I know my blog should be about my life, regardless of where I'm at but I will admit for me its hard to write pain- I have never known grief like this- I have been blessed and have not really lost anyone or seen anyone really close to me go through anything like this.  I have had people that I have loved die but no one that I have so much day to day life with (family or best friends)  My mother-in-law had a biopsy today and she is in incredible pain from it, the have given her morphine but it really doesn't touch it.  I have so so much pain in my heart, I have been calling out to God all day, Please comfort me!  I know you are there and I know what your scipture says.    Isaiah 66:13 which says "As a mother comforts her child, so will I comfort you."  

  I am afraid that my children will pick up on my pain and take it on to themselves (they don't know anything yet) except that Grandma is in the hospital with her gallbladder problem.  We are waiting for test results and the right time if there is such a thing.  I'm disappointed with myself for having any doubts and for having such grief as a Christian.  I have always been able to feel people's pain  even if I haven't known them, but I will have to admit I couldn't imagine the pain of grief of seeing a loved one hurt this way.  The last thing I want if for my blog to be depressing, however to write anything else would be dishonest.  I love the Lord Jesus and I know he will see us all though this trial, I know this beyond a shadow of  a doubt yet the pain is so real and so raw, please continue to pray for us- mostly pray for my mother-in-law Judy, a very special lady who I love with every bit of my heart.

Lord Jesus I know you can heal her, I know you can!   Give us faith to believe it!