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Okay sorry about the original of this entry, I didn't realize how bad that text color would show up!
Ok so I had to take a little break from blogging this past week because of camp and stuff.
Camp went really well this week, we were so tired but overall it wasn't bad.
Well this week was pretty cool because over the course of the week 2 of my siblings got saved. One at vbs and one at camp. Pretty awesome!
So now I'm just chilling and getting ready for school to start next week... ugh... I don't even get a full week of down time since my mom wants to start "school prep" this week. Oh well, I guess that's life. I am happy to get back into a routine again.
So this past week I saw someone I haven't seen in a long time, and let's just say we were never good friends. Anyways I won't go into details but this person was so obviously trying to get to me and it just cracked me up how hard this person was trying. What I really started thinking about was how what this person said would have really gotten to so many people. For me it was more annoying that this person was trying to be mean then that it actually hurt me. Most people don't seem to get it that I pretty much have leather skin. Some really weird random things get to me, and if somethings gets to me it REALLY bugs me, but for the most part stuff just bounces off me. I don't really know why, but I guess it's good. Sorry, kind of random, just something that was on my mind.
Something else that has been on my mind.. lately I've been thinking alot about brokeness. Like, just feeling yourself completely break down. For me I'm the kind of person that is obsessed with being strong. I never am, I'm usually the underdog, but I am always pushing to be a leader and I want to make it to the top. To me brokeness is weakness. Well last week I started a horse undersaddle for the second time. Now I almost always use that wording "started a horse undersaddle" when I refer to a horse being trained to ride. Most people just say breaking the horse. I have always hated that wording because so often that just means breaking the horse down, breaking their spirit, breaking down everything in them and just leaving them like that. This past week they used the term breaking for what we did, and those horses were broken to an extent, but once they were broken we were able to build them up again, only this time they were stronger, braver, smarter, and their overall temperment was happy and calm and more then anything they were so peaceful. Since brokeness has been on my mind so much recently it was such a beautiful picture of what brokeness really is. It's painful at the time, and it seems like all hope is lost, but once the horse is broken they can be rebuilt into something stronger then before. It's exactly what God does with us. So now I have a whole new mindset on brokeness... and I am feeling myself break but I just keep reminding myself to make myself broken and then God can rebuild me into something even better then I was to start with. Pretty cool, right?
Anyways, just something that was on my mind!
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