while school went off wonderfully today , the rest of my world is in chaos or so it feels anyway. i can tell my iron is in dangerous low levels again but can not afford to got to the doctor yet.. i feel run down and tired.. i am taking my iron as prescribed but i need my other meds and don't have them.. being broke really bites .. I know in my heart i am meant to be at home with my girls and i am meant to be homeschooling yet i always feel guilty for not working outside the home.. i must not be budgeting well or something because on paper there is enough money but in reality there isnt or it is so tight there is no room for anything else at all..come income tax time i will finally be debt free except for my house payment so  we can see the light at the end of the tunnel if only we can make it there LOL.. the holidays are coming ... it is going to be hard to find extra to buy gifts this year.. 2 years ago i would have forgone a bill to make sure we had something under the tree, now i just can not do that.. i like my bills being made on time , i like seeing the balances at zero and the debt dwindling.. but there are days i long to call and beg for my credit cards back and go shopping just to make me feel better.. it is in my blood !! i get it honest!!LOL my kids have no need of anything but still i long to have loads of stuff under the tree for some crazy reason!!  i know i am blessed so i hate days like today when i feel so down...I have inherited a Kingdom and i am not worthy of it but i sit here today and fell sorry for myself... thankfully it wont last long.. i am off this weekend to see my nieces and nephews and Andy is going with us so it will be a nice family trip ..then sunday is a dinner at my moms.. love her cooking!!

  well laundry calls ... until next time and if anyone actually reads this than thanks for sticking with me ... it really does help to vent on here...

 ON a side note  for my fellow Christians please remeber me in your prayers .. I have been trying to get into tthe childcare business again to no avail.. havent had any calls , a few emails but none concrete. We really need the extra income and I would love to have some little ones around to hold and play with again too. Also we have been blessed with the opportuntiy to buy a great car for a really great price, please pray all goes through and works out well so the girls and i are not stuck at home all the time while andy works plus our old car is not in the best of shape and this gets much better gas mileage too. Thanks in Advance!!!

 I got terribly fussed at by my Hubby for not letting the girls go out last night so i caved and we went to a few houses in the area... no harm no foul i guess... of course i HAD to eat the candy to make sure that if my girls got poisoned at least i would be too!!!! Hehe thats my story anyway!! LOL

today is a bad pms day in this house!!!!!!!!!!!!! ugh poor andy having to live with 2 of us on at the same time.. what will he do when meg and katie start..  we are learing all about george washington today... Katie is stuck on the planets still though she is thoroughly hooked and cant get enough info on the subject.. well I am off to clean my kitchen... flylady has left the building today it seems... i am off my routines and running behind...   until next time...

 Well I had this whole page typed out and tried to insert a link and my pop-up blocker messed it all up and I lost the whole thing!! argh! Is today a special day? I have been asked all day where do you go trick or treating then I have to go into why we dont partcipate and blah blah... it is getting old.. after hearing so many adults ask me why my girls start to ask why..  well apperently my 11 yar old has had soem enlightenment today.. she was perplexed why the Ps kids didnt out of class.isnt today a holiday?? umm not realy i tell her... why she asks? so off we go to google the origins of halloween, this my friends is the beauty of homeschooling!!!!  it is so wonderful watching her face see the truth has made me cry today. her own words "well pooh mom this is about getting a bunch of junky candy isnt it??" yep baby it sure is..she was intrigued by the way the Catholics celebrate it though so we are going into more detail tomorrow. Maybe God knew what i had typed earlier wasnt realy needing to be heard and maybe this is.. who knows.. i personally am having  hard day .. thankfully even though two of us are pmsing we are getting along well.. but i had that minute of wonder this morning in the shower , with sore breasts and icking tummy..  what if?? i am pregnant at last  after 7 years of longing for  a baby to nurture at my breast.. then reality hits and i know God will not bless what is not in agreement.. andy is very sure about not wanting more and of course even if he did we cannot afford the surgery to reverse my tubal.. but that small window of what if this morning is a nice dream.  OK enough about my silliness....  well phonics(and Katie) calls me into the living room for a reading lesson then we are off to the lirbrary...  until next time...

My poor Katie has a stomach bug.. she has been throwing up among other things for  24 hours now..bless her little self though she still wanted to do her worksheets today.

 our lessons this week and for the next few weeks is centering on American history and our Presidents.. such a fun bunch of lessons too!! i am learning as much as they are. we are still deep into our adventures with the flylady stuff.. got my control journal started and we are all trying to fly.. i gave away somewhere around 10 bags of stuff today!! wohoo!!~ love flinging and love freecycle.. we have too much junk and it clutters are house and our lives up..

well i am off to clean some and then to grade some papers..see ya next time..

 LOL... This blogging is totally new for me..I am doing this to give friends and family an idea of our lives as homeschoolers.. I am recently a flybaby.. if anyone hasnt tried flylady i strongly encourage you to check it out.. www.flylady.net     it is an awesome household help!!! especially for add/ocd people like myself.. please excuse my typing, as i plain and simple dont know how to type well.. my kids and my husband are my life.. my son is a senoir this year and currently lives away from us.. i am counting the days until he graduates and moves in with us again!! Wohoo!! my girls are 6th grade, 4th grade and 1st grade. we homeschooled last year it was our first try at it.. after a rough summer and some arguments with hubby they chose to go tot public school against my better judgement.. well 8 weeks into it they wanted to come home  thank God hubby agreed it was maybe what we are meant to be doing.. he seems to be much more laid back and opened minded  about it this time around. i know i feel much more relaxed and happy since the girls came home.. well i have a sink to shine and some reading to do ... im off until next time..