Oct. 4, 2006 - I AM SO VERY THANKFUL!!!
As I'm writing this blog tonight I'm feeling quite THANKFUL!!
It's amazing how when we tend to focus on our problems, they seem to get even worse but when we LET GO and LET GOD everything falls into place.
Me & my dh have had a not so great weekend, with some fussing & not enough time together. Truthfully, I am to blame because I have lately been focusing on what my dh does NOT do and most of you I'm sure already know that focusing on the things your spouse doesn't do NEVER helps a thing. Well, although I definitely KNOW better, I still sometimes tend to fall into that same trap but thankfully EVERY time the Lord shows me that I have just as many faults IF NOT MORE!!! And nagging my dh is definitely NOT the answer, although I sometimes make that mistake, I try very hard not to. I'm reminded of that certain scripture in the bible, "Better is a dinner of herbs where love is, than a fatted calf with hatred."Proverbs 15:17 and "A soft answer turns away wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger." Proverbs 15: 1. And isn't it the truth every single time.
But the other night as I was contemplating all that my dh doesn't do and wallowing in my own self pity, all of a sudden I felt ashamed, I realized that all I had done all day long was think unappreciatively about my dh. I even spouted off ugly remarks as to the things he doesn't do to a very close friend of mine and all of a sudden while driving in my car on the way home from the supermarket God reminded me of all I had done wrong that day and I was immediately ashamed and convicted. Then all of sudden out of nowhere came sirens and I was forced to pull off the side of the road for there were several police cars & unmarked cars flying past me and I noticed that as they went past, they were turning the exact way I was about to turn and I wondered "wow, is it yet another accident, I hope & pray everyone's okay" and so I began to pray and all of a sudden it dawned on me, WHAT IF? what if it was my dh? This was about the time that he would be coming home. I immediately felt HORROR at even the thought of spending one moment on this planet without him and so I immediately called his cell and no answer and then I called home and my mom answered (they were staying at our house) and so I asked her "is he home?" and she said "yes" WHEW!!!! What a relief!!! And he got on the phone and I was so thankful to hear his sweet voice!!! Right then & there I realized that I had been so stupid and so very wrong!!!! It's not okay to merely sit around and talk badly about my dh to a close friend! It's the same as talking about one friend to another behind their back! And to me, this is so much worse because he is MY VERY BEST FRIEND!!! (Jesus being #1 of course)
There is so much to improve in ME that there is really no need to even look at anyone else much less my dh. So, that's what I'm going to try to do from now on, when I'm flooded with thoughts about what he doesn't do I will replace them with what he DOES do, like first of all, PUT UP WITH ME!!! That's enough right there!
Thanks for listening & God Bless YOU ALL!!!
