has done more to spread the teaching that 'It's better to give than to receive,' than any churchman of the past thousand years." That says it all!
But isn't the giving of gifts a lovely way to remember the birth of our Lord? Surely there is nothing un-Christian about giving to one another. But has any other aspect of Christmas become more perverted than this? "We spend money we don't have to buy gifts they don't need to impress people we don't like." What a mockery and a madness the shopping whirl has become. Could anyone seriously suggest that what does on in America around December 25th is honoring to Jesus Christ, the One who lived a life of simplicity, humility and self-denial, who taught us that "A man's life consisteth not in the abundance of the things which he possesseth" (Luke 15:15)? Yet people who claim to be Christians spend hundreds and even thousands of dollars on their Christmasses and at the same time give little for the work of the gospel in our land or in the needy mission field. Isn't true Christian giving something that should take place year round, out of a true heart of love, and not from compulsion and with an expectation to receive in return.
What about the parties and revelry and debauchery that takes place at this time of year, supposedly in connection with the birth of Jesus Christ. Why is it what liquor flows more freely at this time of year than any other? Why is it that more automobile accidents during the "holiday season" than at any other time? We may quibble about the origins of Christmas tree and the manger scene, but one thing is certain: If you use the Incarnation of our Lord as an excuse for revelry and debauchery, you can be sure that you will reap the judgment of God. Now, the question is this: is all of this travesty surrounding the Christmas season inconsistent with "true" meaning of Christmas derived from its origin and history?
But aren't the traditions surrounding Christmas really harmless? Aren't they innocent enough? Well, are they? How does Satan most effectively tempt us? Does he set before us horrible, grotesque-looking things that repulse us? Does he jump out of a dark alley in a red suit with a tail, and wave a pitch-fork and say, "I'm the devil. I've come to deceive you, and to bring you down to hell?" Of course not. The devices of Satan are subtle: "for Satan himself is transformed into an angel of light" (2 Cor 11:14). He sets before us things that seem "harmless," :innocent," "fun"-things that "everyone else is doing." Sincere Christians are often unwittingly led into idolatry through man's traditions.
3. ITS IMPLICATIONS
From this mass of material (and we've only scratched the surface), let's draw some conclusions. How is the Christian to react to the Christ-mass and all its traditions? As I see it, we have only three alternatives:
1.)We can keep trying our best to "Put Christ back in Christmas," keep on fighting the losing battle to salvage something even remotely Christian from this thoroughly pagan holiday. But then we must ask ourselves, "Am I 'putting Christ' in a pagan celebration?" We must deal with the basic question, What is "Christmas?" What is it really? Where did it start and what has it historically been?
2.)We can try to separate Christmas entirely from Christ. We can observe it as kind of a cultural folk festival, reasoning that the pagan elements are so far removed historically that the traditions have been somehow purged from their idolatry. That would be more consistent, but there is a problem: Your non-Christian friends and society still vaguely associate Christmas with the birth of Christ and assume that since you're a Christian you are joining in this celebration of Jesus' birth. Christians in primitive cultures have had this problem for years. They are urged to participate in pagan rites as a kind of cultural heritage, disassociating themselves from their idolatrous origins. But can they do that and still maintain a consistent Christian witness?
3.)The only other alternative is to forsake Christmas entirely. I'm convinced that for myself, this is the only consistent course to take. I know well the objections. I've heard them many times. "No one is completely consistent." No, of course no one is completely consistent. But that fact doesn't relieve us of the obligation to be as consistent as we can be; to obey every scriptural command that we understand. "But is that a drastic step?" Yes, it's a very drastic step; but if we are going to stem the tide of paganism in our day-or even challenge it-drastic measures are going to be necessary. "Isn't that a radical proposal?" Yes, but then again… true Christianity is a radical faith.
"But wouldn't I be considered fanatical if I took such a drastic measure?" Probably. That would be a new experience, wouldn't it? No one enjoys being considered a fanatic-if they do there's something wrong. No one enjoys persecution. But think how little persecution we face as Christians. Isn't it because we are inconsistent? Isn't there something wrong with our beliefs and practice don't disturb the world any more than they do? If we compromise at this point, why wouldn't we compromise at another, and another, and another? We Christians often wonder why we are not persecuted today. The conclusion we often reach is that we would be persecuted if we were faithful. Why doesn't the world hate us? Isn't it because we are not challenging the world's thinking at the most crucial point-the world's concept of what Christianity is? The world has substituted a folk religion for the gospel.
