Jun. 19, 2008 - Babies, Babies!

Oh how I wish this post was about me . . .

Tonight I went to visit a friend who delivered her twin boys this afternoon.  They are 5 weeks early and in the NICU as a precaution until they get the hang of breathing.  I saw a video of their first few moments and they are so precious.  Sweet, little boys. 

I am so excited for this family as they begin their new lives as parents.  I remember when I brought Austin home from the hospital. It was so new and exciting and yet so scary.  I felt like I needed someones permission to bathe him or feed him on demand.  I actually remember calling the pediatrician's office to how long it was ok for him to cry.  We were trying to let him cry it out and we lasted about 8 minutes! 

I have loved becoming a mom.  It has changed me and stretched me beyond measure.  I have learned sacrifice, patience, endurance, joy, sorrow, selflessness, and how to trust in the Lord.  I can NOT be who I am separate from Him.  I wake each morning praising His name and praying for our day. 

I have also become more of me.  Follow me here, in high school and even college I wanted to be just like everyone else.  I wanted to be someone my mom would approve of, someone my friends would like, etc.  I love who I am now.  I have taken some chances and become who God wants me to be.  I dare to be different, not for the sake of being different but in order to be in this world but not of this world. (See John 17: 13:16) 

I don't strive to fit in or look like those around me. I know God has a plan for my life and I long to follow Him.  There is more peace that way.  He is my Father and for that I am grateful.