I'm a real person, the last thing I ever want to do on my blog is to present something I'm not.  I love homeschooling but I struggle with lots of things.  I struggle with keeping a hold on my to do list even though I rarely leave the house,  I struggle with sadness sometimes that is really difficult. I'm a person who feels deeply about people and things, often more then most!  I grieve over the state of our country and culture.  We struggle trying to make it on one income for 5 of us, I know many of you do.   I miss my mother in law terribly, I don't let it dictate my day but there are many moments that are so hard-especially in the middle of the day when my kids are doing quiet time and I would call her or she would call me.   There are things that happen with the kids that I would always call her up and share, how I miss that.  My heart breaks everytime my 5 yr old says how much he misses his Gee and how he wishes he could see her again!   Tomorrow would have been her birthday!

Sometimes our blogs can seem like we have everything together, everything is perfect in our homeschooling, with our children, our marriages, everything and in reality we have pain, trials, all kinds of hardships.  I like to blog about the fun things for sure-blogging lifts me and I'm thankful for it.  But I also know there are people (readers out there as well as myself) who have struggles and pain.  We are not perfect, although that would be nice!   I know of homeschool mom bloggers who have struggled with the loss of their husband, a child or have a sick newborn-their pain seems so horrible and I feel terrible that I complain or feel as bad as I do for my issues but even if we don't have those kinds of things God still cares about our burdens-he cares even when our burden doesn't seem as big as others.  I have to constantly remind myself of this.  Remember me in prayer, sometimes you need a lift-let me know how I can pray for you- Like my friend mrsincredible told me Feb. alone is enough reason to be down.  There is something about this month that brings us down-the sun is hardly out, in our part of the country its really really cold, and the winter just seems to be dragging on, kids have been sick, and all of this makes trials seem more difficult.  But just around the corner there will be springtime, a new beginning, God letting us know we don't have to stay in a funk long.  HE is still here, he cares about all of us and every tear we shed he is aware of our pain- Again its something I have to constantly remind myself of!

Angela