Martin Luther said: "If I profess with the loudest voice and the clearest exposition every portion of the truth of God except precisely that little point which the world and the devil are at that moment attacking, I am not professing Christ, however boldly I may be professing Christ. Where the battle rages, there the loyalty of the soldier is proved, and to be steady on all the battle field besides, is a mere flight and disgrace if he flinches at that point."
"Wouldn't that be a very hard thing to do?" Yes, it would. No question about it, The Christmas tradition is so firmly entrenched in our society-and even in our own heart-that it would be most difficult to swim against the stream. But the question is not really, "Is it hard?" but "Is it right?" The right thing is not always easy. Christ has never promised us that following him would be easy. When our Christian lives are as easy as ours are, there is bound to be something wrong somewhere.
What then are the positive reasons we should consider scrapping Christmas altogether? The first is the reason our Protestant forefathers so carefully avoided Christmas; It was because they held the scriptures to the word of God, the only infallible rule of faith and practice. One confession says, "The whole counsel of God, concerning all things necessary for his own glory, man's salvation, faith and life, is either expressly set down in Scripture, or by good and necessary consequence may be deducted from scripture: unto which nothing at any time is to be added, whether by new revelations of the Spirit, or traditions of men" (Westminster Confession, I.6). "The acceptable way of worshipping the true God is instituted by himself, and so limited by his own revealed will, that he may not be worshipped according to the imaginations and devices of men, or under the suggestions of Satan, under any visible representation or in any other way not prescribed in the Holy Scripture" (XXIII.1). Jesus said to the Pharisees, "For laying aside the commandment of God, ye hold the tradition of men,… Making the word of God of none effect through your tradition…" (Mark 7:8,13). Paul wrote to the Galatians in dismay, "Ye observe days, and months, and times, and years. I am afraid of you, lest I have bestowed upon you labour in vain" (4:10,11). He wasn't condemning them for observing those institutions commanded by God, but for observing those of man's making, contrary to God's Law.
Do you think I enjoy saying these things? No one enjoys being an Ebeneezer Scrooge or the Grinch who stole Christmas. But the only real question is this: Is what I've been saying Biblical? Is it consistent with God's Word? If it's not, then you ought to disregard it. But if it is, then you ought to consider it carefully and heed it. You may course disagree with my interpretation of Scripture at this point; you may disagree with my assessment of the historical background and the present situation. I could be wrong, I am very often am. But what must you do with a message like this is what the Berean Christians did with Paul's preaching: "And searched the scriptures daily, whether those things were so" (Acts 17:11). You must openly, honestly, and realistically evaluate the evidence for yourself and come to your own conclusions. You are not responsible to the preacher-but to God.
The Scriptures point out what is to be a stark contrast between the Christian and the world. That contrast has been largely glossed over in our day. "Love not the world, neither the things that are in the world. If any man love the world, the love of the Father is not in him." (I John 2:25). "Wherefore come out from among them, and be ye separate" (II Cor 6:17). "An be ye not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is good, and acceptable and perfect will of God" (Rom 12:2). Or as it could be translated: "Do not live according to the fashions of the times; you must not adopt the customs of this world; do not imitate the way the this world lives; don't let the world around you squeeze into it's own mold." The idea, is don't let the world write the agenda, don't let the world call the shots or set the standard. The Christian is in the world, but he must not be of the world. He is a citizen of another country, a stranger and a pilgrim here. He isn't keeping pace with his companions because he hears a different drummer.
What I am really questioning is whether you can have a "Christian" Christmas. The "religious" aspects are the worst part of Christmas. There is no more pointed illustration of Christmas that the contrast between cultural religion and Biblical faith. Christmas promotes an "imitation gospel" that actually keeps the world from understanding the true gospel. Christmas prevents a substitute gospel that the world can easily live with. To the world, the Christian message is simply "Love, peace, the spirit of giving, the feeling of good will." That stripped down "gospel" gives men just enough inoculation to keep them from understanding the true Gospel.
The world loves Christmas because it supports a sentimental picture of a baby in manger. Christmas keeps Jesus a baby. Jesus is misrepresented by Christmas. The Gospel is misrepresented by Christmas. Christmas is the one time an ungodly person can be religious safely. Most people like to do something religious every once in awhile to ease their conscience and convince themselves that they are really a pretty good person after all; and Christmas gives them the perfect opportunity to do that. It's perfectly safe for the most pagan person to join in on the Christmas spirit. You can have the Christmas spirit without having the Holy Spirit, without having the mind of Christ.
