HI Girls!! I have gotten a couple of comments from those of you that I know.  I will say I have no idea how to respond to those comments.  So maybe someone could help me.  I would love to change my layout too, I have noticed that some of you have really nice layouts.  So to answer everyone that commented...Thanks!  Also I am doing ok.  Kinda stuck in a depression, but I have started counseling and am trying to work through all of that.  Slow going though.  Things just haven't been the same since Grace was born so early and didn't make it.  I keep trying to find the Joy in things, and I do.  Mostly in my children, but the ever present "this is where I should be" still looms over my head.  Seems like the blooming of flowers and grass coming up would make anyone thrilled that the dead of winter is over, but it just seems to remind me of the loss that I had.  So much different then the miscarriages. I just have no idea how to explain it because 4 months ago I was on the same side of the fence that you guys are on and I could have never comprehended what this is like.

Schooling is good, some days is better then others.  I tend to have kids that either want to go for it and do it all right now, or want to do nothing.  That is something that we are working on.  Beckah does really well when she wants to.  Which is most of the time, but there are those times that she trys to think of everything under the sun to not work.  My calm and put together 13 year old turns into a 4 year old that whines to get what she wants.  Ryan on the other hand will seem like he isn't doing anything but then all of a sudden its done and done well.  He amazes me.  Of course there are times that he would rather do the teenage thing and sleep. 

I am the type that schools all year.  I know that a lot of people look forward to their breaks, but when my kids were younger and in elementary school we were on track schools.  This many weeks on with 3 or 4 weeks off.  They seemed to do the best when they are learning this way.  Here at home too.  I tried to do like a traditional school year, but they seems to flourish with the year round.  So that is what we are sticking with.  Probably taking a short break in May but continuing through out the summer with studies.  Ryan is getting excited to be coming to a close of his mandatory schooling, and then moving on to what his heart truly desires.  He wants so badly to just study the Word, to just loose himself in it at all times.  He will do bible subject after bible subject if I let him.  Of course I would love to let him just do that.  He know so much about math and science and geography, but I know that I am required to get those other things in as well.  Shoot the school district wont even consider his bible studies anything but free reading.  Or I guess I am assuming that, but considering what all they have taken out of the schools, I can't see how that wouldn't be true.

I myself am continuing on with my education.  I am currently enrolled at the Hadley School for the Blind.  I am taking a contracted braille course right now, which I will promptly follow up with the nemeth code.  Then I will look into the classes to become a braillest.  Possibly even at some point going for my master to become a Teacher of the Visualy Impaired (TVI).  Its hard though since I support homeschooling so much, but then again, our schools need people that believe in God and will bring a Christ like behavior to the children. 

OH I have another blog.  This one I have been able to figure things out.  Here is the link http://bornagainrenee.blogspot.com/  Come and visit, this will be on a more personal level then the homeschooling blog will be. 

Blessings to you all!!