The very popularity of Christmas should cause the Christian to question it. Anyone and everyone can celebrate Christmas without question! Outright pagans, nominal Christians, even Buddhists can join the celebration. If in reality December 25 was a date set by God to remember the birth of Jesus, you can be very sure that the world would have nothing to do with it. After all, God has commanded the observance of one day in seven, a day when Christians celebrate the resurrection of Christ, the first day of the week, the Lord's day-but does the world observe it? Of course not. The world totally disregards it. Shouldn't the Christian be suspicious of a celebration in which the whole sinful world can join without qualms? There are multitudes of people who continually desecrate the Lord's Day, but somehow have a great zeal about being in Church at Christmas.
The crucial question for the believer is the Lordship of Christ: "Ye are not your own? For ye are bought with a price" (I Cor 6:19,20). Are you sincerely willing to think whatever God would have you think about the whole matter? Are you willing to do whatever God would have you to do even if it meant a drastic change in your thinking or practice? It's at this point that the conflict really comes. I have heard many people say about this subject, "No, I don't want to read a book about it. No, I don't want to think about it. I am going to have my Christmas no matter what. I enjoy it, and no one is going to take it away from me" (The implication being, not even God). It's then that Christmas becomes an idol. An idol is anything that comes between you and God. Anything you refuse to give up, even at his command. General exhortations to "surrender all" don't affect us greatly; but discipleship really counts when it affects some concrete area we really care about. The real question is, can you sincerely say to God about this issue,
"Have thine own way, Lord; have thine own way.
Thou art the potter, I am the clay.
Mold me and make me after Thy will,
While I am waiting, yielded and still"?
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I strongly believe this, I always say even when you are stagnant against the truth of the Christmas.
"In order to know truth, me must search for it."
I for one will never celebrate this holiday. It is not Godly and there are way more things against it than just this. But I thought this covered it pretty well so i spent 2 days typing it up in my free time. I couldn't find it anywhere on the internet, so I had to type it up from scratch.... may God bless this effort in many ways.
Name: Hannah
Age: 6
This little girl is my sister.
One of the Joys in my life.
She's amazing and adorable.
But she has a problem.
Pulminary Artriesia
When she was born, they found a murmur in her heart. She was immediately rushed to NICU.
With further studies they found out that she had a hole in hear heart and dozen of arteries were missing from one half of her heart, only for a miracle to see that an abnormal amount had grown on the other side. Immediately operation dates started appearing. She had to be at least 10 months old for the operation.
She had a 90% chance of not making it.
Since she was a premature baby
I remember sitting the the waiting rooms growing more and more in panic every single day we waited for the surgeon to tell us what day it would be.
Months Dragged By
Finally she had it. It was one of the most tense days of my life. We didn't know if she'd come out of the operating room alive. Or die soon after. Depended on how her Body would take it.
She lived through it. And rejoiced to the Lord.
But on that wonderful day, the nurses were being jerks to me.
They would not allow me to visit my sister on account of my age...
Well they found out I don't submit that easy to them, as I lost my temper and charged through.
One fell over and bumped her head but I was a girl on a mission
When I found my sister...
Her chest was open, you could see the heart pumping.
Cords were coming out from every part of her.
I cried.
I don't know where my parents were but I just stood there and held her little hand. Blinking away tears and telling her that I was there. Of course she was knocked out and couldn't hear me. But I didn't want to leave her side.
I kind of felt that I was in a movie. I didn't seem real to me at all.
When we finally could leave the hospital.
They shoved a feeding tube down her nose and said that she wouldn't ever be able to eat solid food. They told me that she probably wouldn't be able to talk, walk or do anything that could jolt her pacemaker.
But she being the little trooper she was... pulled it out on our first week home. That is when the AWESOME nurses from RUH hospital in Saskatoon decided to let her try solid foods. SHE ATE IT! And has been eating from her mouth since!
Nowadays. My little sister is on constant oxygen. She can READ, WALK, RUN, SING! And she annoys me so much sometimes.
Her favorite song is Victory in Jesus.
She loves making things with Play Doh and Clay.
She wants to get married and have 6 girls!
She Tells people "Jesus Loves you because he loves me!"
And when people ask her why she says.
"Because I'm not scared when i go to my operations. He's with me."
Everyday with her is blessing.
So far we have refused the Heart and Lung transplants.
Because if she were to have them her chances of living is only 50% on operating table and 5 years after.
My family would rather her live the way she is happy and cheerful and if God decides to take this blessing from our lives. He's just taking what was his in the first place. We will see her again in heaven.
My sister might only be 6 years old, but she has amazing faith in her Lord and Savior and tells EVERYONE.
She's our very own little miracle.
And I will love her for forever.
For the little light and surprises she gives me.
She's very much God's gift.
Well work was Hectic... trust me Tim Horton's isn't an "easy" place to work.
I was on dishes all day, I don't mind dishes honestly... but 8 hrs, is a bit much.
Oh well I almost got ran over by a freak car accident were one of the cars slid a great distance, it was pretty bad, people and their cell phones! I am still like over coming shock! ahhh!
Yeah well I finally made a very important decision in my life, about schooling, my future, and my faith. I think that the hustles of work have brutally pounded in the meaning of responsibility! Because out there my parents can no longer answer for me. It's me responding and standing up for myself. It's a big job! At work I am constantly surrounded by swearing, rock music, pop music, people talking about dating, and other raunchy things, but you know what, when they turn to hear my input I have learned to keep my mouth shut. I have to deal with perverted men looking anywhere but your face and people who aren't even working there bossing you around. Monday and Fridays are hectic and sometimes there are only 4 people all-together. Sure I get along with everyone and there are few that I call friends, but if I could find a job in a better surrounding I would jump at the opportunity!
My life is hectic you know for a 16 year old,. already working 8 hours a day. And when I tell people how old I am they look at me in complete shock and say "Why are YOU working then?" I can't really think of an answer. It's not like I NEED the money, and it's not like I'm a single mother trying to make ends meet or even just a whim. It's just something I wanna do. I know it'll help me learn and earn more freedom I guess and I grasp at those opportunities. I like working, it gives me a sense of accomplishment. You know some days I have to drag myself out of bed, but at the end of the day I'm like "YES, I have a job!" it's fun meeting new people everyday and working with customers! Maybe it's because of my naturally talkative personality?
hmmm. . . maybe?
O well.
Talk to you all later!
Esa
&
True or False?
She's 18, so pretty,
she's never made love,
so called friends,
say that she's
Slept with everyone.
Everyone has a problem with people judging them by the way they look on the outside.
Ever heard of the saying.
"The cover's not quite like the book"
Well I know that things like this happen to me all the time. Like when I walked into HMV the other day to buy my dad his Daniel Boone Season: 4 . The guy looked at me like I was crazy! He said "YOU WANT DANIEL BOONE?"
in a very shocked tone, he looked me up and down and kind of looked faint. So I said.
"Yes, I want DANIEL BOONE"
And you know what I got as a reply.
"But girls like you don't buy stuff like Daniel Boone!"
That got me thinking. What made him say "Girls like you?" What about me? Was that no normal teenage girl who had decent good looks would buy such an old style series? *laughs* I love watching that show! I was thinking. "Do you want to make the sale or not?" Because he didn't seem to willing to accept the fact I was going to spend $42 on something more than Friends which many girl my age are watching... I've never looked at that garbage!
My dad thought it was pretty funny though. And commended me for shocking the guy out of his skin. Haha.
Yes I am no normal girl, and I am very happy about that because if people notice that it'll show my standards in many way and my Lord will shine through the darkness of this world. You know I take my position with a very serious demeanor. I don't want to shatter that image.
True or False?
There has been alot of drama going on in the groups of friend my family and I have. So much back-stabbing and deceit.
I won't say names but there is this one girl who completely baffles me, but I love because I know that what she's doing is completely wrong and I don't want her to destroy her husband or the people around her. But I know she hates me and she makes it apparent. Many people wouldn't be able to see through her charade and many people would think if I exposed her true nature that I am the big bad monster picking on the innocent young woman. There is alot of deceit coming from her and it's hurting me to see her husband slowly loosing the spark in his eye, the one I remember from when I was younger. His ambitions are sort of dwindling away. Because the relationship is only working in one way of bringing each other up in Christ.
I know how she thinks though because I used to be the same way.. well not exactly but I was two-faced and deceitful. I dragged down people and messed some people's lives up, till this day they are scarred. I've apologized to them and God. I hope that God will reveal himself to this young mother and wife. Maybe she will learn that the way she is acting is hurting her husband and his family. If God could cause repentance to come upon her I would rejoice.
You know I used to have a good friend. But this young woman from above has completely destroyed those ties with this good friend. She's taken her and wrapped her up in this messed web of lies. I have no more Christian female friends in this vicinity and time in my life. Just when I need them most. But if these girls are acting this way and claiming to be Christians I don't want to ruin my own image by talking to them. They won't listen anyways and it's no longer my place. It's God's he's the only one who can help the young mother and save my old friend. I just hope he helps them before both their lives are ruined.
Yes I care so much for people who don't care if I know the time of day and even though they treat me really badly I hold no bitterness. I used to, because I felt hurt over the special people in my own life that they were hurting. But all I can do is pray for them. When only my mom can see the deceit in this web with me. All we can do is pray along with that young woman's husband's family to have the true love of God revealed to her, because I do not want his wrath upon her in the day of judgement. I just don't get how nobody else can see and why they are all blinded but I guess it's like the wolf in sheep's clothing.
And I must keep looking out for.
What's true and What's False.
Love,
Esa
Hey there everyone!
Yes I am in total blogging mode again! haha!
Anyways, yesterday I had someone ask me how I could stay so happy. I just sat there and was said. "Why do you say that?"
Well apparently they were impressed by the fact that even though I worked long 8 hour shifts I would never complain about my feet or the work I had to do and that I even helped other people do their "chores" around the work place when the store wasn't busy!
I know that one reason why I am always happy is that I finally have my priorities set straight! My ambitions have come back! God is really working in my heart and preparing me for what may come, his love really is flowing through me more and I want to live the day to just give him the praise he alone is so worthy of. I want to give him my life and for him to take it and let it be used to show his love to others. I want to make much of his love and show it to others. I am so happy that he loved me enough to die for me and the whole world's sin!
Because I am the sinner and he is the Savior!
Why shouldn't I be happy? I have an awesome family, and people who care about me. I don't have to be fake and pretend to be someone perfect. I know that I am far from perfect but it doesn't give me any excuse to not strive for perfection. That is my mission as a woman who is striving to show the Lord in every aspect of her life.
I used to dread the rules that I thought I "HAD" to follow in order to impress people and it made me sick. And I was very unhappy always thinking that I was being compared to others. But once I started getting founded on God's word, he revealed what he wanted in a woman of God. I was convicted on things nobody but him would be able to convince me of. Such as dress, make-up, Virtue, honor, love, Being a servant.... and many more. I slowly gave the reins to the Lord and I haven't wanted to grab them back since and I don't think that I ever will!
I still care about whether or not I am offending a fellow brother or sister in Christ.
But if you're offended about what has been revealed to me, I still won't give it up.
Love you all!
Esa
(And staying close to God!)





Hey Everyone!
Oct 18th was my b-day and since I haven't written a whole lot I am going to share a few facts
of things that have been going on with me and thoughts I have come up with.
Facts:
1.) I got a job at Tim Hortons
2.) I am no longer worried about my future. It's in God's hands. I will be whatever he desires.
3.) I will be taking photography in school and trying interior design.
Thoughts:
I was on myspace the other day thinking about what alot of people on there are trying to do.... GET FAMOUS!
Kids have such odd names like "Superstar Couture" or "NickFame" whatever they can think of to get attention. I read some of the staid said by them ... things such as "I want to impact the world" or "I want to change the world." yet they still post up slutty/emo/grotesque pictures of themselves and expect me to believe they are going to make this world better?!
I think this way. Why impact the world?
Impacting the world never meant much to me. in fact I don't think I even come close, but impacting people's lives is what matters. I don't care is the world knows my name. I used to... now I just wanna be REAL not fake. So many people in this world want to be known world-wide but when has the world ever really cared about those who are well known... they are but here for a season, to famous to be able to find time to sit down and talk about the issues personally with someone. The Public is not going to always remember them... so why should I be like them?
Plus the Bible says that he looketh on the proud from afar... so why make our Lord look down at us, as if from a great distance. When we can be humble and have God close and dear to our hearts.
Also I have been developing my own pamphlet on my "book" idea. You know the one were I suggest us as a characters in God's book and he's the Author we reject? Yes I am creating a pamphlet for it and it'll be done probably in December or January. Yes somewhere around there. Alot more detail and thought is put into it with deep scripture, I'll probably post it up on here when it is finished.
Yes my life is starting to unfold before me and it seems that God is making it
POETRY.
I'm not kidding, when I finally gave myself fully to God my life became happier and full of peace,
of course I have my trials in life, but God never give you anything he knows you cannot handle and we must always remember this. He sends us these trials and tribulations to make us look to him more and make us stronger christians.
Well I will write more soon,
Esa.x.Cund
check it out it's for young and old I think everyone could learn somthing :)



